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I like your art

IDK if I was lucky, but it’s been over 9 months and I don’t crave a drop of alcohol, the key difference was that I didn’t suffer withdrawal after go’ogling and reading Steffon Barkload’s stuff, not even within the first 30 days after I quit and told no one, did not need AA meetings or meds either.

Are you down for a coffee date with me

If someone took advantage of you, that's *his* fault, NOT YOURS!

I’ve learned abuse is a chain and will last you forever, it’s normal to have made a mistake or made a judgement or base your entire life, career, mentality etc. you need to learn that it was never your fault for what happened to you and that you just have to let it go. Everyone has demons and angels on there shoulders they have to fight with everyday, Everyone will come to tragedy in some form or another, but as people we need to heal and work with what had happened to us in our lives as they have built us to the people we are.

Yes it is.

Sadly the left is very much driving people insane

I agree, murder is indeed wrong!

Omg, I've missed you!

I feel compassion for you because you are worthy of self love and self respect not because you lack it but because you are abundant in it and have been finding your way. Coping mechanisms and your life story tells it that you did everything you can to subconsciously consciously do with what you have. It takes time. Only you know best. I'm sorry for speaking on your behalf. But I did watch this and am reflecting.

Thanks Jacki

Thank you for sharing 🙏

My oldest sister was loose but my 2nd oldest and youngest sisters were extremely promiscuous. I was extremely self concious and needed to get drunk. Come to find out that my siblings needed to get wasted also. Our mother would force me to drink liqure before handing me off to my abusive, drug abusing, alcoholic, incestious, father. I guess she did the same to them. Nothing like the love of a parent!

It’s such torture

0:08 alcohol is a drug.

Oh man alcohol withdrawal is hell on Earth. Reading through these comments is crazy so many people had the extremely trippy things happen to them aswell. When I say hell on Earth its not like in the common way of saying it as in "Its bad" I mean its like you are in a different hellish realm. Hallucinations, weird closed eye hallucinations, inability to sleep, if you do fall asleep you have nightmares and will always wake soaked in sweat, inabilty to eat because your gums and throat are all messed up, inability to keep down liquids, constant throwing up, fever/chills/cold sweats. I think I have a story that'll top just about anyones though about alcohol withdrawal. I had it so bad that I hallucinated and wondered outside my home with no boots on in the snow, where I proceeded to have a seizure. When I was finally found they took me on a fight for life to Cincinnati, Ohio because they have a specialzed burn unit there. I had frostbite in all ten of my toes and they amputated them all. That was three years ago. I don't remember much of the actual incident, partly because of the seizure, but I definitely remember some of the hallucinations. To this day I have no idea why I left my trailer or why I did it with my boots off. Anyways one and a half years sober.👍

Sounds aloe

I'm from vegas

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You're such a beautiful woman! Glad you got better.

Im 4 days sober and i cant stop burping. All day im burping and i have a burning sensation in my throat. Goes a way for a while then the burping comes back and i also feel my stomach burning when i eat. Anyways great video.

Try the ZEVIA vanilla cola, it got me off Evan Williams.

I really appreciate and value what you have said in this video.

I think it is a way of being in control of experiences that control had been stripped away.

Shes hot!

Thank you

one of the worst things that can happen to you. please do not let it get that far.

It's a good thing you were in hospital. I've toughed it out at home a few times and things got very ugly. At first my hands would lock up on their own and I would have to force them open. Later, I went into a complete delirium and was found walking around in my under shorts miles from my house by police. I vaguely remember seeing demons floating in the sky and snipers aiming at me from windows of houses as I wandered. I was unable to differentiate between dream and reality.

Cheers

Would you care to share about lying, concealing, and manipulating as a result of alcohol and or drug use?

can you help me. don't know who to ask???? is related to all you said

Why did I find this only now...? When social media was new, I chatted regularly with women who had been sexually abused in their childhood or youth. And no, they were not fake, I learned to know them personally. And I had ever since been wondering the way they contacted men. Af first I thought they were learned to be open. Later, I understood, that openness was not so simple. Little by little I learned that sex, either directly or at least hinting about it, was their way to find what they were looking for: a safe adult relationship. And they failed. I failed because I did not understand them. They failed in finding what they were looking for and in some cases they became bitter, very bitter.

You are very brave, thank you for this, you make me feel less alone with this emocional condition

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My head would not stop wobbling it was crazy

Thank you for sharing this, I’m there right now!!!

Jacki ChemSlave they should have given Valium that works much beater

Hope yr good Sister ❤

It's an incredible thing to share your extremely sad and dreadful journey story on you tube. That was very brave of you to commit to. I hope you're receiving the therapy you need to overcome the destroyed opinion of yourself you have. The theft of what was yours of yourself requires to be objectified as that first persons responsibility even if you were complicit in allowing it to happen....in order to alleviate your self blame for what first happened.. bless you for your sharing this...giving greater context to such a terrible affront upon your spiritual you.

Thank you for sharing your experiences, I hope you are in better position now and and sobriety is treating you well. God bless you!

I feel like men shine more than anything through charisma and personality than just looks anyway

Man everytime I woke up after like a week-long binge Id get this very weird nightmarish- or as you called it 'eerie' feeling along with my stomach feeling utterly abysmal knowing the only thing that could fix this would be to drink again. Just terrible...

You know, if you decriminalize s3x, there becomes nobody that is a s3xual abvse survivor. That's one way to end it.

How is self medication a progressive disease if you successfully heal from your traumas? I’m good personally. Psychedelics healed my soul and brain. Haven’t touched a needle or a pill in a decade and you could put it in my hand without my feeling the slightest desire Wishing you all the best

I can only describe withdrawal as a feeling of major dread, after 3 days of trying to get off alcohol I would get an extreme compulsion to ease the suffering I was under. I think it was more of a behavioural addiction because when Covid happened I was fine. It's when I was anticipating going to the pub was when I had the biggest issues

Shaking scary

When you quit alcohol over 5 years ago, did you manage to keep off of it? Or did you have to go hospital again to cleanse, I’m currently at the tail end of coming off of alcohol, the body aches and tremors have been awful each night lately, I have to lay there and shake or move for 3/4 hours per night and then it wears off. Also I get this weird twitchy neck movement that happens randomly, it’s almost as if the nerves and muscles in my body are all firing at once, I cannot wait to be completely cleansed of alcohol, I feel like I’m less than 48 hours away from it I can’t wait 😭🙏🏻

What a beautiful young lady you are th for this

Alcohol withdrawal is hard. For me, it was more psychological than physical... though I did do the sugar binge thing that I'm still trying to quit. But I thank God that I didn't have the DTs and that I quit before my liver was completely shot. My alcoholism manifested itself as a replacement for emotions. If I was happy, that called for a drink. If I was sad, that called for a drink. And the more extreme the emotion, the more I wanted to drink. And here's the sucky part... I was **happy** drinking. I never felt better than woofing and barking with the boys at my favorite bar with a drink in my mitts. But while I was happy [or what my alcoholic mind called 'happy'] NOBODY around me was. I am a loud mouthed stupid drunk with a talent for pissing people off. In the end, I had to pick between booze and my wife. Let me tell you about her... she is wonderful. No shit, really. She is a woman who shares my hobbies, is at least as smart as I am [though on different subjects], and is willing to put up with a fucked up, half-broken veteran with PTSD, bipolar and couple other diagnoses that make me a joy to be around. In one of the most rational things I ever did, I picked her over booze. That doesn't mean that everything is all sunshine and bunnies. An important thing I learned in therapy is that there is no external reward for getting sober. The universe isn't gonna make your life easier if you get sober. Coping with the mess you've made of your life is easier [or at least more effective] sober, but that's about it. My girl is NOT a 'reward' for getting sober. We still have our issues, and our relationship is still work. I mean, I'm still learning how to do emotions sober, and that's no fun for either of us. You can use someone else as motivation, but remember that at the end of the day nobody and nothing owes you a damned thing because you're trying to kick. You have to quit for YOU, nobody else.

Thanks for sharing your story. I So sorry that happened to you...