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Esta mañana 8 de Enero 2025 en el desayuno he tomado la primera pastilla de 20 miligramos del antidepresivo "Citalopram" y al cabo de dos horas no he sentido nada. Me dijo el doctor que hay que dar a la medicina un tiempo, un par de semanas, para que se note el efecto. El efecto de la marihuana cuando se fuma es inmediato. Necesito algo que me haga feliz, que me haga optimista, que se note de verdad, que me haga otro yo. Si me rindo experimentando la realidad bajo su efecto no me sirve. No tengo que rendirme. Tengo que tener éxito. No tengo confianza en el efecto de los antidepresivos, y el tiempo dirá. Voy a darle un tiempo y después veremos. Cumplir la misión es lo único importante y si me ayuda a cumplir la misión lo uso y si me aleja del objetivo no lo uso. Necesito encontrar un trabajo para estar tranquilo, necesito dinero para estar tranquilo. Soy un buen cocinero y trabajador serio y responsable. Soy un psicólogo y pensador racional y he descubierto la naturaleza de Dios y estoy deprimido. Es la gente y la realidad lo que me deprime. La vida o realidad o lo percibido o lo experimentado me deprime. ¿Quién es el culpable?. Me gustaría que memorizases la falacia lógica atea para preservar conocimiento útil a generaciones futuras. Es imposible superar la censura. Mi verdad es el ateísmo es una falacia lógica que asume Dios es la idea religiosa del creador de la creación y concluye erróneamente el creador no existe porque una idea particular de Dios no existe. Si no estuviese censurado habrías sabido de mi. Gracias.

I am delighted and relieved you are doing good, sir. Happy New Year!

SSRI's not antidepressant after i got PSSD syndrome from Lexapro life going into nightmare anhedonia emotion blunting apathy on top of depression with SSRI's making worse i really recommend stop this useless drugs and look into MAOI there are reversible MAOI for example selegeline only thing with really helped me with depression and suicidal ideation is parnate this is antidepressant not useless SSRI's with only can help with anxiety buy completely blocking emotions overall MAOI DON'T do this they somehow really remove that "gray sunglasses" and that negative thinking about everything not really affect emotions but change perspective on it All about diet and dangerous interactions are overblown MAOI is extremely effective for depression I really recommend researching this in-depth

Back in 2019 I was out on Citalopram with for some extreme anxiety and panic attacks. It worked great for most the time I was on it, but in late 2023 I noticed it was losing its effectiveness until eventually it stopped working entirely, and even started producing unique symptoms. I then began a cross-taper from Citalopram onto sertraline, and it did not go well. I started experiencing symptoms of major depression for the first time in my life. It got so bad that I decided to quit both medications cold turkey halfway through the taper - BIG mistake. I do not know what happened to my brain during the process of coming off the drugs, but it was not the same after that. It’s been more than a year now, and I still feel symptoms of intense mental and physical discomfort that I never experienced before coming off the drugs. I feel like I’ve been brain damaged. Truly has been a life destroying event. If you ever do decide you need to come off, I would suggest you stretch your taper for as long as possible and make the incremental reductions in dosage as small as possible. Whatever period of time your doctor prescribes to taper on/off any psychiatric medication, I would insist you double it.

Hope it will works, I'm on it since 8 days and my despair is even more powerful, I think about suicide, everything is making me sick & hateful, there's no hope I hate this life

HAS ANY1 Suffered with what i am describing? PLEASE DO LET ME KNOW THAT YOUR LIFE IS BETTER NOW TAKNG THIS MEDICATION.. I have just started this medication today ,my mood journey has be deeep depression stay layin in my bed , no drive no ambition nothing like has taken a massive toll on me i have no interest in anything .. After a horrible break up also not letting me see my daughter has ruined me many ways with a broken soul. Im hoping this shall help me build mylife up again some how giving me motivation again as im so low inlife ... please do get back to me let me know if any1 had experienced what im going through.. Thank you God bless

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After being on medication for years, I think six weeks is way too short a period of time to taper off medication. Unfortunately, urgent care is hardly useful, in my opinion, based on my own experiences. Did you ever think about whether your fear of dying was irrational? Also, did you ever think about your station in life, considering the fact that you are so lucky, being who you are and having a rewarding, well-paying career?

I was in EXACTLY to the T same symptoms as you did. Panic attack out of the blue at work. Took forever to get diagnosed and treated. I empathize with you so very much. God bless you for sharing your experience because it helps for us to know we are not alone in these battles. Don't feel ashamed about taking medications and seeking help. I was like that for a long time but I got over it because I needed it. But what really helps me now is having found God again, after a long time of being the prodigal child. He keeps me see life more clearly, through His eyes. But medications definitely are sometimes necessary. I know, I'm a nurse 😊 God bless you! Praying for your continued healing!🙏

thanks for sharing with candour and vulneraility. Very much appreciated

Dear Ricallo, thank you for sharing this in a calm and honest manner. I had a panic disorder and intrusive thoughts. So I been on medication (Paroxat) for a long time. It feels very similar to what you describe. So thank you again! At the point in your video were you describe „covid“, „war“ … „worries“ - my thinking is: these „events“ are not the really cause of our anxiety. They can be a trigger. Slowly we have to learn to bear the bad feelings underneath them. Take care and all the best. Marc from Germany

Thanks for sharing your story🙏 iv been on 5mg citalopram first week and 10mg on 2d week, so its been 2 weeks on the medication but i feel very up and down in my mood and kinda low and i have anxiety on and of, its really tough.. i hope it will pass 🙏

Incredible story. Really hit home for me. You are inspiring. I'm on my third round of Citalopram in 4 years. I always come off it after a year or so and then end up in the same predicament as before. This time I've learnt my lesson and I'll probably stay on it for the rest of my life. The impact of anxiety, depression and panic is simply soul destroying. As you rightly say, a diabetic takes insulin, so why shoud we be ashamed of taking drugs such as this. After all, it is simply a restoring of the seratonin in our brains and restoring us to who we are truly meant to be- alongside other factors such as diet, therapy etc. Thanks for posting this video- I really needed to hear this today. Good luck the rest of your journey too. I'm a few weeks behind you but hopefully it will be as positive regarding the effects of Citalopram as yours is. All the best!

Thanks for sharing man , I'm 64 and live in the UK but still relate so closely to your journey.

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I’m having the same issue, mine came back after 32 years. I was fine sll this time. My intrusive thoughts are ocd-like and just junk and make no sense but they occupy my mind 24/7. Citalopram hasn’t helped, yet. Been on it for 5 weeks and feel no change. I still get panic attacks and sticky junk thoughts.

You seem like a gentle soul I wish you well ,

I appreciate that you shared. It helped me as I’ve been white knuckling anxiety and depression and am going get help.

I can relate. Was on Effexor for 5 years. Weened off about 6 months ago. A month ago everything came back. I started back about 2weeks ago. Still having good days and bad days. I appreciate your openness.

You came of the Citalopram way too fast. The recommended safe taper is 10% of the previous dose. You need to sack your doctor, he or she gave you bad tapering advice. 6 weeks taper is fine, if you only been taking anti-depresants for a few months. I have been on 20mg for 18 years and my taper will take longer then 3 yrs. The drug company trials for anti-depresants never lasted longer then 3 months. The drug companies lied when they stated anti-depresants were not addictive. The drug companies used an euphemism and called the addiction "discountinuation syndrome", its all bullshit. Do yourself a favour and read a book by Jamies Davies Phd called "Cracked".

Thanks for sharing your story! I’m just starting my journey with citalopram after a while of trying others with no results. Yes, I love your mom and her advice she is 100% correct! We all been there and I am okay with being in meds for the rest of my life because only I live in this body and mind. Hope you are thriving now :) sending love and hugs!

Thank you so much for this vid. I got prescribed almost the same medication but was afraid of taking it (especially the ssri). I got a theraoist which told me that medication would be bad for me, i myself was afraif of beeing numbend and not be able to feel like i used to. but listening to your video feel so calming and gives me a lot of trust in doctors back an i also have a diferent therapist now. so maybe i`m going to give these meds another try.

Although this is a video about anxiety, you are so calming to listen to. I'm going to be taking 10mg for the first time. I dread the first few weeks, but if I can deal with my disorders then I should handle it. I have panic disorder too and it's something people would have to have to understand. Just pure misery, I haven't left my house in five years because of it. Just that irrational fear of having a panic attack every day is so debilitating. I can handle a few baby attacks like you mentioned, but only if theres a legit reason and not super random like they are now. Hopefully you're doing well and same goes to those who are trying this medicine too. I can't wait to try and see how my life turns out. Thanks for the video!

I was taking Citalopram and I was waking up in the night with my heart pounding, it scared the hell out of me I felt like I was having a heart attack or something. I now take sertraline and I don't get that problem anymore.

Thanks for your openness to share and I’m so glad that your treatment is working for you!

Thanks for this. hope you're off the benzos

Is your name actually “Ricardo”?

I am doing a micro-taper off my 20MG dose of Citalopram. I have been on it over 10 years. I have quit twice before but always ended up back on, the last time so I could function at work. Today is different because I am retired and I have a lot more insight into my mental landscape. I have been doing things like energy work, breath work, lots of journaling, meditation, sleep. Also, I am off flour, sugar and grains for 11 mos now, so I feel as though I have more clarity. I hope I will be successful this time because I am tapering super-gradually. Forgive the bitterness here, but my experience has been that doctors don't know jack sh** about how to taper off Citalopram. I went to The Withdrawal Project for support this time around and they have been great. I have tapered my dose from 20MG to 18MG for 19 days so far. At the 30 day mark, I will taper down another 10% off the 18MG, so 16.20 for a month, unless I feel symptoms returning. When I first got on Citalopram it was a life saver and in 2016 when my dose was doubled to 20MG I was in a lot of pain, but I am ready to be off it now and since I have 2 failures under my belt, I am being super cautious (i.e., slow) at this point. Thanks for sharing your story. I hope mine will be of interest to you.

at 5:15 you said you took another drug that helped you can you tell me what ssri you were mentioning ? i want to do some research on it thankyou

I just want to say thank you. I'm starting with this soon, and I've been anxiety researching people's experience with this. I'm honestly so terrified because I'm such a deeply emotional person and I've seen people say it takes your emotions away but it would be so nice to just not have anxiety and want to unalive myself on a daily basis. And I'm terrified of weight gain. But I still want to try at least. I'm probably going to rewatch this later on when going through the symptoms, just so I don't stop taking them.

Thank you. You have giving me hope. I am one week on 10 mg Citalopram. Like you, my mornings are really hard. Also, each day around 6pm I start really feeling better. I wonder if I switch to taking the drug at bed if my days will be better.

I just finished 4 weeks on lexapro and I just feel very exhausted and low motivation does this go away can anyone chime in ? I almost feel worse in a way . Like idgaf about stuff maybe more depressed , I feel like I wasn’t depressed before and now I am

I am on 20mg, just started today, after going to the ER, 2 days ago, I have never been so scared in my entire life, I thought I was gonna die, thankfully my mom was with me during this or idk what I would have done. Really hoping this works, I don't want to feel this way anymore. ( never once have I ever wanted to hurt myself, I love life too much ) it's just so odd, I guess what I can't wrap my head around is that I felt so normal just 3 days ago then 2 days ago, boom it felt like everything stopped, but I can say this for a fact, if Celexa works, I wont stop taking it, I never want to feel this way again.

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Im on 10mg citalopram and it has stopped my anxiety and panic attacks in their tracks. My mood has really lifted and im starting to enjoy life again. However i dont just rely on the medication, i exercise, take vitamins, eat healthy, and get plenty of sleep, all which i intend to keep doing!

Tk you for sharing....it was very helpful as I, too, recently had a breakdown after quitting citalapram. It was a terrifying experience and I'm still trying to recover. Your video has encouraged me to continue my own struggle.

Thank you for sharing I appreciate it I think you are doing the right thing by getting back on your meds There's no shame in helping yourself GOD gave us doctors and medicine to help us GOD bless you and your family Hang in there and talk to the LORD JESUS CHRIST

Thanks for sharing your experiences. Stay strong, always forward.

Thanks for sharing bro. Had a similiar experience in my mid 30's out of nowhere. Celexa has helped me tremendously.

Currently in the same predicament, I was on citalopram after having a break down 6 years ago. I stupidly thought I no longer need them and decided to wean off them under drs supervision. The first 4 weeks was great but then I got Covid and it has wrecked my mental health. I am currently on week 4 20 mg and feel like I’m clinging on. Can I ask how your feeling now?

Getting anxiety from "body stuff" I can definitely relate. It's like some people are more aware of these things than others.

thank you so much for sharing this video. i just started my journey with citalopram for two months. it has increased my mood but not to were i need to be so my doctor upd my dose to 40mg been feeling low ambition lately and mood hasnt been the best hoping this wave passes and i can have some peace and happyness!!

I struggle with my mental health and considering starting citalpram could it help with sleep too? Thanks

Your story is similar to mine in many respects. I'm a 44 year old man and I live alone too. I had anxiety my whole life, but I didn't really know that I had it until my nervous breakdown in 2016. I remember that day very clearly because it was right after Trump's election, on November 9, 2016. I'm not saying his election was the only reason I had the panic attack, but it was the last nail in the coffin. Similarly to you, my symptoms were sheer panic, and I could not function. Also similarly to you, I had 0 sucidal thoughts. It took me about 6 months to fully recover from the breakdown, but I did it without meds (except a couple of weeks of Ativans, i.e. benzos). I did not go see my doctor to prescribe any meds at that time, as the thought didn't really occur to me. I did start going to therapy during the breakdown and I've been going ever since. I wanted to get to the root of my anxiety and try to get it under contro going forward. I also wanted to deal with some attachment issues that I discovered I had, namely that I'm a fearful avoidant type. Whenever I get emotionally close to a woman, I get extremely anxious, and suffer mini breakdowns each time. So all my realtionships are short-lived, to the point where I avoided them altogether. Flash forward to the beginning of last December, and I had a really bad panic attack during a poker game with some guys I didn't know. I tried to hide my anxiety by drinking but it did not make it go away. This panic attack sent me into a 3-month downard spiral of almost constant panic, sever insomnia, and eventually depressive symptoms and suicidal ideation. Similary to your experience 3 months after quitting citalopram, I had a terrible sense of dread and loneliness. To top it all off, I saught reassurance with a woman with whom I wasn't a good fit, but I was desperate for company. This relationship also didn't work out and that sent me spiraling down even more. All of this was after the 3 years of covid lockdowns and isolation, as well as some family problems. It all became too much and my therapist recommended I got on meds. I asked my doctor to prescribe me some Lexapro (escitalopram) and I've been taking it for the last 3 weeks. I can already feel the positive effects. I am not a anxious wreck anymore, I can get out of the house, see my friends, be productive at work, and not feel dread and panic, especailly when I'm alone. Before getting on lexapro, I had tried many things like mediation, cutting out alcohol and coffee, exercise, etc. But it wasn't enough to keep the anxiety at bay. My doctor reccomends that I stay on lexapro for at leat 6 months to a year. And to be honest, if I knew this medication kept working until the day I died, I would stay on it until then. I do intend to keep working on myself, and improve my habits and way of thinking, and hopefully this will take me to a good enough place to quit the meds in a year or so. However, I will remain cautious. I think my brain has been running on anxiety for so long that I might need to take these meds for the rest of my life. As you said, some people need medication for diabetes, why should we feel ashamed that we need SSRIs for our anxious brains? The world is a messy place, we are not adapted to live in such an environment, and some of us need this medication to stay alive. Good luck to you and feel free to reach out if you want to talk. I think we have a lot in common.

Thank you for sharing your story. I've been dealing with panic disorder for 38 years. It sucks and taking medication everyday is no fun either. Celexa has helped me a great deal. The mind is so powerful and I hope all who deal with mental illness can find comfort.

You're anxious about shit you see on the news and social media. Ffs. TURN OFF YOUR TVs.Put down your I pads.. it's nothing but fear porn and none of it will ever affect your daily life. I quit watching the news five years ago and it was the vest thing ibwver did. I no longer live if fear of things that don't affect me. My anxiety just disappeared 😕

Doctors are nothing more than brainwashed puppets for the pharmaceutical companies. Nobody needs to be on their anti depressants. They don't don't give two fucks about your wellbeing. If they did, they'd be advising that you eat well and take regular exercise. Workout.

Never feel shame I know that feeling but if they help take them I been on 30mg for yrs and am now seeing how I do without them coming off slowly with medical advice.👍

I’ve been taking antidepressants for over 27 years. I’ve been in Prozac, Wellbutrin and right now I’m on celexa for the las 12 years. Seven years ago I was taking only 10 milligrams of celexa and I was feeling fenomenal, so I decided to stop it. Well it was the worst mistake ever! I relapsed and my depression was horrible. I had to go back on, but now I have to take triple of the dosage. I really don’t recommend to stop the medication unless you really change your lifestyle, going to therapy, exercise, meditate and so on. It took me like six years to start feeling myself again! 😢

Thx 4 your inspiring story means alot