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You have way more of a social life than a lot of us out here.

Suggest you get a dog if you can find someone to help watch it while you're at work.

And you still have all your hair

You're 40??????? Im 25 you look like me whattt, fountain of youth ..r u sharing

Remember this is just a moment in your life. Not your entire life. You will find whatever you're seeking to feel whole again. You are not alone. You have a purpose in this world and you matter.

I loved the quote you mentioned in the end. It made me realize the necessity to frequently detach from the narratives we create. I’m glad to see that it’s helped you.

Narrative systems are greasing their members for our brains.

its funny how just playing a handpan did more for my mental health then months of therapy ever did.

What's that playlist called? Sounds awesome :D

Speaking about the Handpan just wondering were did the Hanpan originate from? I just want to learn something new that's all.

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sounds like a rest area checkpoint in an indie game and im digging it.

That was some beautiful stuff... I wish I could make some instrumentation with u In real time.

aphex twin vibes

Really pretty 😢

Really peaceful music as always the time just flies when this is on

Sounds beautiful. Thank you 😊

Spincyclemkv That is the most interesting musical instrument that I have ever heard!! And what were you playing on it ?

I am 26 so we're probably about the same age. It sounds like you don't want to make videos and you're completely justified in stopping if you choose to. You sound very bitter which is a normal response to the disgusting and inhumane messaging we get from social media about everything, but particularly in regard to relationships. If you haven't already, I would suggest getting off of twitter and not worrying about whatever the latest black pill about women/dating that the internet wants to sell you on. It's a distortion of reality and no one can force you to play into their twisted version of how dating works. Try to let those distortions fade away. My best advice would be to find something that's truly meaningful and fulfilling to you, that you would do for no pay, and focus on it and give it your time. If you don't know what that might be yet, give yourself the time to explore the possibilities. What in the world moves you, and how would you do it differently if you had the chance? What lights a fire in you when you think or talk about it? All of my best wishes go out to you, I hope you read this and I can hear your response to what I've said here. Believe me I don't want to preach, you just remind me of where I was a few years ago and this is some of what I would've liked to say to myself back then, so I hope it makes some sense to you.

At the end you talked about having goals, im curious what some of your goals are. It seemed like eating well, sleeping and running; but what else?

your problem is capitalism and its advert intentions to exploit people for profit which causes alienation from the products you make, your meaningless work, and other people (competition instead of solidarity). an easier way of thinking of it, exploitation = the value a worker makes/how much the worker is paid. exploitation is a key factor of how our society works. our mode of production affects how our society works and act, and we chose the mode that makes people manipulate and compete with each other. there for, thats how we act.

i think you have to let go of all that hate and resentment man. i think you're kinda onto something about sexism and the destabilizing shit your saying, but i think your getting lost on the whole concept of the original sin. remember that this is just another looping problem to encourage people to not take accountability. women have been treated like worthless garbage, with the duality that they should be praised and respected above anything. those things directly contradict each other. You can say men have it worse, but that just is not a useful outlook. comparing cuts is a fruitless game. you should just worry if everyone has enough on their plates, that is all. plus youre talking almost anecdotally because your failing to acknowledge that men are the ones mostly in power. men make more money than anyone else. men statistically kill and exploit people far more often. men have it worse because we kinda make it worse for ourselves, and then find ways to avoid accountability. and honestly, every human suffers from that problem regardless of gender. men just have more power. the top rich American people arent women. our systems encourage in-fighting so that we dont work together, which kinda pushes a pendulum to aggressively swing and never come to rest. Allowing sheep herders to maintain their power im not religious and i hate the things religion has caused. but you gotta have more faith in yourself and others. shit is bad for everyone right now, and theres always gonna be someone who has it better or worse. So we really shouldn't be trying to tear eachother down and involve ourselves in a blame game. we hould be pushing everyone to push each other into greatness. just hold yourself and others accountable while also putting out a message of compassion and understanding. because everyone feels they have a right to be the way they are. perspective truly matters, and you shouldnt attack or belittle people for having a different one from you. shit like this scares me because men control the power. and men are becoming more hopeless. meaning that if you can control men, which is easier because of their current morale, you can lead big movements. a lot of young men voted for trump. a lot of people are getting pretty careless. (i am a thick short cocked guy btw, just so you dont say some bullshit) just keep having and open heart and be mindful of the three versions of self. the version you think you are, the version people think you are, and the version you really are. bias is very easy to lose sight of in a world filled with blood hungry hypocrites.

hand pan video when?

Love you bro, merry christmas and happy new year. Your friend always ~ Toe

When you fall back to "It's not worth it" that's saying something and it's insightful for you yourself to reflect on. Why is "It's not worth it" what you go to?

Sucks you have roommates, I prefer my own peace of mind alone.

Good to see you!

please dont go away this time

not a regular watcher but just chiming in to say you are looking and sounding great! your progress is shining through, feeling clarity and presence for you. love the hair cut too. in a lot of ways we've had a very parallel journey, I'm about 3 months clean of porn/masturbation/weed and couldn't be happier about it. keep going man, we can do this!

What do you do for a living?

Patients is the self programming or from external with meditation rituals of sort which is working for you, and this brings some joy at least. Patience can come with appreciation of the thought that my needs gonna be met by a chance. I could suggest listening to ASMR hair dryer sounds.

But i am patient.

These are normally memory patterns which you have memorized. You are looking for good memory patterns to find or create it in your life. This video you make because you explain to others so maybe other succeed too. BUT THESE ARE memory patterns of NEEDS. And Unment Needs of more constatnly bugging wired are causing suffering. I am suffering at times i experience it because my higher transcendental need to do work artwork particularly together with ninja groups is met with seeming rejection.

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have you tried mushrooms? by any chance...

What if every time you change someone else changes in the opposite way?

The more you know about ADHD the better you will be able to deal with it. Suggest you read more books!

By the time one figures out life, it's over.

The people who put us through the "Lockdowns" should be jailed.

Makes me so happy to hear where you've got to Spin, I had a similar realisation 3 years ago. All the best

I go through phases of self isolation and it's terrible for you but at the same time there's just something about hitting rock bottom that resets something in my brain. Japan sounds amazing though to be honest I wish moving (even if temporary) was easier.

Play that song when its ready my bro 👌👌 let it go!

Not to be like a mega diagnoser, but the part where you spoke about dopamine made me wonder if you've ever looked into getting looked at for ADHD? Maybe you've thought of it already, but instead of using coffee ADHD pills might give the relief you need. I also didn't watch the whole video so I might've missed something.

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those are effecting me for moments.

but already i am feeling fine.

Its good that you progress. Me too need some progress. hmmm. But it struggle with halucinations or sometime thought transmission it seems.

I love you dude, keep going <3

Relationships are a scam, marriage is a trap!