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Bro I loved you in the band Incubus, do you still play bass??

You’re the most likeable person I’ve seen on metal Jesus and it’s a shame that life got in the way. I hope you and your family are doing well. My prayers are out for you my man.

I don't know if you're even checking this channel anymore. But I just wanted to drop by and say hello and hope you are doing well!

robert down jr

sorry for your loss

Thanks for sharing !

Yea

I think what it is (or was) is that we have this tendancy to think that one day, when the time feels right and we feel brave enough or motivated enough to push through till the end; we'll do such and such (whatever it is) and that like in a video game or something with infinite lives we'll just reload back to where we left off and get what we want.... and then we approach an age like 40 and realise that the time period for doing that thing/those things is basically over, that we can still do them but it will have to be done in your between your 40's and 50's (which wasnt at all in your hopes and plans) because any later than that and you'll be this old sad person that never lived their dreams. That care free attitude of "Im young and the future is mine. Ive got plenty of time" officially ceases to apply anymore. There is that saying - Life starts at 40. Your mortality hits you hard and everything becomes a lot more serious. Decisions have a lot more weight to them, what you eat, what you future finances will be, who you have in your life into old age, etc. It gets quite scary and intimidating.

Hey dude hope you're doing alright

Stay safe during these times my guy . We miss you brother

@westside THRIFTER... this is a Tatau. Tatau is the original saying of the word Tattoo or Tattoo came from Tatau. Pe’a is another saying for the word Tattoo. What the guys wearing from their sides wrap all the way down to the knees is called the So’oga’imiti. And the ladies from their upper thighs down to their knees is called the Malu. Malofie...

I’m glad you’re back at it with the killer memes. God bless buddy

Thank you very much for sharing, and I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU BOTH...but, what is the type of ovarian cancer you had referred to here (that is "the best" to have, if one does have it)??

What's up buddy.

Hey tony stark hope all is going well I keep checking your channel hoping there’s a update video. I love your content on TH-cam and I hope to see another video soon . Your a legend

Hey tony stark hope all is going well I keep checking your channel hoping there’s a update video. I love your content on TH-cam and I hope to see another video soon . Your a legend

New video ?

Can you give an explanation of your earrings? Why do you wear them as a "Christian?"

Hey man, I was feeling a little down about my age (44), so I found your other video about aging. Which lead me to your cancer video. I'm sorry for your loss. Awesome tattoo by the way. Wish you all the best.

Dudeeee its a onehanded

I know I'm late, but I'm sorry for your loss and just give us an update. Something light and fun for you to make.

Tony Stark is still alive! : )

I’m glad she had the opportunity to pass on her likeness and help raise them to a significant degree. Not to mention she’s left them with the most qualified man to keep it up. My best wishes to your family and my prayers to her.

That’s not a tatau but that’s a pe’a cause a tatau is the big tattoo that goes through your waist downwards your knees I’m just telling you not being a smart ass.

This nigga got a female tattoo, and it’s not even a good one. Now ever poly is gonna think you’re a fuckin fruit😂😂 Edit: lol the nigga that gave you your tat was probably thinking “look at this fuckin palangi nigga really asking for a poly tat”

I’ve only watched your last few videos as I came here from your video with metal Jesus. This was such a hard watch 😭😭 can’t stop crying I feel so bad for you. I really don’t know what to say but you’re so strong in being able to talk about this and I know it will help so many others in your situation. Stay strong ❤️

Decided to revisit this vid since I'm turning 40 tomorrow (gulp). My experience is about the same as yours - I don't feel my age at all. I still feel like a guy in his 20s, and probably will for the foreseeable future, except when I catch my reflection in the mirror, of course. C'la vie.

Very sorry to hear, JB. We may not know one another but you've been in my thoughts for a while. Wishing your family nothing but the best.

Hmmmm are you sure it's a tattoo and not a mark from the infinity gauntlet? By the way congratulations on the awesome tattoo and for saving the world 🌎

Awesome tat

New beginning brother. This is a beautiful video. Always Moving Forward and God bless!

I just turned 40 last december... I fear aging so much. I feel better when people say I look 20, but still it scares me so much I do not wanna get older, and I do not wanna see anyone else get older... I just try not to think about it... I still feel 20, and I have no gray hair yet... I am just content with my life and fear losing...

Wow, I remember when you uploaded the first video about your wife's cancer... It's been a long time! I'm very sorry for your loss; I have no words to tell you that you haven't heard or seen before, but I can just assure you that your wife is in a better place and she's taking care of all of you from a better place. Your beautiful family is in my thoughts and prayers and I'm sure you're going to be perfectly fine. You're a fighter and I'm convinced that you can go through ANYTHING after this. If you ever come to Mexico, just know that you can count on me for anything you ever need. Hugs and prayers from San Luis Potosí, México, JB!

So sorry to hear about your loss. Your family put up one heck of a fight and even though cancer took your wife we have that hope of knowing you'll see her again. She's in a place of no more pain or tears and we can take joy in knowing that! "Though sorrow may last for the night, His joy comes in the morning." God bless you JB!

JB, I don’t know what to say. Wishing your kids and you a lot of strength. 🙏🏽

My sincere condolences for your loss. My mother-in-law just lost her husband last June and she continues to go through the grieving process, rightfully so. I'm glad you are seeing a counselor. I have been trying to get my wife and mother-in-law to see someone. It's been tough. Take care of yourself!

Man I miss your videos ,Stay strong brother. My condolences . She's with the angels being well looked after ,Whatever you upload il watch . #therealtonystark

My condolences to you Sir. I really know how you feel, lost my pregnant wife in a car accident 27 years ago. I feel you, I pray for you, I get stronger from you. Thank you.

My best to you and your family

My sincerest condolences. Praying for you and your family.

I didn't know about your wife. I've been avoiding Twitter for awhile. I'm so sorry man. I wish I knew what to say. You and your family are in my thoughts. I lost my parents when I was young and I remember how hard it was. Your kids are fortunate to have a good and loving father to help them through this. I don't know what else to say. I feel for you.

Im so sorry to hear man, i had a wee cry listening to you. I couldn't begin to imagine what youve had to go through but chin up and know we are all here supporting you even from all the way im bonnie scotland 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿 I hope things become easier for you and i know they will big love for the big jb !

Bless you dude. Massive hugs

God man I didn't realize that your wife passed. Been following these updates for over a year (possibly longer) and I am so sorry to hear about your loss :( I'll pray for you man.

JB, I'm so sorry. My condolences to all of you. I admire your strength and setting up a gameplan is very important. I don't know what I can say that hasn't already been said ... but I know you will get through this. Take care and God Bless.

I’m new around here but best wishes to you and your family. You are an intelligent and articulate guy and your kids are in safe hands. You are also a young guy with plenty ahead.

I probably should have watched the video through before commenting oh my goodness I spend so much time in front of my phone like literally since the event happened that's what I've been doing and I always had issues sleeping but now more than ever I actually don't want to sleep. When I dream it's of her and it was before I got with her officially then I wanted to sleep and I wanted to dream and it became reality but now it's like she returned to my dreams it's so weird. And so when I sleep I dream of her and I wake up very very upset like I said in the other comment I have a psychiatrist but they never told me this. Now I know about the dopamine thing but I did not know staring at a screen reduced it nor did I know sleep replenished it now it makes sense I knew dopamine is it play with depression and well-being and happiness but what solution would be adderal cuz I have ADD as well but I kind of have a issue taking too many some kind of hesitant to get back on those but again I'm telling my life story to someone who I don't even know but for some reason I feel comfortable I do apologize for these being so long again but I learned something very new I guess I'm just going to have to deal with the dreams and sleep and it would help if I actually tried leave my house I'm just so fearful of running into her and how the interactions going to be but I need to get over that I need to get back to doing what I love I'm a cook it's a simple job but it's my art. Anyways I hope you continue making videos I just discovered your channel and I plan on going to all your videos but now that I heard that I have to put the screen down for a minute.

I saw you in a lot of the old metal Jesus videos and I was playing some old Sierra game so I went back and watch some of those videos and saw you and I always wondered what happened and then I forgot you have your own channel so I looked it up and here it is and wow the cancer stuff kind of got to me and then I saw this one and depression wow I know so much about it. First diagnosed at 12 and 37 now. unfortunately for me I have never found medication that has worked I have recently been told that I have resistant treatment depression and well there are medications but I'm very hesitant due to my history of them not working. it's like a roller coaster ups and downs it's like I'll have many good years and then have many terrible years it's like it's never small chunks like I'm either going up for a long. Or I'm going way down. the last two years I had the best years of my life honestly had the best job I ever had and I met this woman and I thought she was the one and we went back and forth for so long and then finally came together towards the end of last year and I was honestly the happiest I've ever been in my life. I've already fallen for her cuz we work together and I got to know where that way but I got to know what even better and I was just even more blown Away fell in love honestly and she also that would some mental things and she understood me and I understood her very well and it was just a match I mean I feel complete it's like the chains were gone I thought I was finally not completely going to ever get rid of it but it wasn't going to be as bad but then I remembered this is an illness now what affected it was her she has a terrible past of abuse. Every Man has unfortunately abused her and trust is a big deal and it's like all the sudden she just drop me but before that they were hints she would come at me or you're going to end up like the rest I can't believe any man all they do is meet me in the end it was a very hard to take and you just got me really depressed and I thought she was pushing me away I just wanted to love her and prove to her that not every man is like that she kept pushing and pushing and I was fighting back and I guess was frustrating her by asking her what was wrong when I knew but she didn't like that so one day she drop me off at home she quit her job so we were no longer working together at this point and that was the last time I seen her this was two months ago two days before Christmas cut off all communications like I never existed it really bums me because I loved her and was sacrificing so much to prove to her how much she was worth in I understand why it must be hard when every man including her own father abused her. She's so amazing when you see the real her and I have had this ability to look deep within people so she's so worthy of praise my heart and I'm try to contact her thru mutual contacts but nothing and I'm not one of those this is going to surprise visit she never like that. I just feel like the story with us wasn't done and what happened was set my depression off in a big way was sleeping too much overslept too many days and lost my job. And I've been pretty much locked away in my home the last month-and-a-half I am afraid I'm becoming a little agoraphobic I'm just terrified to go out it's like I've never had it this bad medication history and the resistant treatment status yes there are medicines for that but they're not proven cuz they're still researching this form if it and it's like a most days I'm lucky if I get through like this really got the best of me because she's one of those people that really has no one she has a few children but her ex is in prison and I'm sorry I'm telling my life story here I have a tendency to ramble but I've always enjoyed you and videos and I was so excited to come across you again. I'm just same depression and other mental illnesses are no joking it's so sad there's no cure and for some of us the treatments just don't work and I don't wish this on anyone honestly it's like triggers when you have this and a big thing for me was always falling in love getting married and here I am now in my late thirties and I was almost there because since we have known each other so long already when we came together we were already talkin about marriage we both had a common place when you get married which is on the Beach here in Florida. There are so many things between us that were not coincidence that point to us being meant to meet one of those type deals. And she was helping me so much motivation inspiration just giving me everything I've always been looking for and I feel so strongly I could help her and I'm so afraid she's going to end up with another man that beats on her and that also depresses me not being able to talk or contact or not even understand what happened although I do it's just set my depression all so bad but I'm glad you made this video and I wish more people who had this would in fact there should be a whole channel of just random people uploading videos on it devoted to mental illness telling their stories because this is going to be the leading cause of death by 2020 because at least the suicide which I think about but will never do never I don't know if you've ever had depression this bad or how long you've had it but never give up that's what I live on no matter how dark the times no matter how you feel you're not going to escape never give up again sorry for this long long comment but I don't have many people to talk to or anyone interested and it helps me you when I can vent but I feel like I should apologize because it's really long.

I’ll be 48 in July. I remember when I turned 40 and thought,,,,, man I’m getting old! Now almost 8 years later I may have a few more gray hairs and fine lines but don’t feel any different. Getting older is a privilege bc so many people don’t make it that far!

Just do the best you can do why you are here and enjoy life as much as you can. One love!