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I was NOT expecting to be called out like this at 8 AM before work on a Sunday 💀

thank you for your work

I need to learn more 😊

Just started listening to your Podcast a few weeks ago, as I heard you on Alessandra Torresani's podcast (I was trying to find podcasts to listen to while working) and listened to the one where you talk about walking away from weed. This SO resonated with me. I am a 64 year old woman getting ready to retire in September, and I have a weed vaping use, or I guess you can call a habit. Used to use bud, but changed to the vape, as much cleaner, and less smelly (at least we think of others as I live in a condominium complex...!) I am not really sure why I am writing to you, except that I hear the words "weeds not bad", but if using it to "escape", it is definitely NOT healthy. I have been using the excuse that it helps me sleep, well I can get CBD to help me with that, it doesn't have to be weed. I just recently (after 2-1/2 years with my therapist I just shared this information, (I still have that stigma of shame around smoking weed) but we have not really dealt into the reason why I still smoke. I started smoking when I was a teenager and stopped when in my 20's I had a cocaine addiction and sought out-patient treatment for that, and then was in the AA program and was off everything; except cigarettes and coffee! Off, Weed, alcohol and definitely cocaine. I then had a child at age 35 (by choice and on my own; that is another story, but a really good one) and did not smoke again until I was in my 50's! Oh I drank my fair share, as when my son was in late junior high/high school he got caught up hanging around the wrong young men and I am thankful we both made it through those years and are still both alive...:) I was still up until several months ago drinking and smoking cigarettes at least once/twice a week, but I have given that up. I still have a drink every once in awhile, but I am definitely not an alcoholic, as I was using the alcohol as I do the weed to "escape", but I do not have to have it or nor do I crave alcohol. But when I think about quitting my vaping, I get a bit anxious... I know I can do it, if I can quite smoking cigarettes after so many years, I can quit the vape. I don't know if this is a problem or not, or if this is keeping me in the vaping mode, but to help me stay off cigarettes, I have been using a nicotine vape pen...I definitely have an addictive personality, as it runs in our family. I was able in the past to quite the cigarettes and get rid of the nicotine vape pen, so I am hoping I can do the same this time. It has only been about 4 months since I quite smoking cigarettes, so hopefully can get rid of that soon! Are you still doing the Walking Away from Weed workshops? If so, can you provide some information on the availability of the workshops? As I do NOT want to be using my retirement time being unmotivated; I want to enjoy this new season of my life!

I can’t tell you how much this episode resonated with me. The escape and numbness it provided me was paramount. I couldn’t just sit and be sober by myself and my intrusive OCD ruminating thoughts. I lied to myself saying it made me better but the crutch it became and smoking like I was taking “cigarette breaks” from waking to going to sleep, thinking it made me more productive and creative…but the down side….barely getting high anymore, the cost, and knowing I was getting in my own way by self sabotaging (binging and waking up with so much disgust and regret) with my relationship with myself and others. I’m sober 5 days and I owe this to myself at this point. Been smoking for 10 years straight and using it through my separation, divorce, and now being alone…I want to stop numbing myself and really feel what I’ve been through the past 6 years. Weed no longer has the upper hand in my life. I know I deserve to see how life will be and feel without it. Ricki, thank you for shining light on this. Please keep talking about it. I found you through IG and these podcasts are so valuable. It’s important for people to be honest with themselves. I wish anyone going through this peace and support. ❤

Congrads! You got this! Never go back, dont substitute. In 2 years (they will fly by in the haze of recovery) this will all be like a bad dream of a past life and you will be kicking ass and feel REAL and sustainable happiness.

I like the idea of just putting on headphone, turning the mic on and going for it, like an audio journal.. I usually write but this would be much more time efficient and allow me to get into a zone and flow..I think you just inspired me to start my podcast 🙌

You are not alone in feeling this way! I felt the need to watch this and I didn't know why. And now I do. Definitely the best episode you will ever put out there because you were you in your truest most authentic form. Never stop evolving because you never know who you inspire and who they will go on to inspire. And its ok to be versatile in topics and not be stuck to one do what feels right and you can never be wrong

Anyways beautiful episode ❤️❤️❤️ you ARE SPEAKING TO MEEE

The way that I am sitting in the car listening to older episodes and you said “well…. If your sitting ima be pissed” OMG I LAUGHED SO HARD FOR SOME REASON… thank you for that 😂

Keep it up!!!

U are an Inspiration!!

Whenever i get upset now, since on this journey... i Listen to u!! Thank u

I have these same conversations in my head

Its definatly a me pattern too

Yes... i have been crying lately!! Thank u for sharing!!

Your a great leader!!

Thank u for this... somebody really understands me and we dont even know eachother!! I love listening to you, we sound the same just in different ways.

as exhausted as i am i feel energized listening to your story. what we have in common makes me feel seen and what we dont is helping me evolve my perseption.

i feel like isnt not serious enough to concern or burden anyone with it. just like food... talking about it is so low on the list of things im dealing with, what others are dealing with. bigger fish to fry.

internal weight=eternal weight

freaking me out a little...

this is wild, i am hooked.

Really needed to hear this, also dating a Josh in the same situation LOL. Glad I found you

I have never related soo much to a podcast, thank you so much for sharing your story 🫶🏽

💕 I've evolved. You're amazing thank you Ricki for your help 🌎 💞

I quit weed 3 weeks ago & I love what you said. You can think that you are broken and take some time to find yourself, and realize that you were never even broken.

This podcast validates me so much. Thank you. after listening to ep 14, I had my first no-smoke day in a month and planning to keep it up for good. THANK YOU <3

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Youre amazing 💕

Love you Ricki 💕

"who I'm trying to be is more important than who I am right now" <3

Hey Ricki awesome video! 😊 thank you for the words of wisdom as always 💪

Appreciate you Ricki

Very interesting topic. Perhaps people have always needed to express themselves but I do think these technologies have trained us to think more negatively, therefore our self expression becomes/must go through these cynical filters. Sometimes just being is the most productive thing one can do. 11:39..now that's saying something...👌

Beautiful Van Gogh shirt 👌 Looking forward to this podcast..

Thank you I needed this and look forward to listening to more of your podcasts

This is my new favorite podcast! I like how relatable it is, non pretentious. And as a fellow Entrepreneurial Renaissance Woman who is also starting a podcast, I find this so helpful, like permission to just be myself. If you are looking to just get out of your own way for a little bit and let some clarity and light shine through, I highly recommend this podcast. For your sanity, for your mental health, for your entire being.