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Why do the best people have to suffer so much? It isn’t fair. You are a beautiful and amazing human being. So much respect and love. Thank you for sharing these pieces of yourself with us from dancing to your journey finding out you are on the spectrum to your amazing husband. 💜

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My deepest sympathy. I only know you through this channel, with your autism journey. I lost someone last year so I relate. Take care.

I'm so sorry.

Hey Kayla. Where are you at these days? Loved your ASD videos

Hi Kayla, My name is Joel Japlit and I work for Intel also. I left the same group with Bryn a couple of years back and I was so shocked and speechless when I heard the news. But what I can say is I am proud to have work with this guy. He was a very good colleauge with all of us and always ready to help. I have learned a lot from him. I am so sorry about what happened and please accept my deepest sympathy and condolences. My prayers are with you, your daughter and all you guys family on this time if sorrow. May God rest his soul...take care and God Bless...

Amazing video. Thank u 😁

I had a baby just before the WHO declared it a pandemic. I definitely agree with the advice of handing in a printed birth plan early. I did so a month and a half or so before I was due. I didn't have a back and forth to and from the hospital because I had a last minute induction because of a pregnancy condition diagnosed the day before my due date. I am thankful I didn't have to have pitocin because I was already dilated enough for the induction to be done by manually breaking my water. The epidural kept me from grasping the fact that my delivery was kind of on the dangerous side for me until after. I ended up with a 3rd degree tear and almost needed a transfusion, but when the nurse asked for someone to bring her olive oil to ease the situation with lubrication, I asked if the olive oil was extra virgin. And then I got so frustrated that she didn't laugh at my amazing joke that I went on to explain it between contractions before giving up entirely on her sense of humor.

Great video! I just added it to my playlist of autistic creators talking about autism. Also, I personally call that thing where people treat me like a fun manic pixie to experience in small doses the novelty effect. It feels really crappy, but it definitely helps identify which people are real friends and which are spectator acquaintances.

Good afternoon

God bless you

Good morning Kayla

Were you quoted $500 with this doctor? Or did you get quoted more and only end up paying 500? Asking because anytime I call someone with this type of assesements they keep quoting me for a lot but then some will say "it depends how long it takes". I need to be prepared and so i need a clear answer lol

my sis is 12..She is autistic..

You should only be the person you are and want to be, because that is the best you, and that person is the one your family wants and needs. It will enable you to do your best for them and vice versa. Do not try to be what others want you to be, it's a painful and fruitless path to follow. Men's clothes look great on women, better quality and cut. My mother was a tailor and the men's cloth was always the best quality. At college in the 70's a lot of girls wore men's jeans and leather jackets, because they were practical, comfortable, warm and they looked good, with a pair of boots. They didn't need a purse, shock! they had pockets! Keep up the good work K.

I played w these concepts myself. I resonated w the non binary and gender fluid labels because of similar reasons. ASD and PMDD both lend themselves to this situation. Ultimately I choose gender nonconforming as the best way to describe myself. I dont jive w the restrictions traditionally placed on females and males and female fashion is not sensory friendly. Im glad you feel better and I immediately recognized that you looked better, healthy and natural. We are are not the body, we are the eternal spirit soul.

Best of luck with the medical school application. I had to leave college after 3 weeks, couldn't cope, so worked and got in following year. I was much better prepared at 19 and got my degree, post grad Diploma and professional practice exams all passed. I am saying, stick in there and you will succeed. Best wishes from the UK.

With their sensitivity to touch, personal space, etc. My question is why do so many aspires have tattoos, as it is a hell of an invasion of the body.

M so happy when I see u my darling sister love you so much 💗

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I did at least half of this stuff myself, but I especially sympathize with number 6. It is *NO* fun to have to surrender your personal space, even just temporarily.

I loved this video, Kayla! You be you, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Also, I wish you continued success and progress with ASD. I'm going through the same journey now, and I know there will be good days and bad, but no one ever promised that the truth would be pain-free. Love ya. I look forward to watching more of your videos.

See you on the flip side 🙃 I hope your journey doesn't take you into such rough terrain as it has for many others of us.🤗

Hii my dear sis Kayla 😘 m so happy to see you 💖 all day luv you sweety

Sending love from a fellow survivor 🌈

I love the Ramona Flowers reference. And the ending was perfection

Cuteness overloaded .

Luv you sisu u such a great girl ND cute pie u luv like as a doll that's why u play with a toys 😘 it's normal ND yes my 2yrs son is ASD

I don't know what can I say but still you are very cute ND pretty 💗 Luv you sis

YEAH! Represent the female side of ASD

Amazing Kayla very well explained, so powerful, loved the pictures. Yes you are worthy to be loved. Your amazing , i love you my friend

Literally everything you said is me exactly. So validating knowing I'm not alone.

WOW this was a poem so beautiful, sad, deep , all in once. I can relate so much!

Dark i like it youre like schopenhauer but with. Toddler, keeping it real, great

Love it Kayla. Very relatable!! 💕

Wow! I can't stop to watch it! Me encanta!

Yay!

I really relate.

This is a beautiful poem! You and Samantha Drage are such creative artists! 😀

I love this. Thank you!

Nice poem!

Good for you. However, I think that this kind of video is why people who have children with high support needs for autism dislike adults who have Aspergers telling them how wonderful it is to be autistic. I’m a late diagnosed adult and even I found this poem to be pretty ‘wanky’ tbh 😉✌️

Thank you Kayla. The level of your honesty is humbling to me. My name is Andrew, I'm 60 years old, and only began seeking a diagnosis of autism several months ago. This has become a VERY trying time for me, as I begin a new analysis of my life. Decades of me suspecting something was different, yet not knowing why. And why did no one else say anything??? No, my problem is not them. It is me. Or rather, the difference is in me. But the scales have fallen from my eyes, and while this time of reflection is painful, eventually I'll have peace with my past. And maybe, someday, I will see it as my superpower. One can only hope. Thanks again, Kayla. All my best to you.

I'm a level 2 autistic human with c-ptsd. Thank you for this video. Unfortunately, I can see myself in several parts of your speech.

hey Kayla ! so good to see you back, thank you so much for raising this subject it is absolutely vital to share what you went through, to help others. I can very much relate to feeling like an outsider when being diagnosed. I have bad anxiety too, so can understand about dissociating with people around you. x

Thank you so much for sharing, I know that must have been hard. I was diagnosed with autism in March at age 40 and I can very much relate to the "smacked in the face with many things at first, now beginning to fine tune". My kids are older now, so I missed the "stimming with toddlers" stage, but that does sound like great company to be in while stimming! I would be interested in hearing about your ayahuasca experiences if you do decide to share about those. Thanks again!

I relate to most things in this video but particularily to the "I was always weird and didn't know why" part. I got diagnosed at 41 but at 26 I had a huge epiphany in the shower that I never was and never will be "normal". I collapsed in there and had a brief mental breakdown. I grieved my "normalcy". Since then I just accepted I am not "normal" and never will be.

What does it feel like to realize you've been dissociating? How can you tell?

Greatly appreciate your vulnerability in this. It puts words to many of my experiences as well. You're definitely not alone in these experiences, and it helps people like me to hear how they affected you too. It's not just a "everyone goes through it" thing like I/we believed for so long.