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happy to hear it🧡🧡

i know what you mean! but i think maybe this isn't giving yourself enough credit! there are soooo many factors that go into it. doing the bare minimum and also trying to detach from my feelings has helped me A Lot!!!

hey jules! im good thanks, how are you? very gloomy weather here but it's nice having my fairy lights on all the time - always a positive to be found somewhere lol!

@ aww bless you! Yes it has been rather gloomy, and gets dark so much earlier now too! Aww I’m glad you’re well, you’re doing so well with your channel! Sorry I got so behind with the videos. I journaled for quite a while well over 100 days but I seem to have got out of it and want to get in to it again lol. My aim for 2025 journal daily (even if it’s only a few sentences! ) xx

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i have the opposite issue! same coin, different side

this is veryyyy interesting! so you mean you need to focus less on discipline/routine and more on everyday and letting yourself rest/go with the flow more??

Just do the work and reward you reset later. Repeat. ❤

yeah I did used to watch his reviews but I've seen a few now where he is so mean-spirited, especially when reviewing women/non binary/basically anyone who is not a man. I understand not everyone likes the same music, but he's not even talking about the music - he didn't engage with the lyrical content or context, only the marketing. Also he seemed to do NO research about it, like not even a cursory Google, which is weird for a review. idk left a bad taste in my mouth

@@juliadastra he's a big fan of bjork, charli xcx and billie eilish, i believe. even gave a 9/10 score for the new laura marling album (which is great because laura marling is great). melon does have his own taste, just like everyone else. let's be real, at some point we all expressed our distaste for nickelback 🙃

this definitely tracks with my own experience and with people in recovery i've spoken to. it's just frustrating that the rest of life doesn't stop as well. now i have to unpack all that stuff and also feel behind everyone else as i'm stuck at a younger age. same with trauma too. feels the same as with birthdays since 2020. time FEELS different but it's moving as relentlessly as before

@ i see you

i also like the one about daises vs roses. we're all different and it's not even a competition, they can both be beautiful

@@juliadastrathat's a good one! i ca'e back to watch again & then left a long post...sorry. feel free to DNR it!

i hope it helped give some calm or clarity or was just a nice walk!!! :)

@@juliadastrait was a herculean effort. trust me. i'm in shock and i even dragged myself out of house to do some volunteer work maybe it won't be as bad as we anticipate?🤞

@@jmsl_910 doubly well done then! volunteering also sounds like a good idea. and i mean... i hope it won't be bad, but based on what i've read, it looks like it could be even worse than i want to imagine

thank you! and yes exactly. especially even more so now with the news this morning. leaning on "one day at a time" a lot....

i relate SO MUCH with the "if i can do it, it can't have been that hard" thank you for articulating that. you should definitely be proud of handing in your big paper (very well done!!), and yes good idea re journaling. it can be a great way of cementing our achievements. just writing it down sometimes helps me to look at it with a new perspective of like "wait, this IS a big deal" - same with saying things aloud to myself. like saying aloud "i'm sad" allows me to express it and it somehow becomes less heavy. words have power and can definitely change our perspective. i hope you take time to write about it if it will help remind you of all your wins!! and thank you for the kind feedback i am so glad you like what i share and am so happy if it encourages you!

😊🙏thank you!

🙏💝thank youuuu!

🙏the timing is different for everyone! there is nothing lacking in you. sometimes i just take it one minute at a time if that's all I can do. we are always stronger than we give ourselves credit for (at least in my experience!!)

🧡🙏thank you and yes i'm sorry you relate to that bit, it's a weird mix of emotions and it's hard sometimes!

Progressing on my storybook ⭐

yay very cool well done!!

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AI servers need lots of water to keep them cool. tech companies now want to use nuclear reactors to power AI. Forbes had an article about how a single AI search uses a 500ml bottle of water. many people are doing multiple searches a day. I'm curious why you like AI/what you use it for?

@ yikes i do searches... i get reading lists, my daughter is job hunting so writing cover letters / tweaking resumes, researching companies, looking up writers, finding recent research in my field HOWEVER, that is quite a load... ty for teaching me: i had no idea

ooo thank you! this topic is still on my mind a lot so i will give it a listen :)

thank you for this! when you wrote "i need to choose my delusion" that really stuck out. seems like so many people pick their delusion of "this is the happy life i'm supposed to have, this is what i want" or "i need to ignore the world to be happy." i don't see myself in either of those paths, but i can choose my own of being able to cope with my emotions/way i see the world while putting myself first and not getting too overwhelmed. i do think i am not neurotypical but i've never been bothered about it either way, but maybe it would be nice to have an explanation/more helpful ways of coping. i hope you are able/have been able to find a new group of friends who can appreciate you for you and don't just take and take all the time!!🧡 ps sorry that your comment was hidden before! any comments with a link are automatically hidden until i approve them, to help deal with spam. thank you so much for the sunscreen recommendation!!!! :)

@@juliadastra Ah don't worry, I don't know how youtube comments even work because I do it so rarely :) My friendships are fewer and it does make me feel sad and lonely sometimes, but I've managed to create new ones that are more meaningful and deeper on every level. As I'm about to reach 500 days sober I'm more about quality over quantity and truly don't feel like going back ever again. It's still okay to be disappointed. I hope too you'll find a way to navigate through these things and never lose your voice!

🧡🧡i am so glad if this and anything else i share helps you!!!

im so sorry you're dealing with a similar thing! you're right though maybe i just need to focus on what it brings me both experience-wise and money-wise

@juliadastra I'm currently on sick leave because my mental health was getting very bad, which was affecting my work, but work has also been quite unfulfilling lately so it was affecting my mental health, thus creating a vicious cycle. It gives me time to think about what I need and want out of life and put things into perspective. Obviously taking that sort of break is not an option for everyone, but if these feelings about your work persist, a break could help ❤️

@@RatOfSunshine im so sorry work was affecting your mental health so much but i'm glad you've been able to take a break! the vicious cycle you mention is real. i do hope this time helps to rest and get perspective. i guess this is an option for me but it would be unpaid, so i think it would just make things feel worse

@juliadastra yeah I have a friend who's also in the UK and told me that sick leave is unpaid, which I find absolutely insane 😭

i think it depends on the company! some jobs definitely have sick pay and benefits. i am technically not an employee so i don't get sick pay, holiday pay, etc. i still have to work their hours so i'm not even a freelancer. worst of both worlds for me, best of both worlds for them lol

im sorry you relate and have been feeling not good! but no you're definitely not being dramatic, it seems we just feel things a lot. everyone is different - some people call us "dramatic" because they don't experience emotions the same. you're defo not the only one who feels this way!! it hurts but there are days when i am grateful for it, in terms of being creative or being empathetic. it can be a strength as well as very annoying sometimes lol!! i hope you can rest or chill this weekend!

@ thank you so much. and I’m sorry you not get any comfort when you need it. I hope u feel better and rest well 🩵🩵🩵

yeah tbh i don't think anyone in my life is either. it again comes into the not thinking bit i talk about at the end. ignorance is bliss for them but it's also morally repugnant to me. i've not heard of the no thanks app thank you for that!!!

I use the Cerave SPF moisturizer and I have absolutely no complaints!

this was on my list too!! in the end i went with the cheaper option lol but i will keep this on my list thank you! :)

neutrogena non-greasy Ultra Clean 50 spf pricey, but worth it they also have 75 spf and 100 spf

holding my breath until the american elections are OVER...

thank you so much, i'm glad if they help you in some way!😊🧡

i am not sure actually! i get chillblains so i wear the gloves to to hide them. i guess our house must be cold if i get chillblains in the first place lol

hehe thank you! :)

you're the first one to comment on it as well!

i absolutely love your phrasing of "an experiment of my expression". i love this perspective and i hope you are able to look back and be proud of yourself for trying something new and being true to yourself!!

@juliadastra thank you! 🩵

100%! This is very important. I mention it at 03:27😊

delish double-doppio my daughter, for taking me to the airport my partner for agreeing to pick me up at my destination

nice!! how was your trip??

@@juliadastra very fun! have you ever been to Colorado?

@@jmsl_910 im glad! and no i haven't. are there lots of mountains??? what's it like?

@@juliadastra it's pretty wild. you literally see a mountain range, some of which have snow caps behind an impressive skyline! the sunsets were fantastical: we could see the individual colors in rainbow order. we were pretty sure we even saw indigo.

im so glad this motivated you yay! i hope you love your new board!! :)

i was going to make one of those videos but i just didn't have the strength lol, it does not resonate with where i'm at. i love the idea of being that girl or being really on it and getting my goals done BEFORE new years (a la winter arc) but it does not fit with my life now. and that's okay! i hope what i share in this video resonates with you or just reminds you that wherever you're at is fine, we can slow down, we don't have to be go go going ALL the time! :)

hahaha this is so true!! i like this way of looking at it. the whole idea of you can't please everyone. the people who get it will get it, and the ones who don't, who cares lol !!! they'd probably have found something else to complain about anyway. some people are determined to be miserable or bring others down. i say no thank you to them!!! :)

on the one hand i get it because it's really easy to get caught up in but on the other hand i do NOT get it at all😭

I was severly bullied when I was in primary school for the classic tomboy manga lover weird music tastes combo and it scarred me for life tbh. Made me hate myself for being unable to change and just be "normal" so now I second guess my appearance and personality on a daily basis lmao, fun times.

@@RatOfSunshinei am so saddened by this post. i'm so sorry you go through this you WILL find your people... it'll happen

@@RatOfSunshine i am so sorry! i hope you know that you're amazing as you are and that it was their problem for being so mean!!

@@jmsl_910 Luckily I have now found people who make me feel appreciated and free to be myself, but my brain is still wired to look for reasons why others might judge or laugh at me 🤷‍♀️ doing my best to embrace the cringe tho

@@juliadastra thank you Julia ⭐

I'm feeling really good ! Learning more about myself and my patterns is leading me to success.

@@BabyAken2012 this is really good! yay well done you :)

Had a very good Monday! Finished editing an unhinged (and possibly cringe) video to be posted tomorrow and filmed another one for next week. I think the week is going to be productive and I'm so excited for Halloween

@@RatOfSunshine lol i love the idea of an "unhinged and cringe" video! well done for filming and editing it always makes me feel so accomplished i hope the same for you. sounds like you're set up for a good week :)

we still have all of november and december as well! :) and i'm so glad this video helped you <3

🧡oh thank you, that's the vibe i was going for so i am happy to hear this! thank you for being here🧡

🧡I did start watching the lenalifts one because I do like her videos, maybe I need to finish it but it was making me sad because I'm not in that productive/let's do stuff energy. i'm sorry you can struggle at this time of year, it is difficult. especially now the hour has gone back here. we can definitely slow down and don't have to feel guilty for resting/being where we're at. i've not heard of Hayley Honeyman but i will look into her thank you!! :)

😊im happy if it helped you! some of them can be reeeeally sneaky and you have to look closely

yay im happy you think so! :)