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pov: you always think bad things about yourself, you dont know how to be positive whether mentally or emotionally... 🙁

Timestamps Help yourself 0:00 2:38 Leni 2:38 7:25 Hunted 7:25 12:12 Corpse dance 12:12 16:24 I don’t care anymore 16:24 21:15

I’m sorry. I should’ve never said those things to you. I should’ve never hurt you. I hope someday you can forgive me. I hope you find true happiness and love.

Im sorry for even liking you -José-

I literally messed up on being nice to everyone it turned to being mean and beating up people because I can't deal with their bs and the meanness came from school, myself, other people, and I just can't really express myself and all the madness it turning into depression and hating myself for everything and blaming myself for everything and just taking it out on others and i know everyone hates me now and I just want to be nice again and I just hate everything and hide it deep inside of me and leave a smile on my face but then people ask why I smile so much and if I have a staring problem but I just overthink and it's to the point I don't ever want to go to school and I honestly wish everyone in the world would know what is happening in my life so they will actually care more and feel bad but I just....I just can't do anything about it I'm only a mature 10 year old...

this playlist is reminding me of the mistakes and shits that i have done. Now im just thinking about how i could've prevented that from happening...

Me wen I realized I failed:

POV:you pushed everyone away cause you knew you'd hurt them.

For those who don’t understand Depression, anxiety, self hatred, etc. or ALL OF THE ABOVE. Read below:] :’] Never again, Stop doing this to yourself ……. .. Visual representation. Stay safe

Why is crying so easy then sleeping at 1 am?

пов:то самое чувство что ты все постоянно портишь, ничего не умеешь, ты умеешь делать только глупые ошибки, ты бездарность и неудачный эксперимент жизни, злишься и ненавидишь себя за абсолютно все, а потом вспоминаешь что это реальность.

giggles in i fucked up so bad that i lost all of my friends , social respect from anybody , probs my whole future that i had planned and ended up in a mental hospital for over a month ^_^

nice music, i listen to playlist almost all of the time when i get bored of hearing plain noises 😉

Time stamps?

minha mãe acabou de perguntar qual meu problema, tudo ta se repetindo 🤷🏻‍♀️

POV:you just farted and the whole class looked at you

Okay, I know no one's gonna relate, but I need this before I cry. Tl;dr, I ruined everything. I shouldn't have dated him. I knew I shouldn't have. And yet I still did because he was cool, and was in need of love. I wanted to make him happy. But that guilt of it being against the rules got to me. Now, I fucked everything up. I loved him. He loved me. And I crushed that. This is just one of the reasons why I'm scared to love someone. I'll be doing something wrong and then I'll confess and ruin it for everyone. I wish I wasn't so fucking charismatic or nice. Because I don't use that power right. I'm not even able to legally drive, and I just went through a break up. That overwhelming guilt is ruining this for me.

Writing a true crime book and this just let me write three more chapters thanks so much 💗🌷🫡

I just really wanna share the things happening in a platform i hope that is free to tell my story or just release my feelings the thing is i cant even be mad cuz im the one who messed it up bc of some stupid thing that happend between us and it will be sadly be a month ik a month is short but this is the first time i am doing this or etch. and it hurts so much he is currently a year older than me and it hurts he met someone diff while me here talking to myself whts happening and slowly about to make my self sick because of whats happening with me pls dont mind my grammer I am very bad at english tbh i went here to tell that dont make up problems that are not there the reason we part wayss bc of asking a question i should have never asked.. i rlly fucked up right?

Don't you hate having to act it all out?! like its a show. Everyone says" ur so cruel! " when you try your best to make them happy. Life isnt worth it..They leave too fast. ..To the point.. Ur alone.. yet.. again

I didn’t do what my dad said..I forgot to put a spoon and than he was shouting at me and got really angry at me and went to hit me, and he once said I am starting to hate you and I wish you were gone..I am now getting higher grades but my dad always said yeah nice while my brother got a bad report card and he said don’t worry you got this..I love my dad , I guess I have failed him once again for being ugly,dumb and not prefect

thank you

"it'll get better" nah uh, 7 years. almost 8-9. love the feeling of ur stomach dropping in regret of what you did/said knowing u cant turn back.

I hate having to overexplain myself and still not getting beloved or listened to.

I keep learning, and living, but I inevitably make a mistake that hurts the people around me. Then all of a sudden, I’m at square one surrounded by bloody tissues and resisting the urge to dig myself deeper into the hole I’ve created

POV: you just got don’t with a band concert where you had a duet and you messed it up and almost passed out and your dad left without saying anything and having a mental breakdown after

The song at 12:12 sounds cool with headphones

Why did I say that. Why couldn’t I control my emotions I can’t anymore I really can’t I just I can’t can’t oh my god I swear

It was probably like 2 years ago when I got this playlist recommended. Then I listened to it for a while and forgot about it again. I still remember that one night from two years ago. I’ll never forget it. And the worst part is that nothing changed. In fact, it’s gotten worse. I’m sick of people telling me that everything will be okay.

I messed up on my gf so bad...

I messed up today i feel so bad cause its gonna now affect me and my sister and i just hate myself right now

I'm sorry mom... you're not the problem. I'AM

I did something that I’ll never forget and idk what will happen to me :(((((((( I’m regretting this now….

im boutta loose my smile haha

I betrayed the trust of the one i love,the one that was sent to help me with my problems, just like i always do.

I just fucked up so bad and now he won't speak to me. Why do my impulsive decisions always get in the way? I just want to talk it over but I'm scared about what I did to him. I want to comfort him so bad but this time I'm the one who broke him.

All amazing song choices. Totally vibing to this.

yup i messed up haha, can't even cry over it, all there's left is unobvious regret and emptiness and numbness

right Im gonna be open yk I don't ever get attention in my life my family sucked so I started doing bad things to get attention from others, and I just got a dm from one of my friends saying I might get swatted now because people might start calling the FBI on me- I didnt even do anything though I have 2 accounts and I Was creating drama between the two accounts and now I might get called on by the FBI- bro im mega fucked pls

I just messed up by telling one of my friends i like another friend and it just blew up in my face and im about to relapse

POV: you realised you’re the reason for their stress (Probably not relatable and I’m sorry😭)

i wish i didnt always do something dumb right when i think ive changed. nothing beautiful can last.

"What if I didn't run, what if I am not a coward"

Fuck fuck fuck I'm sorry I didn't mean too please

it went from saying they meant to hurt you to you didnt mean to hurt them

So there’s this thing I did.. and I didn’t want to relive it all over because my dad would make fun of me and brother and I’m crying every night when they they bullied me because of that reason so I did it again I don’t know why but I messed up and now I’ll relive that thing again.. and never forget it. I didn’t want this at all… they’ll call me hideous ugly garbage.. but I guess I have to relive my nightmare again..

What hurts the most is the fact that I know I'm the problem. I know I'm the only person I can blame yet I can't seem to break out of this hellish cycle. I keep fucking up over and over and over again and nothing ever changes, and have only myself to blame.

help- this is so relatable to the point i just relized im a bad friend, probably am a toxic and manipulative person, and have probably got two or three mental disorders that arnt diagnosed-

this was the first vent playlist i had listened to two years ago.. it's strangely comforting... and i just found it.

pov: no one understands what you’re going through.