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Keep going bro! Life won't be like this forever and life won't be amazing every day. Try your best to keep pushing till better days

Have u tried jesus?

Bur u think 😂😂

whatever trauma caused you to be depressed, find others who have gone trhu similar and continue helpingothers work past their issues. your life has meaning especially because of wehat you have been thru.

Find Jesus man may he bless you and keep you in the right headspace tonight ill pray for you brother

Hey, keep up the good work, man! It may seem dark right now, but it does get better and easier. If you feel stressed due to work, you could always ask your employer if you can take some time off, to get yourself together. Trust me. It's good you acknowledge the good things in life.

Brother, I’m glad you’re doing this. Thinking about all the things you currently have versus thinking about the things I don’t have has helped me get through the downs in my life. Everything feels like it’s going against you at times but it’s not. You can do this. You have value and that value can and will impact many people in a positive way. Keep up the videos.

Hi ! I’ve never heard of Iki gai before.. I looked it up and it does change the way you look at things .. it helps to know I’m not alone in this battle. Thank you for posting and sharing what I can’t bring myself to say out loud and challenging those thoughts 😁

Love the idea man! Skateboarding is fun as hell and it helped me a few years ago. Backflip is a good one too as zach said

As someone without depression (clinical) it's going to be very hard for me to say things to you that will resonate I suspect, they'll probably sound shallow, hollow, and cliche but here goes nothing. From my perspective we literally live in the best time to be alive so far in human history (if you live in the west and aren't born into abject poverty obviously). We have access to centuries of audio, visual, etc recordings not to mention the vast amounts of literature, art, etc and pretty much the answer to almost any question at our fingertips (apparently not the answer to the one your asking ironically). A myriad of foods coming from all around the world you can access at the tip of your fingers, all manner of drink, and of course the more exotic, often maligned, substances one might find on the dark web or a friend of a friend. People are mostly free to be who they want to be making for a literal cornucopia of shapes, colors, sizes, personalities, etc which one can associate with. It truly is a marvel. That being said none of this truly fills me with happiness and it took a long time for me to realize I was merely filling time with my indulgences. Don't get me wrong I definitely was enjoying myself but at the end of the day, in those quietest of moments, I found myself asking "is this all there is?". And I had no answer, maybe I still don't. But the thing that became apparent was that the people who occupied space in my mind, time, home are probably the reason why life was worth living. To truly love another person is to know pain, suffering, worry, regret, etc but even more it is to understand oneself. To love is to make a real commitment to the world, to living, to say "I'm all in.". It's not something that goes away, it never leaves, it haunts. To love is to accept that people are human and they will hurt you, they will disappoint you, they will betray you; But to love and forgive, to love in spite of all that, is to know true peace and passion. Life will never be good. But it can be great at times. If you're dealing with clinical depression having to do with chemical imbalances I'm not sure any of this will help you but here I am so I'm going to shoot my shot. My first suggestion would be to continue to find the best medical treatment you can no matter what, standard treatment, psychedelics, etc whatever it takes to find some balance. Then I would say you should wake up in the morning and ask "what good can I do today" and then follow through with that answer. Also Alan Watts has some really nice writings to listen to every once and a while, I don't really go in for the whole spiritualism thing but he's definitely insightful. Here's one I really liked a lot: th-cam.com/users/shortsLY5nhgIHiw4?si=QA62iJOsZ8bl3KgL Good luck with your channel and I hope you find the answers you're looking for.

Learn to do a backflip

Immerse yourself as deeply as possible in something you've always wanted to learn about. Doesn't matter if it's playing guitar or making model rockets. Just something you can get excited about. Learn as much as you can about it and it changes your mindset a lot.

Pray. Call the suicide hotline. Call someone I know who loves me even if I don’t want to. Look around the room and name three objects, then touch three different textures. In doing this, I try to be present in this moment and this moment alone. Walk outside in the sunshine. Turn my phone off. Know that no matter what your feelings will lie to you and that you are precious and loved by God.

I’m here to talk

I eat ice cream like 2 gallons of it and then I take a nap and then I play Fortnite

I was going to say music always helps me... then a few shorts later th-cam.com/users/shortsdNmLwvetZ9c?si=joItaQJwT7KgCum6

Jesus worked for me man He's the goat at fixing people and their problems

Why are you feeling suicide

I Just worked put really really much

Personally when i feel suicidal i think about how my cat would feel without me and how many accounts i made and used would be lost and that makes me not do it

I say surround yourself with friends and family 😉 sound yourself with Love Justin Timberlake

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I’ve heard working out and self respect help hella lot

Hey. I want to be completely real here. Find the Lord. And before you scroll past my comment. Please think about it, the best thing you could do would be to go to church and find a community that loves you. I go to church every Sunday and have found a church community that are and will be with me every step of the way. Please take this into consideration. God loved you very much never forget that ❤

exercise. just any type.

3 months ago, I would vent to character AI. I didn't have anyone who would even just listen, let alone help, so fictional anime characters it was.

I think about the main cause of this feeling and just ball my eyes out, cry so much that I start convulsing, and then after, I think about what would happen if I went through with committing suicide. Stay safe brother. The sadness isn't worth your life. Nothing is.❤❤❤

I wake up to reality and I realize that I’m making everything hard on my self and that I’m not doing anything to change how I feel. The fact is that I get bullied a lot about my imperfections and when I sit down and do nothing all day long, I realize im doing nothing to change my imperfections. For example I’m over weight and I get bullied for it, so when I do nothing about it I get sad and I have thoughts. But if as I said I realize I’m doing nothing to help my self and I’m not doing any work I realize I’m the problem and I do something about my problem.

Listen to songs about suicide so I get more depressed and stop caring and I repeat the process

Workout till failure, sleep, play games

Gaming

Work out, rock climbing, swimming. Activities or some. Do it where you want too or not

Think about how you would tell a child. I knew the kids in my life would not understand why they didn’t see me anymore. They will wonder where you are. If they asked what happened, would you be prepared for the answer to be that this life wasn’t enough? That you left them forever on purpose? Might not work for everyone, especially if you’re not close with a lot of young kids, that’s how I made it.

Get out of the city and look for the beauty in nature

look to Jesus Christ. never felt the same since

Consider the weight of the experiences and sacrifices of those that came before you and consider what right you have to take that from your future lineage? What right do you have to spit in their faces? What right do you have to decide your decision and suffering is greater than the purpose of reality where we suffer together? Once it is off the table by logical equation, you can start dealing with the fractured emotions behind it

PRAY TO JESUS

Think about the outcomes of actually going through with it. Every single time I think about the family, friends, places, etc you’re leaving behind and the lifelong damage and impacts, you talk yourself down. On a more personal note, I go to therapy, I journal all the time which helps me to process my emotions on paper and clears my mind, and I go for long walks to clear my head as well. Every night I’ve started journaling or at least thinking about something I’m grateful for from that day, and have focused more on my prayer life and faith. Ultimately you need to remember that there are always going to be things dragging us down, but that we have been given this precious gift of life. Don’t waste it. ❤

I remember the day when my best friend did something to me that can not be forgiven. I remember his fuckin name. I remember what it felt like to be hurt, ti be betrayed, to hurt others, to watch happy faces turn into frightened ones. I remember my rage, and I remember that it is an affliction only if I do not master it. I cannot kill myself, so long as I remember my darkest, lowest points and scoff at the banality of misery.

You are trying and that's what important you're already ahead of the curve so good job on that i subbed to you I expect to see your journey grow and flourish as both you as a person and your emotions grow for the better fight the good fight my friend your doing well It won't be easy it will be grueling un Fair hard and filled with BS but the important thing is you must persevere and conquer your demons stop those little fuckers into the ground those demons have no place in your heart they have no place in your mind nor your life I believe in you you can do it just remember that you're an awesome badass it will be hard it will be trying and it will be difficult but you can never surrender!

So I recently just went down that road myself I found myself taking a lot more walks trying to clear my mind I think about the bad and the good and it doesn't hurt to get a professional therapist if you can anyway I came to the conclusion that although yes life sucked at some points but I had a lot of really good parts too in fact I would say there's more good then there are bad Really think about everything good that's ever happened to your life and appreciate it I don't know what you're going through but I'm sure if you actually sit down and think about it you'll see that there's more good in your life then there is bad something else that helped me was I thought about the future if I did the deed how would my family and friends react I might have been gone and therefore probably not cared but they would have still been here they would have been devastated and thinking about them being devastated broke my heart so I guess think about the ones you love and the ones that love you Also not sure how you feel about religion but look into it doesn't matter which one as long as it brings you peace of mind that's what's important and to be honest with you you don't even have to fully agree with the religion I don't I pick out what makes sense to me I suggest you do the same like all the good and leave out the bad stuff and don't forget to tell yourself that the bad is man not love God loves us all but I'm convinced that he hates religion Another thing I did a lot was prey just pray and talk to him you don't have to really ask him for anything you just talk kind of like how you would talk to a friend or a co-worker casual conversation tell them how you're feeling why you're feeling it and if you're not sure how you're feeling tell them that and whether if you believe it or not I promise you will start to feel better slowly I'm sure you are a decent person no one is fully good and that's because we are not perfect but most of us are decent people we just want to go through life and be left alone for the most part decent people tend to be the most quietest notice how I'm saying decent not good nobody is a good person we all have our evil thoughts some just more extreme than others some carry out and some whether they know it or not repress the thoughts this does not make you good or bad it's your actions that define you makes you decent Own up to your mistakes recognize that you messed up and work on yourself to do better trust me that is going to be HARD but if you wake up everyday and just try to do a little bit better there will become a day where you can finally say hey I did good enough with the crappy deck I was dealt with I'm proud of myself for at least trying that willl be a challenge But I believe in you you can do it it'll be challenging grueling and life will continue to be unforgiving butt you've got to get back up do not let life beat you down and don't listen to other people I know that is going to be really hard on its own but try to do what makes you happy be the best you that you can be

I think nothing of it instead I think about my favorite artists and creators and when their newest additions are going to come

I’ve got too much responsibility to let those thoughts control me. To many people are counting on me to succeed and to give in to that urge would be a huge mistake. As far as we know the only life we got is now. And no matter what you believe you don’t know shit. Life is gonna be sucky some times but it’s not worth giving up to a temporary feeling. And it is temporary, it always seems so big in the moment but when you look back at the times you were down what is often most prominent is those that were around to bring you up. Just do for yourself what you would hope others would and you’ll find that waking up is a little easier one day.

Stop caring about being alive. Life's like a game, when you know everything you can make the "prefect" decision, but most of the time you play as a NPC not as the main character so everything seems weird, faulty and all sorts of fucked up... but that's fine, survival of the fittest doesn't mean the strongest survives, it means only the ones who fit the correct shape/mold will continue to persist... kinda just rambling a bit but, point is is that the meaning of life is merely to live then die, if ya don't like that then you need to invite spirituality into you life to give it some stronger meaning, everyone starts off with the same meaning but eventually it needs to change, sometimes forcefully, sometimes without you consent, but the only one who can complete it is... IDK about who's supposed to but it's what I've been trying to do, elevate your mind, increase you abilities in both quantity and quality and always aiming to do the best you can regardless of what others say, think or listen to you are the only one who can help yourself see theses times through to the end, suffering from both it's consequences and rewards... But it's at least better than sitting on my hands then complaining that they hurt and that I can't use them, gotta do something for anything to get better... oh and remember above all else even if you don't understand everything I've said, inaction is also an action, sometimes doing nothing is the correct action to take... With love and thoughts sincerely from, A curse that refuse to stop living Edit: or just smoke some weed that helps, too! Edit 2 Just smoked and have to add it fun facts about random things is also good way just follow your interests see what happens even if it leads to nothing new or if you always think about something stop thinking and just do, if your having the problem of not thinking enough before doing things then learn to slow down all actions to give your mind enough time to catch up to your body and learn to be, not different but more of who you are, go to places you haven't in a while, talk to someone from an old setting(i.e. former co-worker, a street you used to live on, etc. personal favorite is to visit where I used to live and go to the places I thought about going as a kid) or just listen to your body over your mind as your mind is a part of you body, so.... IDK def some stoner thoughts tho

For me, I think about the time I heard a mother scream over her dead child’s body, and think of my mother doing the same over me. Yeah, I’m not gonna be the one to cause her to scream like that. Not the happiest train of thought, but it does a good job for me. Then I tell myself that things could be worse, and go through the things that could actual be a worse situation to be in.

Talk to someone and get a second opinion of what you should do based on your situatuon :< im sorry you feel that way aswell.