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I’ve never held hands with a girl or had one… fuck life

I'm trying to improve But I cant beat my only enemy which is Me.

0:27 always my favorite part💗

Deep down we’re all depressed…we just need an event that let’s it show up

This reminds me of my dad i wish he would spend time with me often 😕

review of this year: Lonelymaxxing. I've been experiencing severe depression for many years, taking attempts on my life, slicing my arms till they were covered in blood and locking myself away from society. Every night was a painful wretch in my heart. I could literally not get a break from bad events in my life. It was one thing after the other. I'm still not all the way there, but I'm better. Throughout my condition, I kept it to myself. I never flaunted it, advertised it or tried to make people aware of it. I was an antisocial, and that's kind of what caused my depression a little. I gaslighted myself into believing there was no one who was gonna save me. I was gonna love alone, live alone and die alone. I was surrounded by people who had done far better than me in worse situations and I felt jealous. My entire life was material. A CV. I drowned myself in volunteer work, the United Kingdom's cadet forces, and lots of schemes.. Just an aim for a piece of paper. I barely had time for sentiment in my life. At a time in my life where everyone around me has a partner, I remain known as that friend who's never had any luck in their life. I had to pretend I had emotion and pretend to be normal (but failed) as I had autism. People always thought there was something wrong with me. I had ADHD too, and my father never understood that even though he knew I had it. He always shouted at me to sit still when I couldn't as a mid teen. He wasn't the best guy, very shouty.. He was nice, but he had a lot of bad moments. I can easily forgive him, but he played his part in watering that seed of doubt all those years ago. My eyesight is going due to retinoschisis and that terrifies me. I have a testosterone deficiency which really fucks my masculinity up. I haven't cried in 11 months and I try every night. I fail. I'm attempting to get diagnosed with a lot of other things such as anhedonia, but I never get around to it. I've still never talked to a therapist about any life struggles. Never got diagnosed with depression. Never got put on meds. I'm not in the clear. And I won't be for a long time. I gave up on myself a while ago and I'm just drifting. If anyone else ever needs help I'll put my all into it. I'd rather help others than help myself. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm making a big deal out of nothing. But these are my life experiences. Everything I have mentioned here are not every single cause. This is a small fraction of it all.

commenting to say: last feeling of Sunday night of 2024.

ESTA CANCION RESUME LO MAL QIE FUE MI DIA HOY :(

This slow version give me a vibe feeling of defeat( in anything )but someone else there to warm you up and give a sort of heart warming or lesson speech that will stick in your mind for the rest of your life

day 1

SKIBIDI DOP DOP DOP YES YES 🤑🤑🤑

Back day

This is a perfect soundtrack for my life right now.

Help😭🙏

Are those flowers i see in the lungs? 🧐

Estoy aqui por un meme de berkserk Guts no debiste matar a hasbulla

Looking For The World Chritineer Leer Also Available Boombox Ever Bilena And The Too The With Pinkfong Word Play Alphabet Carki By Happy Holy Kids World Class

Lili Marleen 0:56

Literally me

I crack jokes with a smile and make everyone laugh so they don't find out that i actually fucking hate myself and my stupid life. I don't want them to worry about me and be a burden to everyone

She doesn’t like me back

“Life is just a series of peaks and troughs, and you don’t know if you’re in a trough until you’re climbing out, or on a peak until you’re coming down. That’s it, y’know, you never know what’s coming around the corner, but it’s all good. If you want a rainbow, you’ve gotta put up with the rain, you know which ‘philosopher’ said that? Dolly Parton. Yeah. And people say she’s just a big pair of tits.” -David Brent

This my shit: 💩

Listen at 2x 💀👽

Hawk tuh Hawk

still bops

I am lovo you

😩💦

This reminds me of BakuDaku tyyysmmm for this 🧡💚

No one loves me 🙁

1:35

I need friends

im gonna ruin the song but it sounds like hawk tuah

whatever Generation this is like skibiti I dont care I love this song no matter what

Pain.

im the wonder women let me go get my rope.

❤

So I have loved one girl for a while, like 9 years. But I never had a love confession. I got transferred to another school, but i still keep seeing her on random places. It's hard on the same bus. When I listen to this music, i remind of her. Her smile, her laughs, and cute giggles and funniest thing ever are her annoyed face. I missed her so much. So, what are you guys recommending? Should I confess my love?

today, i died inside

I just found out that only 99.9% of my viewers are actually subscribed 😮

Dont cut your skin its not paper 🥰❤️😘😜👏✌️💅👁👄👁❤️🌼🤰🤨👻🍑🌹

Ce son m’apaise jsp pk..

"It's all just a fucking cruel joke"

Hauk tuah… 😔

I have bad depression and anxiety but this song calms me down

"got Butterflies in my stomach" Fr

domingo a noite be likes:

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What I'm Listening To At 11:10 PM And Playing Warhammer 40,000: Space Marines 2

HAWK TO TUAH