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Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.

Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them

YES sure of Dr.benfungi. Did straight shrooms in few days. Left me like a blank slate after words, no more addictions, pains, ptsd and depression. Shit saved my life, all thanks to Dr.benfungi

100% agree I used to have Psychosis and paranoid thoughts like "people thinking about me talking about me etc. Very odd behavior after getting off Adderall from 7-16. Antidepressants at 18-29. 31 now. I took way to much, but took about 20g of Gold caps (Psilocybin containing mushroom) I analyzed my entire life. The emotions that came out helped me understand behavior etc more. Wont ever need to do it again because I'm happy and contempt forever, but I wish more people did this to alter their perception of reality. Would help with healing much trauma

How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta

I haven't tried it myself, but have known others who have taken it with some success!

Hello! I'm not aware of any online services that offer this service. The company I worked with was the Metis Center in Colorado (and I have no affiliation with them. That's just where I happened to go). Depending on where you're based, you might be able to find something similar. Best of luck!

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Much appreciated! That's definitely the intention with songs like this. I imagine folks being able to relate to it themselves and find that confidence. Thanks for listening and supporting!

Glad you dig it. Thanks for listening!

Would it be funny if I made a map in standard?

How am I just now learning about this lmao. Is it just this tune or are there others?

@@evokehop only this one

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​@@evokehopevoke, are you beta daniel? 🗣️🔥🔥🔥🔥

I understand this view point, but I want to push back on it a bit. Firstly, "the majority" of science and medical info has not been proven wrong. It's absolutely fair to say that there are many things in the history of nutritional and medical science that have been discovered to be incomplete, inaccurate, or often the exact opposite of the truth. Our understanding of our bodies and the world is constantly evolving. Finding accurate results from studies is hard, and it's made harder by the profit incentives and interference of large corporations in the funding of studies on our health. I support skepticism about the way these studies are conducted and the results they sometimes find. In my view, there is a difference between suggesting an alternative treatment and spreading misinformation. For example, folks in the comments have mentioned the Ketogenic diet as a treatment for Bipolar. While not extensively researched, the Keto diet seems to be helping many people with Bipolar Disorder. I tried it myself for about 2 years and had really great results. You'll notice that I haven't deleted those comments because they aren't spreading misinformation. They're just mentioning treatments that haven't been extensively researched yet. An example of spreading misinformation would be comments that say things like "Bipolar disorder isn't real. It's a scam designed to trick people into (etc etc)" or some garbage like that. Things that are fundamentally anti-science, meaningless speculation, uninformed ramblings, or an attempt to politicize the experiences of people with this disorder. If somebody is confidently, factually stating something that has zero evidence or research behind it, that's just misinformation. There's no excuse for it. I personally don't believe those conversations are even worth starting, and I don't feel any moral obligation to allow those conversations to take place in my communities when I have the ability to shut down that kind of fire-starting. It's the same reason I wouldn't invite a hateful and toxic liar to a party. I don't think they have anything to offer to me or the people I choose to surround myself with.

@@evokehop the majority of medicine IS very different than even when I was a kid. I’ve save several lives and been in emergency medicine since 1985. Majority of what we thought was right has been reversed. Example? Drowning victim, roll to one side to get them to expel water. Now it’s immediately breaths as brain oxygen deprivation is paramount. Then AED. Your page your call. Ultimately it ends up one person (you) becoming the arbitrator of what is fact and what isn’t. While I could piece meal pick apart your long response it will waste both of our time as you won’t bend no matter the case laid out. Medicine isn’t math, it’s not concrete. In 50 years most of what is FACT will be reversed history is replete with examples. For me? Lay out any and all information and let individuals decide for themselves. To not do so is narcissistic and close minded. Someone MAY say “try this herb” we can shut it down until “peer reviewed study” and maybe it turns out it works. No one one know as people who think like you will not allow it to be posted. My two cents. Btw I for one don’t have the solution but neither does any one person.

@@evokehop also you mixed “hateful and toxic” with alternate views. Isn’t that hateful and toxic? Toxic to me isn’t toxic to you. Toxic in any institution I’ve worked with is when they won’t allow differences in opinions.

Boils down to YOU are in charge and YOU will decide. If you had someone else do that to you I assure you that you would see THAT as hateful and toxic. It’s the new trend. Narcissistic behavior.

@@rmooremarine I understand how it could be seen that way. I stand by what I said.

I remember experiencing something similar when I was searching for info. It does seem like there's a ton of videos that will essentially just read the DSM 5 to you and then right at the end say "medications, therapy, diet, and exercise can help people with Bipolar" or something like that. I'm glad that my experience resonated with you on some level, and thanks for your comment. It helps me too to get the notifications here from people who are experiencing what I do. It helps not to feel alone in this. Stay strong! Thanks again for watching!

Amen 💕🙏🕊🙌🙌🙌

Glad it was helpful! Thanks so much for watching and supporting :)

I absolutely feel this. It's weird because the depression feels worse but the mania often has the most frustrating consequences haha. Thanks for watching!

I have Bipolar 2 Disorder. I don't say much about it because people only picture mania. They just don't "get it."

Ahh thanks so much! I had the same concern with the word "normal", but it's hard to know what other language to use. I've heard neurotypical, but I don't love how sciencey it sounds. I try to speak to the experience of things most of the time rather than talking about neurotransmitters and brain rewiring. I know some people respond well to that but I personally don't. Don't beat yourself up too much! I definitely had folks that were not in the space to support me when I was at my worst, and I don't fault them for that at all. That's just the nature of things. We offer what we can, when we can, and that's what we can do. I really appreciate you listening. I had a feeling you specifically would like this one haha so I'm glad to see that you checked it out.

Thanks! It was a long time to find out what was wrong but I’m fortunate to have figured things out. I appreciate the support & I’m glad the song connected with you!

tysm!! I'm really glad you dig it. I'm really really happy to be sharing tunes more now, and I think it also happens to be some of the best work I've done.

@@evokehop I feel the same way!! Though I’ve felt that way about every release since 2016, haha. You just keep getting better and better, and I love that for you! I gotta turn your notifications on so I’m directly reminded when you’ve released some5ihg

I actually did keto for about 2 years! It definitely helped with mood and energy stability, but I didn't find it to be a sustainable long term solution because it's such a restrictive diet. I didn't like being unable to engage with a lot of cultural and social aspects of food, and I was getting crazy migraines if I ever fell out of ketosis.

I would love to hear! Feel free to post it. If you have any issues with Content ID or something just lemme know and I’ll make sure to sort it out :)

Glad it connected with you, and thanks for watching!

I've been tracking my moods much more regularly by journaling every morning, and I'm learning the same thing about myself! I can notice an upswing a few days earlier if I notice I'm waking up in the middle of the night, even if it's not for very long.

Thanks for watching!

Hell yeah. Glad it connected. Hope it serves you as well as it's served me.

Oh my god I fully get this. It's the "I figured out the solution to my bad experiences!" aspect of hypomania that can cause some of the biggest problems for me. I have to actively remind myself not to overcommit to projects, hobbies, or expenses. So sorry that that happened and I hope things are smoothing out for you now!

Thanks for watching!

It didn’t work for me at all, I had so many side effects

@BigE-qx1jb - Rarely do most of us have the same reaction to different mood stabilizers. Different genetics, "neural wiring," and brain chemistries require different medications to treat bipolar disorder. Other medications I tried gave me miserable side effects (confusion, nausea, inability to focus and lethargy 🙄).

@@Trollophile I’m happy it worked for you!! I’m still trying to find the best one for me

Ugh that's rough. It was such a perfect fit for me. I've been on a steady and consistent dose for years now with no real issues. I hope you find something that works just as well for you!

I wished it worked for me but my being on Effexor is not working

Absolutely! I think there's a time and a place for discussions about neurotransmitters, and I think it's not always super useful when we're newly diagnosed. Thanks for supporting <3

Glad it resonated! There is absolutely hope. This video was years ago and things have only gotten better and more stable since. Thanks for watching!

@@evokehop thanks so much man x

Thank you for sharing your experience! My journey to finding my medication was very simple but not everybody's is. It's good to remind folks that there is hope even when things are hard and the process is long.

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Thanks for watching :)

Having support in those especially bad moments makes a world of difference. Even something as simple as ordering food delivery can be a world changing experience. You're right. People feel good when they're able to make a difference in the lives of the people they love. If you don't allow them to help, you're doing them a disservice too. Glad you have loved ones who support you! Thanks for sharing your experience!

My pleasure 😊 Glad it connected with you

It's a little weird right! It's been reassuring for me to feel like other people have experienced the same thing, even if it can be tough for all of us.

Haha thanks for the honest feedback! This one is definitely more experimental. What’s your fav kinda tune? I’m planning on releasing a ton more in 2024 :)

Thanks for listening!

It's not so scary! If the diagnosis fits, it mostly just informs the strategies you use in your day-to-day life. It's easy to get intimidated by how "medical" it all feels, but at the end of the day, *you are you* and the diagnosis is just a tool to help understand and support the unique problems you experience!

Good luck with your appointment today! Hope it goes smoothly and you’re able to self advocate and get some good info and support!

Glad it helped! It’s definitely a learning experience, but you’ll be OK. It only gets easier from here :)

I’m surprised there’s not more stuff like that for music. I feel like there’s some really cool possibilities for creative prompts and tight deadlines.

@@evokehop I know a couple big TH-camrs get together every year to make an album in a day call "The First of October". Andrew Huang does musical challenges a lot with other musicians, but I am surprised there isn't something more formal.

Ahh thanks so much! I won’t lie this one was a sprint to get finished in the amount of time I gave myself to do it! I appreciate you watching and supporting! What kind of videos were you doing?

@@evokehop Game development videos. I like recording my process but not recording a script, so I switched to streaming over making videos. I get no viewers though and my TH-cam still gets the occasional view which is why I want to get back into it.

Oh that sounds right up my alley! I'll have to check that out. Got a personal fav that you would want me to watch first?

@@evokehop "A Decade of Indie Game Development" is a good place to start (th-cam.com/video/fKIhzzcQ0x4/w-d-xo.html&ab_channel=RyanSPetersonGames ). Twitch is really the place to find me nowadays (www.twitch.tv/ryanspetersongames )

Thank you so much! In a weird kinda meta twist, it's exactly comments like yours that make it feel better and more possible for me. There's a ton of work that goes into something like this, so the support is deeply meaningful. I appreciate that you keep coming back and reminding me that people care!

@@evokehop You've been doing this for years, though. What keeps you going?

It's a good question. The honest answer is that I've tried and failed to give up before. There's been many times I have genuinely tried to do something else: something more stable or something easier. It doesn't work for me. I keep coming back to this and making music and it's something I just have to come to terms with. Maybe that's not the optimistic answer you might have been hoping for, but in a way I think it's encouraging. It's OK to doubt and to feel nervous or unconfident. The truth is that art defies explanation. You don't need to justify yourself or your work. It justifies itself by being an expression of you. To keep myself preoccupied from doubting myself I try to focus on the micro stuff. How do I get slightly better at singing? What's the next new thing I can learn? What's something I can make that will push me out of my comfort zone? The "getting people to hear it" part is hard for me, and I don't feel like I have a handle on it yet, to be honest. But I just need to figure out how to make it work because it's what I'm made to do.

​@Evokehop well said, dude. You're doing it. This is what helps to get people to hear it. The more you do, the more people encounter it and like you said in a prior video, (I'm paraphrasing) you keep applying your new skills and perspective forward on the next thing and the thing after that. One of those things might catch the attention of just one crucial person or get tied to a tik tok trend etc. Sometimes i think about how when certain celebs produce something, people like it not because it's quality but bc they like the celeb *cough cough* T Swift *Cough* . Once you hit that track that a lot of people love, they'll likely love your other work as well whether they relate to it or not. Artists who are successful early on have a lot of people supplementing those needs and skill sets. I think learning it all as you go, yourself, builds a stronger, more independent artist. With things like this, I think of dragon-type pokemon (nerd alert). They grow slower and may take a while to get to their highest evolution, but once they get there, it's all worth it bc they're very powerful. Any time I start to feel like a 'late bloomer' or that I'm taking too long to learn something, I try to remind myself instead that I'm a dragon. 😁 Re: the new track, i wasnt sure what to expect it to be bc the Kiss Kiss Bang Bang title made me think about pop music somehow so I was somewhat suspecting you might've leaned more into a pop sound to appeal to a wider audience. Im glad that you stuck to your style. I like the contrast in the vocal filters between the verses, the chorus, and the rap and the unique rhythms. Like how the music sort of stops and starts beginning around the 12 second mark 👏 👏 👏 i could see choreographed dances to this for a music video. Doesnt match the theme probably, but for a moment, when I heard the title lyrics in the song, I imagined you doing the fancy cheek kiss thing to someone, kiss kiss, then bang bang, exolosions in the background. 😘😘🎉🎉

Ahh thanks! I appreciate that! Love the pokemon comparison. You're basically calling me a Dratini (my fav pokemon) so I'm all about it. Rest assured: if I ever do pop it's going to be because I think the song is dope. Another thing I'm incapable of doing is compromising on what I like for the sake of a metric. I would be making a lot more money if I could do that haha.