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In general, I am not really fond of this time of the year. The holidays are difficult for me. But I'm trying to find ways to be content if nothing else. I took a walk today as opposed to driving to do an errand. And I also went to the library, which I broke my own rule and ended up checking out three books instead of just one. This month is National Novel Writing Month and I wasn't really feeling motivated. But then a few days ago I had this huge idea in my head during work. It would be nice to really be creative with what I have in my mind to write, but I just need a bit more motivation and I suppose a little more free time. The things you shared sound like good ideas. I try to do some of them, but I tend to get discouraged easily. I hope they have been working well for you this week.

I'm sorry about what happened to you, but I'm glad you were able to get it corrected so your vote counts. I have heard of a similar situation in Florida that really disgusted me the lengths people in power will go to take away someone's right to vote. I hope that you don't have to deal with this again in future elections. With that said...I wasn't planning on voting this election. Really, I have only voted once and it was four years ago and I really had to force myself to do so. I guess I just never felt like my vote ever mattered. But there were some things over the past months that has kind of stated with me. And as weird as this may sound, one of those things was something that you said regarding voting. You sounded really passionate about being able to vote, even in small, local elections. And so, yesterday, I decided to vote. I know that my vote more than likely won't change things in your area, but I am glad that I at least made the effort to use my voice instead of staying silent. Sorry if I'm asking this wrong, but as someone who was born here, is the process of obtaining citizenship difficult?

This is ridiculous. The way they did it was outrageous and per the state law your not required to show proof of your citizenship and that is exactly what they are doing. My opinion on this is the way the state law is currently this should be illegal.

I feel awkward saying this but my last comment i made a couple of days ago is gone. not sure why, but I'm sorry if I said something wrong. Anyway, I don't really like candy bars or chocolate. But on rare occasions I will eat things like butterfingers or hershey's cookies and cream.

My favorite candy bar is Reese’s peanut butter cups. It used to be whatchamacallit until they ruined it by adding caramel.

Here’s an interesting tradition for you. Out here in the Des Moines area all the cities have gotten together and started beggers night and it has been going on since 1938. It is he on a different night than Halloween and the children have to tell you a joke to get candy instead of saying trick-or-treat. This year because of storms on Wednesday, it was moved to Halloween and it’s the first time it’s been on Halloween since 1938. They started the tradition to deter vandalism.

I have had people be what could be considered nice towards me, but something would be off about it. Like someone would offer me something and if I politely declined, they would try to guilt me into taking it. But then I have had someone do something and they would go about in a very sincere way. No guilt or agenda. And I suppose I could feel their kindness if that makes any sense. Anyway, I hope this isn't too off topic regarding what you said. Sounds like what happened at work was very meaningful to you.

Sorry about any of the setbacks you had with the garden, but I'm glad some good things came out of it. I'm glad it was a good learning experience for you and that you didn't get discouraged from trying again next year. That thing you showed at the beginning...that's a type of vegetable, right? Sorry, I don't think I have ever heard of it before or never paid attention to it if I have seen one.

I try to take accountability for my actions as in not to react too strongly on my emotions. A couple of weeks ago, I had someone say some pretty thoughtless things to me. I was already feeling bad and what this person said just added to that. And it brought on feelings of wanting to drink as I just felt overwhelmed. Something similar happened seven years ago where I did end up drinking and it led to things not going very well for a few months. So remembering how things turned out last time helped me stay accountable, I suppose. Sorry, I may not have explained that in the best way.

I definitely have a hard time with seeing the good. I try to come up with gratitude lists from time to time, but they kind of seem superficial(stuff like having a kitchen pantry full of video games). But it's like you were saying the small things are worth holding onto. This recent multi day power outage in my area reminded me of walking downtown and just sitting in the hotel and listening to music in the lobby. I admire you for seeing the progress you have made in your life. And I'm glad you were able to get tickets. I know it wasn't easy. So I hope all goes well between now and when you get to see them perform live.

Give them silence and they ramp it up then they quit.

Sorry in advance if this ends up being too long. So, I'm in the Upstate part of South Carolina(Greenville) and it's next to the western part of North Carolina. For whatever reason, my job had us come in to work on the day of the storm and it began as the shift before me was finishing up. The power going out was the only reason everyone got sent home. By the time I tried to leave, trees had fallen in the road and blocked the entrance out of the complex. I got stuck in the mud trying to go around one of the fallen trees. It was not a pleasant experience, but eventually once the storm cleared, I was able to get AAA to pull the car out and there was no real damage to it except losing a bit of tire pressure. I ended up spending four nights without power. Luckily, other areas didn't lose power so I was able to go to stores for food or to a hotel downtown where they let me charge things like my phone there. One odd thing is that I didn't feel all that hungry during the time without power. People here also don't seem to realize that when traffic lights are out, that it doesn't mean you get to plow right through them. That caused a lot of accidents. It was hard to get through as there were a lot of uncertainty when power would be restored, but I realize it was not as bad here as it is in western North Carolina. That area was thought to be the perfect place in dealing with things like climate change and major storms, but this has proved that it wasn't after all. I fear many there may not recover from this for some time. Again, sorry for the long explanation, but I just wanted to share my experience with the storm. Anyway, I hope that you're able to get tickets to see Oasis and that those two brothers manage to get along for the entire tour and don't end up cancelling during it or something.

The lighting seems good. Sorry if you answered this and it just went over my head, but what are you hoping the new owners will do better than the previous one? Sorry they aren't doing well at the moment, but hopefully that will change in their next games. How much memorabilia do you have?

She reminds me of another con artist, Billy McFarland in that she doesn't seem to feel any remorse for what she did and will continue to find ways to get money from people. I have only watched a few episodes of DWTS over the years, and it's been interesting the variety of stars they have had participate (Steve-O from Jackass). But I have a feeling at some point, they're going to bring in more questionable "stars" like they have this season. Wouldn't be surprised if the Hawk Tuah girl's name has been brought up a few times in a pitch meeting.

I have experienced narcissism from people and the messed up thing is how they can deflect their behavior on you as if you're the one being that way. It's a very frustrating feeling to say the least. I'm sorry that you have various people display that kind of behavior towards you throughout your life. Sorry if this is wrong to ask, but did you and your sister end up running away?

I didn't notice the fly during your video, but sorry as it does sound irritating.

This one was hard to watch. Had a "bully" claim to not remember the things he did. It's frustrating, but I want to be willing to find peace with what happened, without expecting anything from him to do so.

I give gifts, but I do so anonymously. I suppose I do it that way because I don't like recognition, and I just want the person to focus on the gift without feeling as though they owe me anything. I don't really like physical touch, which I hate admitting to since it's a pretty normal thing. It's not exactly physical touch, but I have a hard time making eye contact, for example.

Love your choice

I'm not sure if I'm a perfectionist. I mean, I second guess myself a lot and one of the reasons I apologize often is because of not being sure something I have said or done is "correct". But thank you for sharing the articles as I would like to learn more about this. And I'm glad you have been able to overcome your perfectionism for the most part.

I am wary of getting advice and even more so about giving it. I once was in a group setting and made the mistake of saying i was feeling a bit stuck in life. This one guy in the group felt that i was isolating myself. His solution? It was to talk to people more. Not in a practical way like joining a club or something. But like just go up to strangers on the street and just start telling them my problems and stuff. Why he thought me going up to a random person and opening up to them about whatever is on my mind was a good idea, I'm not really sure, but I definitely did not take this advice to heart. What I try at the very least to do is empathize with someone. And I say that because giving advice that is practical can be difficult. And too many times, whether it's online or off, people tend to become "experts" on other people's problems, when more often than not, they can't seem to solve their own. Anyway, I'm not sure if that really made sense.

Ivy says hi Aunty Alexa. As soon as this video started someone jumped up on the couch wagging her tail trying to see the phone. She recognized your voice

I understand feeling off. This has been an off week for me. Actually had to work this past monday, and lucky me, I get to work both saturday and sunday. But I look forward to what you have to say regarding the topics you mentioned. But it's okay if you can't make time to make a video on saturday. Hope you enjoy your weekend. Just wondering.....does the other cat like to be picked up?

I was cut off for two years from my son Alexa and I totally understand why. We have a relationship now but I needed to give him space.

Were other people you spoke to also have things eaten from their gardens? As for hobbies, I have been interested in learning three languages Spanish, French and Japanese. I suppose Spanish may be the best one to try since there are people in my area who speak Spanish as opposed to the other two languages. The other hobby is kind of silly, but I have always wanted to try building a Lego set. There is one that is a replica of an original Nintendo and an 80's style TV set. I have wanted to get it for some time, but it comes down to whether I could see myself putting in the time and effort to put it together. still, it's on my list of things I want to get eventually.

I don't think I have good taste in music. I never really got into a lot of stuff most people my age did (most modern pop, R&B, Hip-Hop). But I am always grateful for the movie Shaun of the Dead because it featured the song Don't Stop Me Now, which in turn made me go out and get Queen's greatest hits CD, which opened me up to a ton of their songs not called We Will Rock You and We are the Champions. As far as who I would like to see in concert...as I said, I don't have the best taste in music so I can't see myself going to an event that is very loud and crowded. But there are two that I may be willing to see: Masayoshi Takanaka is one and the other is Yuji Ohno and his band, You and Explosion Band. Anyway, I'm sorry about the frustrations you experienced with trying to get tickets. I hope you have better luck eventually. And I can relate when it comes to how you feel regarding injustice.

I have heard people say that editing was a tedious process but never fully understood what that meant overall. Thank you for sharing this. And for what it's worth, your early attempts at making videos were not bad. I think it's like you said about being a beginner and making mistakes and it was definitely okay for your first time doing so.

Sorry I am just now watching this video. I have dealt with controlling people and I have at times came out of those situations feeling like a coward for not speaking up either sooner or at all. I have come to terms with some of those experiences but not all. But as for what courage is, I have a hard time seeing it in myself to say for sure. Instead, I have on my refrigerator a magnet with a quote from Mary Anne Radmacher that says, "Courage does not always roar. Sometimes courage is a little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow."

Congratulations on doing this for six months. I admire the effort you put into all of your videos and having the willingness to put yourself out there. I have found all of your videos interesting and informative and if you made any mistakes, I never really noticed. Watching not just your videos but others that share on different topics has challenged me to be more attentive and not just put on a video as background noise. I know it isn't easy making videos, which is one reason I never had the courage to do so. One thing that I do want to do in the next few months is take part in a writer's group at the library in my area. I used to go, but at some point, I let anxiety hold me back. They just recently brought it back after stopping it due to Covid, so I'm going to try participating next month. So yeah...I guess that is my attempt at facing one of my many fears. Anyway, I just realized that this is my third straight comment on your videos that is really long so I hope this made sense. I'm trying really hard to avoid saying sorry for this by the way.

This is negative to say but I feel I find myself feeling frustrated or something similar quite often. Sometimes, I can pinpoint why, like if it's at work and maybe something like people just letting one of our trash bins overflow, then I will make the effort to dump it out. And it's weird, but there have been times where I have had to deal with trying to dump a trash bag so heavy that it would break and I would have to do so in the rain, but I would find some kind of satisfaction from it. And I guess that would help with any frustration I was feeling, strangely enough. But when it comes to other times, like being out around others and maybe feeling inadequate and comparing myself to people I see (like couples or groups of friends), that's a bit hard. I think I just eventually retreat back to solitude where I feel those things less. Anyway, I don't know if I explained that well, but I'm sorry about the way you were feeling at the time you made this video.

Thank you for sharing the link to the video. I have lived on the east coast my whole life, and the furthest west I have traveled is to Wisconsin. I have always liked what big city life has to offer, but at the same time, I have had this fascination with living out west, somewhere that didn't seem too populated. Oddly enough, this first came about after I first saw the movie Independence Day and thought about maybe having a better chance at surviving such a thing if I lived as far away from any major city. This is kind of dumb of me to admit, but a few years ago I managed to overcome my lifelong fear of driving enough to get my license. And one of the things I would like to do is drive out west at some point and maybe see those areas that aren't as populated. Anyway, I didn't mean to write so much or if I got a bit off topic with this.

I guess, if I am looking at the chart you shared the right way, I am a soloist. I have at times found myself afraid of working with others. One reason was what you mentioned about having group assignments and college and expecting the others to do what they are supposed to do in order to get an A. I never felt I was on the same level as everyone else and was afraid it would show. Sorry if I didn't explain that well. Anyway, I'm also sorry you experienced this growing up and I hope your garden will turn out okay.

I remember watching Kerri Strug do the vault. If I recall correctly, her coach was saying to her "shake it off!", which at the time was seen as inspiring, but at the same time, no one should push themselves, physically or mentally when they are hurting. I haven't really been watching the olympics, but just been seeing highlights here and there. I felt bad though for the Japanese girl who got sent home before the games started. Even though she may have broken the rules, it must be really devastating to train for years, just to lose the chance to compete like that. Anyway, thank you for sharing yet another insightful video.

Sha’Carri’s biological mother passed away a week before the trials. She was raised by her grandmother and Aunt. She has been open about her abandonment issues and trying to prove herself worthy. She didn’t even now her biological mother died until a reporter told her during an interview shortly before the trials. I get how that can impact her. Also if we are going to talk about the Olympics and being strong mentally we have to talk about Yusuf Dikeç a shooter from Turkey who walked in with no special equipment some people were laughing at him and he won a silver medal while shooting with one hand in his pocket. People are now comparing him to James Bond. You got to love it.

Congratulations on your harvest so far. I admire the dedication you put into this. Was the bread hard to make? Anyway, I hope your next harvest will be as rewarding.

I have at times thought of cutting my mother out of my life. It's not exactly simple, though I have learned to not share certain things with her. I guess for me, I think about times where I don't feel I was a good son and I feel guilt and shame and I try to work on improving in certain parts of my life. My mother does not see where she has been wrong. And I would maybe be okay with that if it wasn't for the fact that she would expect change from me and more so, it be in an almost unrealistic way. I try to accept that she may never change but it's hard. Really, I suppose there are other people in my life, past and present that I have similar issues like that with. Anyway, thank you for sharing this. I'm sorry that you had to cut your mother and sibling out of your life, even though it sounds like it has been for the best in some way. But I also get the impression that it at times made you question yourself. Sorry if I'm wrong.

I can't think of a particular topic right now. Or maybe I have but just not quite sure about it yet. But I hope your channel starts to grow soon. I know some other people on youtube who make good videos like yours but just aren't getting more views. I'm really sorry about that.

I try to deal with frustration by doing something nice for myself. But it often backfires. For example, I may try to go to a store I like, but then it's crowded and my anxiety just goes up, and more so, I end up not finding something I want. But sometimes that isn't the case, and I end up glad I went out because it helped in some small way. There was a time where I used to drink to deal with frustration and pretty much everything else. But, at least for the past six years, I have managed to not turn to that when it comes to dealing with life and the many frustrations that come with it.

For me, many of the "labels" I may have placed on myself possibly came from others. But I would accept them as well as expand on them in some way or another. And I may have managed, to some degree to stop letting certain ones define me, though others are definitely a work in progress. I want to say right now though that I very much want to apologize if that didn't make sense, but I am going to avoid doing so. I'm glad your cat's eye is doing well since the hair was removed.

Congratulations on your fortieth video. I look forward to seeing your videos no matter what day you post them. Sorry if that sounded kind of creepy.

Well, it's not as unique as what you collect, but I have a video game collection. The thing is, I didn't exactly collect them on purpose. Growing up, video games were in some ways like toys meaning I would just play the game and end up losing the instruction manual and threw away the box altogether. But as I got older, and video games evolved into more story driven narratives, they became something more meaningful. There is a monetary value to my collection, but it the sentimental value that makes me continue playing and collecting video games as cliched as that may sound.

I want to say that I am sorry in advance if I sound....rather bitter(?), but from my experience, whether I am nice or kind, it has always been treated as a bad thing. Like I have some kind of underhanded agenda for being that way or something when maybe I just do so because that is the way I wish others would treat me. But rarely did it ever feel reciprocated. What I would get was a feeling of being gaslit, though it was always hard to tell if that was really the case. Honestly, sometimes....I just wish I could be an asshole and not care. Because those type of people never feel guilt or shame or second guess themselves like I do. Anyway, I'm sorry for my nonsense rambling and I probably misunderstood your well thought out video. I will end this though by saying I'm glad your cat got that thing out of his eye and I hope he won't need any kind of surgery down the line.

Sorry for looking at these videos out of order but for what it is worth, the videos I have seen so far all show you putting great effort into them. So I would say that you are definitely doing your best. And sorry if it is too forward, but your hair looked fine in this video.

Thank you for sharing this. I hope you won't take down that video you made, but I understand if you feel you have to at some point. I am probably a pessimistic person for the most part, but I am trying to work on seeing the positive more in things in my life. I'm glad your cat is doing better with his eye.

Your spring cleaning sounds like it all went well. I hope you have been able to find someone to help with moving the AC out. I am trying to work on decluttering. Sports in the UK sounds like it's taken even more serious than here in the States. Also, I hope your birthday month has been well.

Thank you for being willing to be so vulnerable. I know this wasn't easy but I admire you for sharing this. I'm very sorry for the pain you have had to live with for so long. I may be able to relate in some way. There has been some people who have caused me pain and I would ask the same question you did in that did they even realize how they hurt me. I'm not sure and at least in one case, the person claims to not remember. But I'm sorry as it sounds like your mother has never thought about the pain she has caused. Even though it does feel like the hurt never really goes away, I hope that it never overwhelms you or makes me you feel hopeless. Sorry if I said that wrong.