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Great to see you! Thanks for the update. Congratulations on finishing the dissertation and getting married :)

Glad to see that you're doing well! Congrats on getting married and finishing your dissertation! Regarding the length of time it took for you to complete it, if it makes you feel any better, it's taking me 8.5 years to finish my bachelor's. 🤷🏽‍♂️ lol Anyways, I'm looking forward to more updates on your journey! :)

You done with your dissertation yet?

If it rains lots where you live, put some fenders on...commuting bicycles should have fenders if in a rainy area. Keeps you and your bike free of road grime.

I carry a pair of u locks in my milk crate on the back of my bike. I just tie them down with shoe laces on the inside on each side of the milk crate. I also use shoe laces to tie my milk crate down to my bike carrier. Stay safe my friend.

Hey, y'all.Sorry, I didn't realize the audio was so bad before uploading. Anyway, I revised the closed captioning so you can read along if you can't hear. I'll hopefully have audio better next time. It's just a new phone, and I didn't test it ahead of time.

Nice update! I'm glad to see that you're doing okay! :)

Im so happy I found your channel. You make a lot of really good points and relate in a lot of different ways.

This is the same shit ive been dealing with for about 5 years. Shit. Usually I just make noise with my mouth and not know what the hell to say

Very nice bike

I live in Houston TX very unfriendly bike city

I have my bike set up the same way!

Good video m8

u locks are a pain to carry

I feel this. <3 The Pomodoro method worked well for me when thesis writing, if you haven't tried it! You do like 25 minutes on one thing (no distractions) then a 5 minute break. After evert fourth Pomodoro, you take a longer break (15-30 minutes or so). Happy dissertating! I wish you well.

My tip for making sure your milk crate stays on the bike rack 100% would be to loop a cable lock through the bottom holes and lock that with a key, its a back up to the cable ties! :-)

smart to try to associate the flow/working w a certain soundtrack

Congratulations!

I'm glad you're doing well!

(belated) congrats on the T anniversary. :)

congratulations! although i'm sorry that getting married has been complicated instead of just something you can straight up be happy about with your partner. also really sorry to hear about the reactions from your family, but huge props to you on being upfront with them about how you feel about their reactions. i think that that can be a very difficult but important thing to do and for you to have done it is definitely an achievement. best wishes to you and your partner. :)

what a beautiful idea. go you!

Thanks for sharing.Your comment on how it's ok to never know or be sure about your gender and what you want really struck me. It's so true and does reassure me.

one of the things that i worry about when i consider (vaguely, but still) possibly trying to get into grad school is the disillusionment that i'll experience if i were to got into queer-related studies. i've heard about how the world of academia is so different from the world of activism (which i don't actually consider myself to be a part of, but i'm closer to that than i am academia) plus what you mention in this video about the fact that there are still so many things that need pioneering.... almost feels like trying to get into anything queer-related in academia would just piss me off / depress me more than i already am, which is not something i need or want to deal with... re: stuff with your mom, i can totally relate to the hurt of having someone who loves you so much still not understand you at all and be invested in /advocating for things that actively hurt you. sorry to hear you're also dealing with that shittiness.

cherish the time you have with your mom. my biggest regrets are not being there for her as much as i wished i would've and spending so much time arguing with her.

Great bike, nice accessories and I loved your adaptions to make it work.

wow.... it honestly, it sounds like being back around family was really, really rough, but it's good that your brother got to spend some time with you. reminds me of the generation gap and distance that's always been between me and my half brother, although there's an even bigger age game for you. it really sucks.... but it is what it is.

thanks for making this video and for sharing your experiences. i have to admit that the thought of my sexuality changing in connection to going on hormones has always been.... mildly terrifying, to be honest. i've seen numerous videos of people on T talking about how their libido changed, their sexuality changed, etc and.... yeah. it's always great to hear more experiences, from non-binary people especially.

nice ride

glad to hear that there have been some positives to growing body hair while on hormones, but yeah. not surprised that it's been a mixed bad of feelings. :/ thank you for sharing your experiences. also, re: what your brother said.... geez. :/

I RELATE SO MUCH. watching this just brought me so much peace knowing I'm not entirely alone. I am also bigger in the chest region and I don't bind mainly for comfort. I don't plan on using exclusively male restrooms for the exact same reason. I'm not really trying for ftm because I'm more Demi gendered. If my bobas weren't so big, I probably wouldn't even consider top surgery.

omg im crying!!! my family is evangelical reformed presbitarian and im ftm. im still a christian. im so fuking scared of telling my dad and this was vey encouraging. i still dont know when or how to tell him, but i have an idea now. i seriously give you mad props dude.

THanks for the update. Do you ever find it draining to teach gender studies? I teach composition, as you may remember, and a couple times I've taught classes that have a women and gender studies focus, but I stopped doing that because I found it too emotionally difficult to deal with students' ignorance about gender... it's insane how long it takes people to learn the difference between sex and gender, for instance. I feel like some of them just never get it. But I guess I can see how it'd be a better experience if you were teaching elective classes or classes for a major in women and gender studies, where the students all chose to take the class, as opposed to teaching that stuff in an English class. Good luck with your dissertation!

hey! i really appreciate you taking the time to respond & comment on some stuff. its really helpful for me to kind of process and release feelings verbally and i figured why not make it a video, and then knowing that other people can relate or even just having a listening ear is like an added bonus, so thank you! i feel like a large part of my feels are just learning to how to navigate home/work/school/life as i'm in this "in between" phase? like there was this initial excitement that came with starting t and being more open about myself (both with myself and with others) and now i feel like i'm just sitting waiting for other people to see me the way i see me and i dont knowwwwwww. but, i felt like this response was very helpful, sometimes its hard to remind yourself of all these things, and hearing it from someone else is a positive reminder. its also so immensely helpful to be reminded that there are other non binary people who are going/have gone through these same things, and i think it has helped me realize that a lot of what i am feeling is related to feeling not trans enough or at least just not ftm? i think a lot of the isolation that i didn't realize i was feeling is coming from feeling outside of most of the narratives i see on youtube... i'm gunna work a lot more on spending less time on youtube/comparing myself, and more time appreciating myself. again, thank you thank you thank you! best, Jamie

glad to hear that things are going well at work. :) learning to let people in, even a little, is something that i struggle with too.... ironically, i guess, given how much i throw out personal stuff in my vlogs, glad to hear that letting people in more has been going well for you. maybe the world of academia isn't always as bad as i picture it lol.

ʕ•́ᴥ•̀ʔっStay safe & enjoy the ride!

sorry that you were put thru that! honestly, i think you handled the situation well, too. it's a shame that your supervisor didn't handle it better... but it's good to hear that they're generally supportive. ....also, i think your experience reaffirms why i know that i'll absolutely find facial hair dysphoric. ugh.

that really sucks. you deserve more respect than that! im curious, you said your bosses didnt respond well, how did they respond though? how would you have felt if your coworker asked what your pronouns were instead of 'are you a boy or a girl?'

Usually that is a question children ask not adults! Good for you for bringing it to attention. Happy one year on T! :) Facial hair looks great, I can totally relate to your feelings towards it and having it in public and feeling vulnerable.

How are you able to vocalise all of my internal conflict?

How are you able to vocalise all of my internal conflict?

....GAH, just now got around to watching this video even though i saw your Tumblr post about it after you uploaded it. ....actually, i also never even replied to that email you sent a loooong time ago. ugh. gah. anyway, i still think that what you did (coming out on Facebook like this) is amazing and i hope that you haven't received any negativity as a result of it. the video is short, but the content of it is so important. hope you're well.

Love it :)

Hey, love the video!

Hey thanks so much for making videos! I'm nb and starting t next week and have struggling a bit thinking about how to navigate a lot of these kinds of situations, things that "male" identified people starting may not experience. It's helpful to remember there are other nb people out there going experiencing the same fears and triumphs and yeah, thank you!

I am so happy you are doing well! Great update. You Look great! It is interesting how you become aware of pronouns in general once you start asking people to modify the ones they use about you. I've noticed that too. ( I prefer He/him/his)

Nice update. You look and sound great!

Looking good! That is awesome that you are a teacher. Great platform to kind of educate or expose the younger crowd to trans/gender issues.. most importantly respect. :)

You def are not the only one! Thanks for your videos.

Thanks for making your videos! I consider myself trans-- A Female to Non-binary. Seriously considering Hormones. Also a person of color. Seeing someone go through the Journey helps immensely!