review of this year: Lonelymaxxing. I've been experiencing severe depression for many years, taking attempts on my life, slicing my arms till they were covered in blood and locking myself away from society. Every night was a painful wretch in my heart. I could literally not get a break from bad events in my life. It was one thing after the other. I'm still not all the way there, but I'm better. Throughout my condition, I kept it to myself. I never flaunted it, advertised it or tried to make people aware of it. I was an antisocial, and that's kind of what caused my depression a little. I gaslighted myself into believing there was no one who was gonna save me. I was gonna love alone, live alone and die alone. I was surrounded by people who had done far better than me in worse situations and I felt jealous. My entire life was material. A CV. I drowned myself in volunteer work, the United Kingdom's cadet forces, and lots of schemes.. Just an aim for a piece of paper. I barely had time for sentiment in my life. At a time in my life where everyone around me has a partner, I remain known as that friend who's never had any luck in their life. I had to pretend I had emotion and pretend to be normal (but failed) as I had autism. People always thought there was something wrong with me. I had ADHD too, and my father never understood that even though he knew I had it. He always shouted at me to sit still when I couldn't as a mid teen. He wasn't the best guy, very shouty.. He was nice, but he had a lot of bad moments. I can easily forgive him, but he played his part in watering that seed of doubt all those years ago. My eyesight is going due to retinoschisis and that terrifies me. I have a testosterone deficiency which really fucks my masculinity up. I haven't cried in 11 months and I try every night. I fail. I'm attempting to get diagnosed with a lot of other things such as anhedonia, but I never get around to it. I've still never talked to a therapist about any life struggles. Never got diagnosed with depression. Never got put on meds. I'm not in the clear. And I won't be for a long time. I gave up on myself a while ago and I'm just drifting. If anyone else ever needs help I'll put my all into it. I'd rather help others than help myself. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm making a big deal out of nothing. But these are my life experiences. Everything I have mentioned here are not every single cause. This is a small fraction of it all.
So I blast the music Inspiration no I’m inspired Calm your cool so I turned on the a/c Waiting for nothing but music to elevate me Escape in a way where no one shows me the way Talking to you and now I’m feeling deceive be careful what you send to receive Negative can impact the relationship
normal speed and x1.25 is incredible <3 thank you for this !!! god i love men i trust lol. cant wait to make action lower on my jazz and p bass; the p bass will have flatwounds for the first time ever (for me)
It's so cold and I want to find the warmth, but I don't know what it looks or feels like.... I don't know how far or close I am...... Is it even worth chasing any more?
Verse 1] Show me how you care Tell me how you loved before Show me how you smile Tell me why your hands are cold [Pre-Chorus] Show me how [Chorus] I’m turning around, I’m having visions of you But then I understand The friend I’m dreaming of is far away But I’m here, I’m here [Verse 2] Show me how you’re proud Tell me how you reach the moon My thoughts err away tonight My heart fell to love again [Pre-Chorus] Show me how [Chorus] I’m turning around, I’m having visions of you But then I understand The friend I’m dreaming of is far away And doesn’t feel my love But I do, I do
I could listen to this every day, every night, every month, every year, on every trip, in every country, in every state, at any time, and the best part is... *I'll never get tired of it.*
Quando tudo acabar, olhe para mim e verá uma luz, uma luz que sempre estará acesa para você, é verdade que só Jesus é luz, de fato, mas eu escolho ser luz em meio a trevas, sempre que precisar de uma luz eu lhe darei a minha, mesmo que isso signifique que eu ficarei em trevas!
Awe yeah
review of this year: Lonelymaxxing. I've been experiencing severe depression for many years, taking attempts on my life, slicing my arms till they were covered in blood and locking myself away from society. Every night was a painful wretch in my heart. I could literally not get a break from bad events in my life. It was one thing after the other. I'm still not all the way there, but I'm better. Throughout my condition, I kept it to myself. I never flaunted it, advertised it or tried to make people aware of it. I was an antisocial, and that's kind of what caused my depression a little. I gaslighted myself into believing there was no one who was gonna save me. I was gonna love alone, live alone and die alone. I was surrounded by people who had done far better than me in worse situations and I felt jealous. My entire life was material. A CV. I drowned myself in volunteer work, the United Kingdom's cadet forces, and lots of schemes.. Just an aim for a piece of paper. I barely had time for sentiment in my life. At a time in my life where everyone around me has a partner, I remain known as that friend who's never had any luck in their life. I had to pretend I had emotion and pretend to be normal (but failed) as I had autism. People always thought there was something wrong with me. I had ADHD too, and my father never understood that even though he knew I had it. He always shouted at me to sit still when I couldn't as a mid teen. He wasn't the best guy, very shouty.. He was nice, but he had a lot of bad moments. I can easily forgive him, but he played his part in watering that seed of doubt all those years ago. My eyesight is going due to retinoschisis and that terrifies me. I have a testosterone deficiency which really fucks my masculinity up. I haven't cried in 11 months and I try every night. I fail. I'm attempting to get diagnosed with a lot of other things such as anhedonia, but I never get around to it. I've still never talked to a therapist about any life struggles. Never got diagnosed with depression. Never got put on meds. I'm not in the clear. And I won't be for a long time. I gave up on myself a while ago and I'm just drifting. If anyone else ever needs help I'll put my all into it. I'd rather help others than help myself. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm making a big deal out of nothing. But these are my life experiences. Everything I have mentioned here are not every single cause. This is a small fraction of it all.
This Song Is Golden✨
I love listening to this song, with bea song “how was your day?”
😀😏
Jesus loves you all
So I blast the music Inspiration no I’m inspired Calm your cool so I turned on the a/c Waiting for nothing but music to elevate me Escape in a way where no one shows me the way Talking to you and now I’m feeling deceive be careful what you send to receive Negative can impact the relationship
Just cried out my soul listening to this song.Really nice.
Jesus loves you all my friends, don't forget it 🌸
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Masxidistic))))
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Im watching this on a sunrise
Im watching this on a sunrise
I wish this version was on Apple music
Just heard a clip of this on IG AND HAD TO FIND IT🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥
Love Men I trust from Uzbekistan 🇺🇿❤️
It's like that's my hand...
it's so beautiful just to listen it in a winter morning
Listening this song on the purple light in my bedroom ❤
I wish he just knew...
This is my requirement for a future partner. If you don’t listen to this I don’t think it’s gonna work out🤷🏽
normal speed and x1.25 is incredible <3 thank you for this !!! god i love men i trust lol. cant wait to make action lower on my jazz and p bass; the p bass will have flatwounds for the first time ever (for me)
So fucking beautiful 😍
Chilling in a comfy lounge with a 420 and rain hitting the flat roof, log fire on. And this album.
It's so cold and I want to find the warmth, but I don't know what it looks or feels like.... I don't know how far or close I am...... Is it even worth chasing any more?
I'm getting tired, and I don't know how much longer I can keep chasing what appears to be nothing.... But I know I need it
I really need help, genuinely
It's like thinking of someone 🥹💖
My cat is sleeping❤❤❤❤❤
Tbh this is a good song but if it goes viral some random phonk weirdos and other questionable people just ruin it
How is this both slowed and sped up at the same time
Anybody July ‘24 present for this lovely masterpiece? ✨
🧘🧘🧘🧘
Show me how you care tell me how you look before
Verse 1] Show me how you care Tell me how you loved before Show me how you smile Tell me why your hands are cold [Pre-Chorus] Show me how [Chorus] I’m turning around, I’m having visions of you But then I understand The friend I’m dreaming of is far away But I’m here, I’m here [Verse 2] Show me how you’re proud Tell me how you reach the moon My thoughts err away tonight My heart fell to love again [Pre-Chorus] Show me how [Chorus] I’m turning around, I’m having visions of you But then I understand The friend I’m dreaming of is far away And doesn’t feel my love But I do, I do
I love her. I want her. She's beautiful. I'm so in love❤️
Thank you @thelowdown for leading me here. Awesome music Edit: from their Trueno video
I could listen to this every day, every night, every month, every year, on every trip, in every country, in every state, at any time, and the best part is... *I'll never get tired of it.*
Quando tudo acabar, olhe para mim e verá uma luz, uma luz que sempre estará acesa para você, é verdade que só Jesus é luz, de fato, mas eu escolho ser luz em meio a trevas, sempre que precisar de uma luz eu lhe darei a minha, mesmo que isso signifique que eu ficarei em trevas!
you matter bro. Take a walk and drink some water
Ew stop
@@Jqqn666 elaborate
❤ I this song it has a vibe
Tell me why.. your hands are cold?
because i come here to take your soul
Cold, filled with blood that isn't mine, but the blood of my murders
Tell me why you hads are cold
Amazing
My dumbass had this on shuffle and thought when is Joey badass part finna come on 💀
eu vo chora
2024
J
I have a question. Are you still alive? (Because I saw you're playlist to kys and I'm worried)
I love you so much ill never forget you
Life in 2017 was something that i took for granted. That year has a sweet spot in me