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Lost my son Noah at the age of fifteen

Thank you so much

I was also a single mom who lost my only daughter,Azraa due to cancer,a brain tumour, that was 7 years ago, she was 9.I will start crying just thinking of her, she was so beautiful,kind,best manners, the best daughter ever.😢❤

Or "he's at peace now..."Really? How do you know?

Thank you. I relate to what you're saying. Sadly.

Lost my only child 5 months ago and I've watched you since the beginning of my loss. I needed to watch you again especially during the holidays. Thank you for being authentic as I can't stand toxic positive people.

Thank you. Im experiencing all you have talked about.

Thank you

My only son died 24 hours ago. You helped me beyond words. Thank you.

I lost my child and I haven’t had no support and it’s been horrible and she would be 1 yrs old today

Or when people say we all gotta die that sound so heart less and like u have no empathy

That is upsetting hearing their in a better place even if they are that don’t make u feel better

I swear I wish people would say nothing , than hearing people say u can have another child ur still young , or they in a better place they with God ,

Thank you so much. You really help soothe me when I panic and feel overwhelmed.

I lost my precious baby boy a few weeks ago and everything that your saying is so true. He had just turned 30 and he had blood clots with myocarditis from the poison shot. I had tried to be strong for my oldest son and hide my pain. I recently noticed my heart hurting so bad that I thought I was going to go to the emergency room. I took my blood pressure pill thinking maybe my blood pressure was high. I almost felt like my heart was going to burst. I did meet up with another mom that lost her daughter some years ago and that did help. I just wanna say thank you so much for sharing your pain. It really helps to know that I'm not alone.

Thank you

Thanks for sharing your story. I feel encouraged as I can relate tothese experiences you have been going through.

This was so beautiful. I would love to know how you’re doing

The English language lacks a lot of subtlety. I have children I gave birth to, children of my heart, children I have known all their lives, children who didn't survive, children who have abandoned me, children who are now adult. I'm afraid that when I'm asked by a stranger, I may occasionally give a completely random and fabricated answer. I'm inclined to create a story. That way, I don't disturb my emotions.

This is such a helpful video. You talk from the heart about your own grief and loss. My situation, my story, is very different but your words ring true at my core.

This is very brave of you. I'm sure you wish <today's you> had been there to support <freshly-stricken you>. You have found some good and some strength to offer others. The wisdom you've distilled from your experience is a treasure and your good heart has encouraged you to share it. ❤

Thank you for taking the time to share your thoughts and experience, we lost our amazing and extremely musically talented oldest 34 year old son in June His Birthday is next month December … I am in so much pain without him here It has been life shattering. I believe there is hope of seeing him again as a believer in Christ I am shaken to the core even in faith This is something that is out of natural order and I hate that any parent has had this most tragic horrible experience in life. Again thank you for your video and your bravery… one momma heart to another it ought not to be

My girlfriend has lost her son ,Thanks for this video, Bless you

Thank you! Had a sibling recently lose a child and I've had loss in my life, but not a child and I just want to help support her through it. This has been very very helpful.

Thank you 🕊️

So very helpful and so very sorry for your loss 💔😘

Your son looks like a very sweet young man - a joy to all he met, taken far too soon... thank you for sharing his photo at the end ❤️ 😭 Unimaginable devastating and tragic loss, there really are no words but I hope a little bit of my love and compassion reaches you through this comment as you try to get through another day, another Christmas- without him - sending you a hug from up north, Im so, so sorry for your loss... one day at a time 🕊💔

I lost my 3year old handsome boy😭😭😭

I lost my baby son at age 31 with lung cancer. He has been gone almost 3 months. I am finding I suppressed a lot of pain and grief to be strong to get through all you have to do. Husband completely shutdown and has been of no comfort at all. I think I started grieving 19 months before he passed when we learned our healthy 29 year old son had a terminal cancer. But things are bubbling to the surface. I actually just exploded and screamed at my husband in voices I have never heard come out of me. I was building up resentment of him not showing any compassion to me. He didn’t come to the hospital when I sent him messages he was getting worse. He didn’t watch his horrible last 2 days and the last 5-10 mins on this earth. It plays in my mind constantly. I am no stranger to death. Worked in healthcare and took many people off respirators. But he suffered. Then he didn’t help pick out the casket or go to funeral home to plan. He started vomiting day of funeral and didn’t go. He didn’t see them close you baby in that box forever. He didn’t see them put him in that ground forever. I think those things needed to be said. He had told me he was happy I was able to get over it. HOW ON THE FACE OF THIS EARTH WILL I EVER GET OVER THIS. I WILL NEVER GET OVER THIS. ITS A NIGHTMARE

I lost my beautiful son JP after years trying to recuperate from covid19 He passed away then two times , He became our hero ,but he really never got well, but still he fought every step I Admired him so much and loved him fot it , three weeks ago October 7 after being in and out of hospital so many times , he suffered an aneurysm to the stem of his brain , he survived till the 23th , Im so debateded and helpeless I couldn't help him and now he's gone Tomorrow is his burial, and I'm here thinking what to wear , Oh gosh, i just want him back .... Dont know how to go on without my eldest sweet boy i love you JP for now till forever !

i just lost my 3 month old baby 5 days ago😢 suddenly went into cardiac arrest at home and i couldnt save her..im here bc i dont know where to turn

This really helped me. I’m 16 and about to turn 17. I have been thinking about suicide for a while, but I’m scared of how my parents and loved ones would react. I don’t want to cause them this kind of pain, but I’m in pain myself.

Thank you for your video.😊

I lost my son April 2023, he tried to commit suicide & ended up in life support & we had to make that dreadful decision to let him go. You are right, I couldn't get as much support from my immediate family. His twin brother is still struggling & he's angry at me, why? His reasoning makes no sense to me. I appreciate your video. ❤

I lost my son this year july 28th. Its been so very hard to function when you know you have to. I was wondering y i was having all the chest and shoulder neck pain. Its so hard without my son.

Dear Nikki, thank you for sharing your thoughts, feelings and experience in your videos. It also helps us, the people close to parents who suffered such a tragedy, the friends of grieving parents. It is the worst nightmare in life, a parent can experience and although we are close we will not have to go the same path. As a mother myself, I want to help my friend, comfort her and be there and your videos help me to stay focused and do the best that I can. In one video you mentioned the grief-room and the forever returning to it. There may be people who expect grieving parents to leave that room for good someday. But I believe that most people do understand, that that door can never be closed. ❤

This will help me in helping my grieving friend. thank you very much. I am so sorry for your loss.

I cannot imagine your loss... I had a miscarriage 38 years ago...But losing a child been with us would be absolutely devastating. May God bless you

My friend lost her son 2 days ago, he just turned 16. He accidentally fell under a train... I want to help, somehow, be there. thank you! thank you for sharing. Thank you for helping others. It means so very much. I am also so sorry for your loss.

I was wondering how you doing since the last update. I lost my daughter now 2 year I miss her so much and getting crazy. And suffering from all what you mention in this video.

Thank you Nikki you are wonderful I lost my stepson September 24th in Iowa Devin Woods I really miss that boy I really do. Stay strong 💯

I just lost my 28 year old daughter two days ago. I am in constant pain, along with her twin brother, dad and service dogs. My daughter is now free of continuing pain for over 16 years.

I lost my only son Debangshu on 5.9.24. I have plunged myself in d service of mankind since I am a doctor nd believe me work is d best painkiller right now .Everyday I cry myself to sleep nd my only prayers to God is to take meaway soon.He was avictimof bullying due to his altered sexuality nd I find solace in d fact that he is happier wherever he is away from this cruel world.

Thank you so much. I don't really have words of comfort....have not discovered that yet but I send you positive energy to you and hope it helps somehow

Thank you for your video. You are so brave and strong to do this video. So sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy xx We lost our 13month old son 7months ago we have been told another 7months for outcome due to lack of paediatric pathologists. Thinking of you and your family and all the people on this chat who have lost a child xxxx

Thank you so much 🙏🏼😭❤️‍🩹 I've been dealing with losing my daughter on my own for 3 years and I am so very sorry for your loss. The loss is incalculable In anyone's mind, especially our own

Our language is not equipped, not good enough to describe the horror of a loved one loss. And you are absolutely right, this experience can not be put into words.

I lost my 21 year old son 8 months ago. He died suddenly from overdose and we never got to say goodbye. Everything you say resonates. I had an ECG done as I thought I was going to have a heart attack. I could not bear crowds and noise, not even the radio on. I still waver between numbness and crying intensely. Still riding the waves. Society just expects us to keep going and get back to normal, to work and life after this most cruel of losses. I find this expectation most unfair. Words still fail me as well but I do feel the day I lost my son I became "disabled" (not to take away from anyone with a physical disability). I am not the same. I am separate and different except for other parents in this unwanted club. I move through the world differently, nothing is the same any more and I am not functioning as I once did. I think I will be forever sad in some part of me. Everything, even the recent birth of my grandchild, is tinged with sadness. Yes, here's to dogs! Don't think I could have gotten here without my three labs, whom I refer to as my canine mental health team. Much love to you. Thank you for this very real video. The most authentic I have watched yet.

I lost my 26 yr old 2 weeks ago and I’m trying to breathe