Ask Allah to not be blind (For example his signs). Ask Allah to not be Blind to Allah and this world and the hereafter. Ask Allah to guide you and reveal the Qur'an in stages, and the sunnah of Allah, and what Muhammad (peace and blessings be upon him) is learned and did. When reading the Qur'an and hadith you can be blind to it. Also you are not controlling your self, your not Allah (what Allah is). Allh.