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Great interview of a great humble, honest, genuine authentic author and cosmic human… thank you Joan!☺️👨‍🎨🎨✍🏻👍💫🫵🕯️

I didn't know I had abandonment wounds until I heard Pete explain what it was. Not being special ( my brother was my mother's golden child ) and I had no one to go to for my emotionsl needs. I remember being sexually molested at home by an older cousin, but couldn't tell either parent about it. I also became a fawner, a doormat and people pleaser, my mothers personal slave, denied possibilities, ended up marrying a narc and my abandonment wounds got triggered each time he threatened to leave, by the absence of intimacy and emotional availability in the 25 yr marriage. How do I even begin to heal?

Dear Pete Walker, your book is one of my all times favorites and helped me so much. Thank you very much for your work. I am about to reread it and start writing Down my story because I believe that it Will be therapeutic (not for anyone Else to see) God bless you ❤🤗

So great

It’s so overwhelming. When I try to apply that technique for the inner critic that’s all I’ll be doing. My thoughts are so caustic and hateful towards myself that I have to be vigilant all the time. And I can’t be because it’s exhausting. Then it all comes back and I start over, only to get overwhelmed again. After years of trying to find healing I am at the point where I am giving up. I can feel it happening and it’s terrible.

Its hard to let out the pain and cry

I literally cannot do the fawn response Im too angry inside

I’m so grateful to you…. I love you, you have awoken my soul! Thank you

I have felt every one of these at one point or another... Anger as a child, teen and into my 20s . . It felt more like cancer, killing me & stealing energy at that point... My first escape was books!! B4 drugs, I escaped through literary fiction, fantasy... Ummm... I never wanted medication 4 anything... Until I lost my shit completely at 17.. I'm 44 now.. I didn't know I was traumatized until I was 35... LoL... I tried many times 2 get help... I had no idea what was wrong with me, aside from the never ending DREAD that just stayed one day at 17... It lasted over a decade... I was told I was depressed... Like, oh really!? That doesn't explain why I'm watching myself at events, like a flippin movie and nothing feels real & I'm trippin out... Thinking, is this how I'm going to be from now on? Meanwhile, someone important I care about, is trying to communicate with me and I don't even realize it because my brains in outer space, with no anchor home, watching me standing there and I realize, shit .. I'm supposed to say something... Act normal, ur fine, everything is ok! It's far from it, but I don't know how to express that I've lost my mind to people I hang out with daily! This was 97.. so things are different now.. there wasn't awareness like there is 2day.... All of the different types of disassociation, disregulation, these words are all newer-ish to myself... And B4 there was freeze and fawn, I called it deer in headlights... Because that's what I did... Did I always, absolutely not... Idk.... I've lost it completely, psychotic episodes many times since... And u never loose it the same way twice... I thought I was good, I've already lost my mind, that was the worst and scariest thing I could think of happening 2 me as a kid .. soooo... It was definitely that, but years later I figured, that happened, now what? Still no clue what the heck is going on in my brain or why... Then something would shatter whatever protection id managed to scrape up & id be shattered, different than last time and Everytime, I loose something of myself.... The last time, my sister passed away... It's been 14 years almost and I've been totally numb with crippling anxiety, which makes no sense to me ... Because I feel a lot of nodda, but that stayed! Uggg .. I'm annoyed with myself, for not having any disire to life, ambition, drive, motivation... It all died and it hasn't come back... I didn't even realize for about 18 months, that I had no idea who I was! Like I just forgot everything about myself, that I like to read, cook, paint, dogs, recycled, upcycle... I was just existing on autopilot until it occured to me that this is more than grief & depression... How do u forget who you are!? It's soooo wild! I get it, to an extent.. I don't feel the guilt and shame I did as a kid, not for a long time... I actually worked through that... I realized I was miserable and didn't know hot to be happy, when I made a passive aggressive comment to a very very good friend... I think she got an awesome job, and when we hung up, I asked myself, WHAT THE F IS WRONG WITH U?! And I answered myself... Ur a miserable twat waffle, you hate yourself & want to die and have no idea how to be happy... What?! I was 28... Prolly a little late 2 recognize this... But it jarred me.. I had a son who was 7 at the time... I never cared after 7th grade, what people thought... I knew it was bad, so I gave them reasons 2 hate me, being that they did it Anyway.. but I had friends and didn't need people who didn't like me in my life, f them and I couldn't care less If they're an authority figure, because they were wrong about me and I paid for their judgement, abuse and just lack of noticing how flippin messed up and sad if a child I was.. not that I admitted that to myself even .. I WAS MAD! If I was mad, I wasn't sad and I won, they didn't hurt me... Tee-hee 🤭... That was my rational then... But every year u never cry, doesn't just dissipate into the ether... Its all bottled up inside... That's why it's important to cry... All the tears we never thought to cry... Or denied, whatever the reason... Anger is pain... And it turns to rage and it will kill u if u don't squish it! So... My kidd opinion was the first person's opinion, I ever gave any Fs about... I thought that if I died, he'd hear some horrible things, cuz I wasn't very nice.. and then I stumbled upon a quote... What u see in other people is what u see in yourself... So I used that to catch any negative thoughts I had, like always, about every1... And think something positive about them instead... And it became natural 4 me to see what's beautiful in people.. even when they themselves cannot see it... Whatever... That was the first major change I needed to make... Accountability for the crap id done that was wrong & I didn't want to be that person... So guilt has been a major teacher for me personally.. I raised myself and did a horrible job... So, I learned things the hardest ways possible, everything and Everytime... I'm grateful that I have the capacity to accept that I'm not perfect and change tho... Self love.. F THATS SO SO SO hard... I've been on stuck as a hermit, recluse for 14 years almost and Im in therapy... I actually like my therapist a lot... I just hope there's a way to activate the parts of myself that feel completely dead... Like I murdered who I was and she's straight up dead dead dead .. that's how it feels... Because I'm not anything like who I ever was... I haven't been sexually active in a decade and the thought makes me nauseous... What the heck!?

Shit sound 😢

This is such a refreshing change from the black and white thinking of other recovery programs

Hi Can you upload all of them? I think there’re 37 videos and you’ve uploaded a few them. Can you please upload the rest? Thanks 🙏

22 years sober from alcohol. Studied addiction and foreign languages culture neurodivergence and now have so much more understanding to enable me to use cannabis moderately to help me with dysregulation and anxiety. People are being misinformed about abstinence from all substances being essential to recovery. I see people struggling and beating themselves up for poor quality of life trying to work programmes. I also see 'gurus' with don't seem to understand other people's experiences are unique to them

Healing as a marathon. The last man standing is us, never giving up on ourselves 💖

This was fantastic. I'm so glad you shared this. I've been "trying" to do irest and other yoga nidra for years, but I get anxiety when focusing on the breath. And most sessions do have at least some component of that. This particular session had no focus on breathing. I'll be returning to it again and again. It will be a life saver (really.). Thanks again.

This is incredibly helpful, thank you both so much 🙏🏻❤️

Why did this just seem like an interesting topic and here I am listening while cleaning and crying on a Thursday. Ok need to order this book

This is so relatable. I am a textbook fawner. I calmed my alcholic narcissistic father down and was my enabler mother's therapist. I hate them both but I am trying to forgive. I was also called gifted and precocious which is funny. Literally becoming my parents slave is so messed up.

Love you Pete … One of the best there is xxx

Why would you go help hired assassins who went/go to Afghanistan to steal land/natural resources to expropriate and murder Indigenous people there?

Excellent, excellent, excellent!! This helps me grow and soooo many others also.

Thank you Scott 🙏

I've been diving back into Pete's books since being re traumatized last year. I take away something new every time I read them.

I absolutely obsessed about running away all the time as a teen and did when I was getting yelled at, until I felt better then returned. I moved out at 17 (from my Catholic parents) and never went back. I struggled, I starved, I made poor choices until I decided to join the Air Force after high school and that was the BEST decision I ever made for my life ❤

So this is intresting, if the words or picture is sticking? Move on to tapping?

How can I get this book in Australia?

4 F's Responses 1. Fight response- anger transmutes to control the environment to feel safe. Narcissism 2. Flight - transmutes in OCD life style. Tend to go to upper drugs 3. Freeze- helplesness, frozen. Dissociative response. Collapses. Downer drugs 4. Fund response - Codependant. Serves as a surrogate to a parent. Slave type. Bottom of barrel😢 Abandonment Melange = is a death feeling. Whats the point of been here?

the interviewer had to throw in there identity politics when Pete is generously sharing so much eye opening information with us.

Brilliant integration of 12 steps with Buddhism in a non-dogmatic way. I love the deep insight and the nuances of bringing these two traditions into harmony.

I've taken diary and write down all the painful memories. I cried for hours. My conclusion was that there's no way I can undo it, there's no justice for little me, no consequences for those who hurt me and I need to accept it. And that acceptance of the pain and injustice that happened to me helped me. I felt my heart melting. There's a long way to healing but I finally made the first step.

What would you say about hardships and struggles Scott ? And challenges

The Tao of Fully Feeling saved my life, Pete. You are a blessing unto this world. Thank you so much for your work in this field.

Procrastination is a superpower!

This is so good. Thank you both. I somehow learnt this on my own. I know it works. Good for negative emotions and old childhood trama, like... Not feeling good about you yourselves.

Talking about the tension in your neck and head, i notice I am tense here 24/7 I have looked at your 12 week master class, I'm starting your 12 week master class for co-depency will this look into this also?

Pete Walker is a living saint. I wish his wisdom and understanding on cptsd is wider known. I wish I had the understanding of what was happening to me when I was younger.

PRAYER: - to (re)unite and be with the true real love of my life (my twin flame) - total and complete healing, permanently: physically, emotionally, spiritually, mentally, generationally, cellularly - perfect health: on every level, in every way, for myself and my family - abundant wealth - closer healthier deeper relationships with each person in my immediate family - freedom for Palestine (from Isra-Hell!)

Sounds like an absolute sham.

Por qué no subtitulan en español please. ? Por Hispanoamérica y España. Hay mucho hispano hablante, es así. Hay que ser bilingüe para entenderlo. No todo el mundo tiene ese privilegio. No seáis egoístas. Compartid y divulgar más allá de vuestros ámbitos 🙏🏻🙏🏻👍🏻✨

I was stalked for three years by a person that did not ever meet me... he was obsessed and dangerous. I tried to hide this from the people that I love most. I thought that I might be responsible... although I did not know why. I did not want my children and grand children to be harmed by this person. THREE years day and night... I tried to keep this from them. My life has been destroyed. I am now 73 years old ... I am totally isolated!!!

really good and helpful!

When I was young, although my mum was bipolar, my dad was a narcissist. I prayed that man would die. He walked out when I was a teenager, and we begged my mum to change the locks she wouldn't. At 66, I now have an understanding of what we as a family were undergoing. I don't know if I will ever recover. My doctor even admits she doesn't know if there are counselling services for CPTSD. SO I watch TH-cam to understand myself and grieve for a wasted life.

Oh this reminds me I want to make a catharsis list, there are certain pieces of media I’ve always connected with that let me have that kind of “for me” cry and it would be nice to have them on hand in a pinch

I feel like I’m fawn then fight, but the fight is always at me. Like, when I’m fawning nothing else exists, meeting other people’s needs feels good and right and doing anything to upset their expectations means I am inherently a bad person and wrong and am in danger of my life, I’m in a state of anticipation and notice and execution with little access to myself, I will have limited access to my own memories or visualizing the future and even remembering things I am extremely knowledgable on will seem out of reach unless I have a tangent or connection to cue me in on, it’s such a malaise state that was a fantastic way to put it. But also, when it doesn’t work, when I try my hardest to not upset someone and they still get upset anyway, I explode inward, a barrage of “what did I do wrong? What did I do to deserve this pain? I tried so hard to be good why am I still being attacked how do I fix this?” Like I never get angry at the other person. I get angry at myself for not completely putting the other person at ease. I get mad at myself for not making myself clear enough, for not approaching it with enough tact or kindness, *I must be the problem here* and then I have to stop myself from trying to overexplain or justify or ‘make’ the other person understand because that’s a whole ass other trap to get into that just makes them feel aggressed and misunderstood so that will just drive up the shame even further yayy

I don't trust anyone using the number 13.

I am 44 and Im a fight and fawn type. I just discovered this mans work. I have 3 coping addictions: Food, cigarettes and weed. Food was used as a child, cigarettes as an adolescent and weed as an adult. I bought the book and its coming today through Amazon. I listened to videos on his book to kind of get a jump start yesterday and already I have stopped smoking weed and ate normally yesterday to just see how my body feels using a few exercised Ive learned from him to combat emotional flashbacks and it works. I am sooo grateful to have found his work. I will continue to break this cycle. God bless this man.

what do you do when your critic .starts being an outer critic

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Ruined by the politics

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