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Vtol
เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 4 ต.ค. 2014
My friends call me vtol, just a guy on the internet journaling my inner thoughts. Unedited videos of me going through good or bad days. Lost Kitten Connoisseur.
Addressing the Tougher Thoughts
I’m not gonna let this stop me from getting after it nothing will get in my way.
Todays song: Voices - Motionless in White
#journaling #selfimprovement
Todays song: Voices - Motionless in White
#journaling #selfimprovement
มุมมอง: 18
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Friendships When You’re Single are Weird :/
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Not tryna get hurt yanno, on one hand the idea that someone who isn’t family cares so much about me is cute and the fact that they believe in me and want me to succeed is awesome! Felt like I haven’t experienced all that much. Who knows what god has to offer me we will just have to wait and see :) Todays song : SWITCHBLADE - WesGhost #journaling #innerthoughts #real #selftalk #selfimprovement #...
Being happy is underrated
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Just a little update since last things are going well! Grateful for those of you that stick around you’re the best can’t thank you enough ⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡ Todays song : Looking Out fo You - Joy Again #journaling #selfimprovement #innerthoughts #positivevibes
Post-Traumatic Growth
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Thank you once again for 100 subscribers!!! I can’t say I’d know where I’d be without you guys!!! I feel hopeful for the future and nervous but very much so excited for what’s to come. Todays song : Greek Tragedy - Oliver Nelson TikTok Remix - The Wombats and Oliver Nelson #journaling #innerthoughts #selfimprovement #real #selftalk
God give me purpose
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I guess I’m glad to be here ? Grateful to a close friend of mine who didn’t sleep until I got home thanks JJ Todays song: WORTHLESS- d4vd #journaling #selftalk #innerthoughts #real
Finally 23 what does life have to offer?
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It’s been a lot of things I’ve had to think about day to day but I’m glad I’m going go karting today lol Todays song: keep it tucked - ThxSoMch #journaling #innerthoughts
Hopeless romantic
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Heaven, when I held you again. Todays song: until I found you (with Em Beihold) - Stephen Sanchez #journaling #selftalk #innerthoughts #vulnerability #love #emotional
Comparison is the Thief of Joy
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Stop comparing yourself to others and smile more dammit I be looking like a mfkin cutie patootie doin it, I bet you do too Todays song: I wonder - Kanye West (Extended intro with Orchestrated Outro) (djbotox version) by @yoduhgaming6839
Skeleton Closet
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Addressing deep shame I’ve felt about my prior military career along with some recent good news! Life ain’t always sunshine and rainbows lil bro, but I pray the lord helps me come to a conclusion that will bring me closer to him. Today’s song: th-cam.com/video/O0Cw1SLdxxE/w-d-xo.htmlsi=OuTZG92fI1LFB9LW #journaling #selfimprovement #selftalk #innerthoughts #real #vulnerability
Nothing changes if nothing changes
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Why not you? Todays clip : th-cam.com/video/6fjnjTcGtb0/w-d-xo.htmlsi=4jy-yXZ3JeKODyxe #journaling #selfimprovement #selftalk #innerthoughts #healing #real #selfcare #vulnerability
Be stronger
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I contemplated posting this for the past 2 hours give or take. I asked myself, “I felt like such a bitch during this” and it further solidified how I felt. Despite how I feel, I think if I’m able to even help one person understand that this shit IS HARD but OKAY to do maybe we as people can learn to be more understanding that men can feel shit too. After this I felt like weight had been lifted....
What weighs heavy in my heart
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The amount of vulnerability I have is kinda crazy . Oversharing ? No clue, probably but quite frankly it’s freeing to just say you know what I’m not over it and I’m hurt. Not nearly as I was months ago but hurt, and that’s okay! Time heals all wounds, and like all things in life this too will pass. Don’t let my struggles get you down I want to reassure you and myself that I’ll come out stronger...
Career Restart ~\\(≧▽≦)/~
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I have my degree in yappology :D Todays song: Swedish house mafia, The Weeknd - moth to a flame (slowed reverb) by @hopecee8958 on TH-cam #journaling #selfimprovement #selftalk
Call me Loverboy
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Rejection can also be seen as a form of growth. Some people you may not be compatible with and that’s okay :) some people fit better in certain roles in life and who knows maybe they’ll get a promotion in your story but don’t get your hopes up. I’m excited for what’s to come with life now that I have an amazing friend like her. She sends me goofy pics of her that I can never send back her confi...
Stop Chasing Perfection
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Im grateful to now have people who support me and wants what’s best for me, it wasn’t something I always had but now I can’t imagine life without it. Give yourself a break sometimes you’re doing the best you can and you just need rest. I’m proud of you keep moving forward Todays song: Yonaguni - Bad Bunny 🐰 #selfimprovement #selftalk #real #selfcare #journaling
Forming new connections in community :D
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Forming new connections in community :D
No time to deflect WHEN ITS TIME TO REFLECT!!
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No time to deflect WHEN ITS TIME TO REFLECT!!
good man im diggin your attitude dont stop! never stop! keep going brother
@@rarsscal I always remember our promise!
Always a good day when you post. I think I've already said this, but your videos keep me grounded. We are on the path healing brother! Healing isn't linear, though, but hey, we are healing!
@@FlySpanking I’m glad videos from lil ol me can help. Comments like yours mean more to me than you’ll ever know and you’re absolutely right sometimes I forget that. We’re a work in progress
we are in this wacky thing called life together, bro. I know you will make it through this. I believe in you 👊
@@dumpstercat2914 thank you dumpster car I need that sometimes 🤠
I love you man
@@gustisupreme love you too broski
love you bro
@@mafuswagg love you too bro appreciate you (。ì _ í。)
About that video you want to make, it's good to hear that you got the clips and got the direction down. There's unfortunately only one way to get over the hurdle and that's to "just do it". Also, don't fall into the perfectionism trap of re-touching the video forever, as it's probably just anxiety in disguise trying to post-pone publishing it. Good luck, regardless.
@@FlySpanking lmao the perfectionism trap is accurate I’ll need to work on that tonight
keep your head up bro, I would just say it’s important to keep in mind that some beautiful paths just can’t be discovered without getting lost, I wish your future the best and it’s okay to feel lost/misplaced, afraid, everything you want is just on the other side of that fear. Stay up I’m praying for you🗣️💯🙏🏾
@@Charleyzzz that’s what I’m talking about brother APPRECIATE YOU CHARLIE 🗣️🗣️🦅 🦅
Congrats on the 100! I think you should definitely try to pursue the videos you want to make. Sounds interesting, I think you talked about a batman episode some time ago.
@@FlySpanking you remember that? 🥲
Yes Man You Can Do It
@@Katis-D and so can you 😼
Congratulations On Your 100 Subscribers
@@Katis-D thank you need to celebrate!! Just saw it were you 100?
@@VtolSpeak i dont know maybe
@@Katis-D well if it’s worth anything than you :D
sorry I forgot. but happiest of birthdays man! I hope everything went well because you deserve it
@@dumpstercat2914 I appreciate you dumpster cat hope you’re doing well!
Just know that I'm one of your regular viewers broski
Appreciate that killerbean4328 like ur name btw :D
maybe this is a sign from god that you shouldn't be biking or putting your life in danger. you were given a wake up call. its time to follow your heart and go back to school, be a nurse, be a fireman, do something awesome with your life for those who don't have that opportunity.
stay safe out there my brother im glad you're okay
I always rock dianese gear in these streets but thank you, got some things to think about
Wow, happy you survived lmao. Took my head for a spin when you talked about what happened. I think I remember you talking about your uncle telling you something about your bike that you hadn't fixed that thankfully did get fixed in time. Just another reminder to stay safe out there. I can't remember where I heard this from, in terms of purpose, because it does sound like you kinda know your purpose in life. But it was about looking at what you excel at/are passionate about - like "language/communication". And then what you think is society's current issue is, like "the youth has poor communication skills". And then bridging your passion with the problem - so for that guy it was: he wanted to help youth communicate better, as his job. I don't know if that helps, I personally haven't really reflected on it too much myself, just thought I'd pass it on. He also phrased it much better than me.
I think you phrased it in a way that is easily digestible. I understand what you mean and appreciate you passing on knowledge and not hoarding it lmao. I think I have gotten a clearer understanding of where I want to be
happy late birthday man
@@Gladiuz appreciate it brother!
I see you. I see what youre doing. Thanks for your story. Give yourself a hug for me, would ya? 🙏👍🫵
@@TheAllthegoodstuff can do boss 🤠
Happy birthday (in case you don't upload on your birthday)
@@FlySpanking thank you!!! I wasn’t sure either if I wanted to either
I get it man. you look like you need a nice hug and I would give one to you if I could. and of course if you wanted one (sorry if this is weird)
@@dumpstercat2914 don’t apologize dumpstercat, I appreciate the sentiment and sometimes yea that’s all I need but we keep trucking on!!
I agree with your buddy that retail isn't something one should be embarrased about. I'm in the same jiff and I know that I shouldn't be embarrased about my job either. We should be proud of being in movement. I know you adressed it as such too, it just reminds me: I think (know) we put too much emphasis, in our 20s, on career path and just "having our shit together", on getting that bag, on getting everything. While I, on paper, can accept that literally no person in their 20s has their life together, it's somehow hard to keep it that way in your brain. Still catch myself doing it. Seems like we look at all these other lives and think we'll be far behind, for the rest of time. Like we let our brains just auto-pilot and think "they got it together", without accounting for the millions of factors. Anyway just my lil rant.
@@FlySpanking dude I never even realized that. “Be proud of being in movement” genius perspective. Glad you were comfortable sharing your thoughts, as I’m always wanting to hear what you guys have to say. I need to catch myself when I think that way and just remember we all start somewhere. Appreciate your comment
I also think that we think life ends after our 20s/before 30s. Like it's a crime in that age to still be battling it out trying to be better. There are 40 year olds out there who absolutely dipped in quality. Idk. Still thinking about this myself.
Just going through your old videos, they keep me vaguely motivated and feel like real convos, like late night call-rants. Kinda jumpscared me that you said in the end you were not religious. Not in the condescending way, I'm not a believer nor a reddit atheist, I just thought you were religious because you talk a lot about God, scriptures and praying. So I'm guessing things changed along the way.
@@FlySpanking lmao I’ve gotten a lot closer to my beliefs but I never want to force my religion on people, though it may seem that way sometimes that’s why I said that back then but glad I’m able to help in any way! These videos have always to just release emotions but if they help you then that’s even better ‼️
it helps me by you making these videos. thank you
@@dumpstercat2914 that’s very kind of you you’re one of my favorites dumpster cat
I was having similar thoughts then this video just dropped in my recommendations. All you've spoken is truth. Thank you for putting them so much well.
@@boredprofessor glad I could help!
Dont be too concerned with putting up an image for other people. If you're sad, its probably because you're going through something, and its totally fine to express that in a healthy way. Not being as cheery as you were before is a healthy expression of sadness. The only thing is, you need to take steps to fix that, and the most important time to do it is when you most dont want to. Spend less time on your phone, get out of your room more, find an activity you enjoy to do outside of the house, eat well balanced meals, and get a sleep schedule and stick to it. These are all things that help boost your mood passively, and will help you get the boost you need to deal with the bigger things weighing you down. Make sure you have an idea of what you need to do, and make a resolution every day to something that will get you closer to completing whatever it is. You're young, and you have a very long road ahead of you. You basically have a clean slate to make your life whatever you want it to be. You can work to pursue any goal you put 100% effort into. Just take a moment to appreciate where you are, and how many opportunities you have before you if you so chose to pursue them. It will relax you when you realize this. You have plenty of time to find a girl who wants the same things in life as you, and you'll get to experience a life together with that person. You'll probably do it several times, and with each relationship you'll learn more about what even you want in life. Im sure you know this though. The time inbetween relationships can be hard, but again, be relaxed knowing that you have so much time and so many opportunities to choose from. Enjoy life while you have it. Things will come and go. People will come and go. Time will come and go. The only thing that is constant in your life, is living with yourself. So appreciate yourself, appreciate where you are, appreciate what you have, and you will appreciate life. And when you appreciate life, you have inner peace. A peace that cant be disturbed by other people or outside influences. It doesnt mean you cant feel sorry for your losses. It just means that you will be rock steady when the losses happen, whatever they may be.
@@_Addi_ this is why you are awesome, I always appreciate your authenticity and how you articulate yourself. I’m actively working on some things that I’m looking forward to but as always I appreciate you for being who you are and sharing knowledge !
This man gotta go viral. The most real man out there, has helped me go through so much. A real one
@@tomelis2672 in a way I don’t mind having a niche audience because I can be more personal with people, but I’m glad my experiences are helpful. Have a good week brotha!
yeah dude
@@dumpstercat2914 DUMPSTER CAR!!
I may not be god, but I'm proud of you! Hella inspiring to see you talk so much and so sincerely. Inspiring on many fronts. "Certain songs I couldn't even listen to", hits hard man.
@@FlySpanking you may not be God but that doesn’t make me any less grateful seeing your comment. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, comments like this make me want to just be honest about how I’m feeling at a given moment
Good luck my nigga
I like the authenticity of your channel, thanks :) - from a fellow TH-camr
@@ItsSimplyAless thank you! You seem very genuine in your videos as well, wishing you the best in your endeavors :D -also a fellow TH-camr
Congratulations on the newly gained subs and the views!! Saw all the views, and was happy for you lol. Sorry to hear about the interview though. Hopefully greater things are to come. Staying consistent with your youtube could potentially open up a lot of doors for you. :) Also, good luck on your agility test!
@@FL4WLESSLY thank you ! I had noticed your name as well lol I’m remaining hopeful though thank you
@@VtolSpeakOf course, no problem!
I agree with most of your takes but jotko isnt a low level opponent and allen has evolved since the alvey fight.brendan allen isnt even one of my favourites but i still disagree but love ur videos keep it up i fw u
@@evanlonergan3546 the fact that he won in the first round is a sick feat alone with less total strikes than jotko. Bros fists were pack a punched
its always great to make friends in your community. nice raccoon by the way
@@dumpstercat2914 it’s been really enjoyable and thank you for the compliment dumpstercat2914 :)
i feel so blessed being one of the first 100 people to see this!!
@@rn2trappy891 I’m blessed you’re even in the hundreds ! Wasn’t expecting this video to do as well as it is, glad to have you here
i fw ur energy imma keep watching u twin
@@tesh23 I greatly appreciate the compliment! Look forward to seeing you more boss
Finally something useful came up to my feed. Thanks mate, helped
@@tomelis2672 glad I was able to help boss!
Hii, your video just came up on my feed so I decided to check it out, but just wanted to say you seem like a really genuine person! Hopefully many more check out your channel and you make it big!
@@FL4WLESSLY this was prob not the video to check out IT’S LONG LMAO but I really appreciate the compliment! Hope your day continues to go well wherever you are
@VtolSpeak Ofc! Hope your day goes well also :)
Am loving your videos bro, i relate with you, i just feel good to have someone i can see myself in, life is a struggle but i am thankful for you, i guess i feel less alone after watching someone authentic 👍 Keep on keeping on ✅💯
@@brian1018 glad I could help ! I don’t always post the most positive things and my excuse is that that’s just my life atm, not always what’s portrayed but when things are good I make sure to note it as well. I’ll be sure to produce more things like this in the future
@@VtolSpeakI look forward to hearing what you have to say bro ✅ All the best 💯
good luck on the interview!!
@@dumpstercat2914 thank you !
If you dont have anything that you really want to do, or anything lined up that you would rather do, then the military is a good choice. Dont let people hold you back. If people aren't being good to you, then dont bend over backwards to be good to them. If these people aren't bringing in anything good to your life, and it feels like they suck out your soul. Then just stop interacting with them, or interact with them less. Not everything is going to be perfect or just right in your life. Relationships are meant to be something that improves your life by finding somebody to experience it with, and uplift eachother to grow. Not something that you get into only when life is perfectly peachy. And definitely dont go into relationships expecting it to last forever. Understand that things can happen, so you dont get lost if you do break up. Life is what you make of it, and nothing more. Money doesn't bring happiness, fulfillment does. Find something that makes you proud to be part of, or to work on.
@@_Addi_ looking at your past comments you always seem to say the things I need to hear you are very attentive thank you for that
@@VtolSpeak Much love 👊
stay frosty big man
@@rarsscal always look forward to seeing you in my comments, hope you’re doing well bud
You’re a beautiful soul V🫶🏻 I just found your channel through this video and instantly subbed, we definitely align on a lot of levels and you made me feel understood as a person through reflection. I hope you feel so much peace and love in life, thanks for your content :)
@@SweatyKayy thank you for the kind message! Glad I’m able to help through these videos and hope you continue to do well
Bro I just found this channel but you look so much better now then the first video on your channel
@@JasprRoblox thanks! I don’t know in what way considering I see myself everyday but I appreciate the compliment lol
sorry if this sounds insensitive or anything but sometimes you got to learn things the hard way, even if it sucks. hope you recover from this though, losing a best bud for any reason is never any good
@@dumpstercat2914 no it doesn’t sound that way at all I get it and you have a point, sometimes it’s just the way it is
@@dumpstercat2914 forgot to mention thank you for the words, it’ll take some time but I’ll be okay eventually
Just randomly stumbled across this. Congratulations on your graduation and kudos to you for doing what you're doing. Im a student over in the UK, struggling with uni, being a couple years behind, unsure of my career and prospects. But hearing about your story for a few minutes just gives me a reason to continuing believing and hoping in myself.
Now you got TWO PEOPLE believing in you!! You got this brother, it’s normal to feel lost but eventually you’ll find the path that was meant for you love from Texas !!
lets gooooo! glad you have been getting better
Thank you!! Btw I love your pfp! love Konosuba
you’re doing amazing dawg keep going! may allah bless you and your day
Thank you!! May allah continue to bless you as well
Bless you! God loves you and stay positive!
Thank you ! God bless you as well 🐯
The hardest thing to do is forget. Cars have a rear view mirror for a reason. Occasionally you have to look back and acknowledge the past, but if you spend too much time looking in the rear view mirror, you wont be able to look into the future, and youll crash. Keep doing what your doing man. God will take care of you.
I’ve heard that one before and I do agree can’t really have anything bad to say about you speaking facts. But i appreciate the kind words I will continue to move forward and may the angels watch over you tonight god bless
@@VtolSpeak amen friend
Hey man, I can resonate with ya. To kind of reinforce what you already said, this verse has helped shed some peace on those off days. Philippians 4:6-7 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Hope this helped in any way and have a good day brotha. 🤙🤙
It did! Another great verse I’m adding to the list I have on my board and I hope you have a good day too ! God bless you
you know what they say, if you wan to make god laugh, make a plan.......just stay the course and keep going mate. firefighting sounds fantastic! hope your cat is good. who's on your shirt?
Never heard that saying, I like that. Cheeto is doing good still very cuddly from the day I got him. And I’m embarrassed to say but Sabrina carpenter lol.
@@VtolSpeak lol dont be embarrassed! i saw her with taylor swift in feb, it was heaps of fun, but most of sabrina's gig was rained out :(
@@rarsscal no way!! I would love to go to one of her concerts, sucks to hear it was rained out but yea love her music glad to hear someone else does too lol
I think one thing I have learned in my life a few times that I can share with you, is to never think of yourself as "I would never do that" because chances are, when put in a similar situation, you would. The better way to look at it is "what would it take for me to become that way" and then take steps to avoid it from there.
That’s why she said never say never at least that’s what I like to think. So when you put it that way what would it take for me to cheat on a partner? I don’t think I’ve found an answer to that…. Hopefully I never find out but I’ve had weak moments In relationships and ive found taking some time to myself helped and when I say that I mean being alone and just thinking not going out with other people. Made me appreciate all the things my partner would do and not a lot of people would agree with me taking a break and that’s okay! I think it’s more just alone time to really appreciate all the good someone brings into your life. I started ranting but I’m glad you felt comfortable enough sharing that with me I can’t say for sure how I’d react being in my ex partners situation but I’m sure she made the best decisions she felt she could under the circumstances she was in and it may not feel great to someone else but that’s life I guess 🐯