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Lyl Enlyl
United States
เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 27 ส.ค. 2013
This is my personal channel for videos about my growth, my transition in life, and even books I enjoy. I was born intersex, and the vlog in specific is/will be about my transition in adulthood dealing with that and trying to have a happy life.
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streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me!
th-cam.com/users/rainbowmoonshadow Gaming Channel
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lylrawr.blogspot.com/
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Intersex Vlog Ep 173 4 Years on HRT! (12/22/2024)
Happy Testosterone anniversary for me! I started Hormone Replacement Therapy much later in life than I should have, and while I regret that, I am still eternally grateful to each and every doctor who helped me understand why I needed to and didn't give up on convincing me that I was physically sick from a lifetime of low testosterone my whole life from being altered when I was born Intersex. I was forced into transition due to the surgical cutting done to me when I was little, and the HRT step has been such a wonderful and life improving step from the very beginning. While I am still upset about the lack of electrolysis options, and not knowing when or how I will get my next surgery, I am grateful for my HRT, today, and always.
streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me!
www.youtube.com/@UCNnL3viVXnnudAgfYPkczFw Where I just try to help people.
lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious about my gaming blog.
whatawildspiritbrings.blogspot.com/ If curious about my books/me.
lylwatching.blogspot.com/ To view pics I take when walking.
Lyltheauthor If want to like my page.
After some soul searching, and discussion with my therapist, this vlog came to be. Some of it may be triggering, especially to trans/intersex folks, as this is a vlog about my coming to terms with, and dealing with, trans/intersex issues, as well as PTSD to childhood trauma to current events, raw emotions, so on, but I try not to ever be too graphic. Also, sorry the audio quality is not great on these, but it was important to me to capture myself without editing.
streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me!
www.youtube.com/@UCNnL3viVXnnudAgfYPkczFw Where I just try to help people.
lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious about my gaming blog.
whatawildspiritbrings.blogspot.com/ If curious about my books/me.
lylwatching.blogspot.com/ To view pics I take when walking.
Lyltheauthor If want to like my page.
After some soul searching, and discussion with my therapist, this vlog came to be. Some of it may be triggering, especially to trans/intersex folks, as this is a vlog about my coming to terms with, and dealing with, trans/intersex issues, as well as PTSD to childhood trauma to current events, raw emotions, so on, but I try not to ever be too graphic. Also, sorry the audio quality is not great on these, but it was important to me to capture myself without editing.
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Intersex Vlog Ep 172 Not Ok (11/22/2024)
มุมมอง 199หลายเดือนก่อน
I can't seem to get electrolysis at all. Nothing is working. Surgery felt so possible, and now nothing is happening, nothing seems able to happen, and I am trapped. streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me! www.youtube.com/@UCNnL3viVXnnudAgfYPkczFw Where I just try to help people. lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious about my gaming blog. whatawildspiritbrings.blogspot.com/ If ...
Intersex Vlog Ep 171 Re-Diagnosed (9/21/2024)
มุมมอง 633 หลายเดือนก่อน
I was re-diagnosed with all my disorders, and turns out they are all at severe levels, including my ADHD, so yay me... I am doing really well in some ways in life right now, but sadly, my electrolysis is not one of them :( streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me! www.youtube.com/@UCNnL3viVXnnudAgfYPkczFw Where I just try to help people. lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious abo...
Intersex Vlog Ep 170 Bad News! (8/23/2024)
มุมมอง 284 หลายเดือนก่อน
Electrolysis in both locations is ending, and not because my arm is finished. It is devastating. On top of that, people can be really mean. I am sadly only able to offer bad news this time. streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me! www.youtube.com/@UCNnL3viVXnnudAgfYPkczFw Where I just try to help people. lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious about my gaming blog. whatawildspiri...
Intersex Vlog Ep 169 Yay Extra Electrolysis! (7/19/2024)
มุมมอง 305 หลายเดือนก่อน
I am extremely grateful for the free, extra electrolysis appointments and it is helping me feel motivated and hopeful tremendously. I had to write an essay about privilege that other people didn't realize when looking at the LGBT community and it was hard to think about all the way people feel entitled to just invade my privacy anytime they want to. But I am trying to stay positive, especially ...
Intersex Vlog Ep 168 Passport and Free Electrolysis! (7/3/2024)
มุมมอง 85 หลายเดือนก่อน
I had been trying to get extra appointments for electrolysis, and a new place opened, with 2 people in training, and since I called, and asked, had experience with being worked on by training people, and even have odd hairs, it worked out where the owner offered for me to come to appointments for free!! So now I am still going to the appointments that are regularly scheduled plus these free app...
Intersex Vlog Ep 167 I'm Just A Guy (6/18/2024)
มุมมอง 206 หลายเดือนก่อน
Not much of an update, but I am happy that I will hopefully be starting extra electrolysis soon, and also, I am one of the most popular guys at college, which is awesome to feel accepted, both as a person, and as just a guy. streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me! www.youtube.com/@UCNnL3viVXnnudAgfYPkczFw Where I just try to help people. lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious a...
Intersex Vlog Ep 166 Dealing With Discrimination and Acceptance (5/24/2024)
มุมมอง 227 หลายเดือนก่อน
Thankfully, I have had some acceptance about being born intersex recently when it was revealed to some friends and to a mentor, but also, sadly, I have had some discrimination, and from someone in the LGBT community, as well as one of my friends struggling with the news about me being intersex more, but at least he is trying to work through it. streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would lik...
Intersex Vlog Ep 165 Short Update (4/18/2024)
มุมมอง 108 หลายเดือนก่อน
I am doing a lot in school still, have a massive event this weekend, and have been accepted to present at a conference next month! Woo! As far as electrolysis and surgery... Things are a little better, but not by a lot, so I am thinking about doing extra electrolysis I will have to pay for myself anyway. I also had some hiccups with my refilling of my Testosterone... streamelements.com/se-56763...
Intersex Vlog Ep 164 Changes to Electrolysis (3/22/2024)
มุมมอง 219 หลายเดือนก่อน
I finally talked to the person in charge of my electrolysis, and thankfully she listened to me and so now I am going every Tuesday and every other Saturday, and it is all covered by insurance, so even though it is a long drive and the gas money is expensive, it is still cheaper than it would be without insurance covering it, so that is huge. I am hoping over the next 2 months to see a lot of im...
Intersex Vlog Ep 163 Getting Desperate (2/18/2024)
มุมมอง 2810 หลายเดือนก่อน
I am to the point of frustration with electrolysis that I am probably going to start spending money I don't have on it. I can't afford to do that, reasonably, but I also cannot keep feeling this trapped and like there is not any progress with it. On the plus side, my labs show my health only getting more improved since I have been on T for more than 3 years now! streamelements.com/se-5676370/ti...
Intersex Vlog Ep 162 Not the Best (1/25/2024)
มุมมอง 3111 หลายเดือนก่อน
I couldn't find anywhere else for electrolysis and it is pretty miserable feeling. I feel honestly, really down. Surgery feels almost impossibly far away. Every single day it haunts me. streamelements.com/se-5676370/tip If you would like to tip me! lylrawr.blogspot.com/ If curious about my gaming blog. whatawildspiritbrings.blogspot.com/ If curious about my books/me. lylwatching.blogspot.com/ T...
Intersex Vlog Ep 161 3 Years on HRT! (12/18/2023)
มุมมอง 19ปีที่แล้ว
Still feels like electrolysis is going no where. Going to try to find somewhere else if at all possible, but it doesn't seem likely. I finished my first quarter of college after going back to school this fall. I am still dealing with people not being ok with me having been born, including someone I thought was my friend. :( But still, 3 years on T feels like a miracle in and of itself. My healt...
Trans Vlog Ep 160 Dealing with Intolerance (11/22/2023)
มุมมอง 15ปีที่แล้ว
Surgery still feels just as far away, and on top of that, people have been outright rejecting me. People have been showing how much they are intolerant of my existence and that is really hard for me. I feel such a real struggle, and I don't know what to do about it, because I have so much hope for reaching my potential, and at the same time, am just overwhelmed with how much people dismiss me. ...
Trans Vlog Ep 159 Gender Dysphoria Bombardment (10/18/2023)
มุมมอง 7ปีที่แล้ว
I am 39 now, since my birthday was this month, and have been just, painfully aware of how far away from surgery I still feel like I am. Electrolysis has been incredibly slow, compared to what I thought at first it would be like, between cancelling and training a new person, and that hasn't helped at all. It feels like getting my next surgery is a moving goalpost, that gets further and further a...
Trans Vlog Ep 158 Gender Dysphoria Bombardment (9/18/2023)
มุมมอง 5ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 158 Gender Dysphoria Bombardment (9/18/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 157 New Diagnosis GHIA (8/18/2023)
มุมมอง 7ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 157 New Diagnosis GHIA (8/18/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 156 Continuing Electrolysis (7/19/2023)
มุมมอง 6ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 156 Continuing Electrolysis (7/19/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 155 First Time Getting Electrolysis (6/21/2023)
มุมมอง 6ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 155 First Time Getting Electrolysis (6/21/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 154 First Electrolysis Appointment (5/18/2023)
มุมมอง 17ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 154 First Electrolysis Appointment (5/18/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 153 Finally got an Electrolysis Appointment (4/20/2023)
มุมมอง 10ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 153 Finally got an Electrolysis Appointment (4/20/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 152 Healing and Appointment (3/21/2023)
มุมมอง 49ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 152 Healing and Appointment (3/21/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 151 Surgery Complications (3/8/2023)
มุมมอง 17ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 151 Surgery Complications (3/8/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 150 Almost time for surgery! (2/15/2023)
มุมมอง 70ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 150 Almost time for surgery! (2/15/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 149 Another Surgery Next Month! (1/18/2023)
มุมมอง 12ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 149 Another Surgery Next Month! (1/18/2023)
Trans Vlog Ep 148 2 years on Testosterone! (12/18/2022)
มุมมอง 572 ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 148 2 years on Testosterone! (12/18/2022)
Trans Vlog Ep 147 Trans Support Group (12/2/2022)
มุมมอง 192 ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 147 Trans Support Group (12/2/2022)
Trans Vlog Ep 146 Almost 2 Years HRT (11/21/2022)
มุมมอง 182 ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 146 Almost 2 Years HRT (11/21/2022)
Trans Vlog Ep 145 What my Doctor Said (11/5/2022)
มุมมอง 132 ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 145 What my Doctor Said (11/5/2022)
Trans Vlog Ep 144 Ultrasound and Birth Certificate (10/31/2022)
มุมมอง 162 ปีที่แล้ว
Trans Vlog Ep 144 Ultrasound and Birth Certificate (10/31/2022)
hello i dont know who you are or what you doing but i hope the best for you.
Hi, I am an intersex american who just lost the ability to bind due to medical reasons. you’re right its so hard. im trying to access top surgery before i lose the ability to, but im missing crucial resources in like every area and there’s no real way for me to fix that in a timely manner. it is a dark time in terms of civil rights, on top of a dark time in your personal life it seems. although i know how linked those two things are. I wanted to leave a comment because we have some of these things in common. i think a lot of people like us are struggling right now, its important to remember that even when we struggle we do it together. your loved ones are there for you- talk to them, hang out with them when you are tired but don’t want to ruminate/be alone. you are a sacred person because you are unique and alive. i really hope you can make time to have a calm day or something else that would make it a little easier to bear until things start getting better again
I am so sure everything will be okay evantually, I could not imagine what it must feel like and i wish you the best. You can do it and you deserve the world, soon enough all of this work will pay off massively <3
I stumbled on your other channel and then this one after finding some of your GW2 content and WOW.. while I haven't watched all of your vlogs just seeing your transition in the thumbnails is so inspiring! Stay strong and take things one day at a time, you're doing so well!! 😺
Wow, thank you! :)
WISH U LUCK HOPE YOU GET WELL THROUGH THE SURGERY.
U SO SWEET BOY🍆
KEEP GOING BOY/GIRL/THEY/THEM SLAY BOY
Thanks lol