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@@Kim_Ilia thank you ;u;

a lot of us are pretty dense huh? jkjk, but seriously WHY DOES IT TAKE SO LONG TO FIGURE OUT SOMETIMES <3

@@HeyItLoki haha... I'm 46... So a very very long time... I did repress a lot of my teenage memories because they were... bad. My ex-fiance told me several times I'd be a 'much better lesbian than a guy'... I even cried when stories about trans kids getting denied the option to transition started being covered in the media like a decade ago. But I still made it until a few months ago without thinking 'oh I'm a trans woman'. xD

@@therealshadow99 you always were, and i am proud of you for finally discovering yourself!! if it is any solace i hope you can find some safety and comfort in this community, and once again i am so ecstatic that you have finally found yourself after all these years!! you should be proud!

@@HeyItLoki Yeah, I always had been... I just didn't know. Somehow. xD I'm glad I figured things out, though my desire to be myself often contends with how slow change is. It doesn't help that I'm older. There is a lot I could say about that, but probably a YT comment isn't the place for it.

@@therealshadow99 that is fair <3 i'm just happy you found yourself eventually!

i'm feeling exponentially better today!! still gonna take it easy and might do a tts stream <3 i hope you have a wonderful day though, and thank you so much for the sub ~!

yeah 100%, the goal is to just be there and support them... sadly for a long time i would ask questions as a cry for help and would just receive a "naaaaah" in return, so i suppose there is some balance needed with that as well. i agree with you though, never force the title of egg on anyone, this actually just goes for anything, like femboy even! <3 ty for the comment <3

@@FritoLay74 no cinnamon or ginger tea here! but i have been drinking tea with honey and lemon at least!! ty for the sweet advice, today is the best i have felt in two weeks!

:0 twins, jkjk i'm honestly thinking about going more in depth about it all, the hardships and the euphoria after coming out, might do that for my hrt anniversary!

i'm getting plenty of rest inbetween tearing up a little, i miss streaming so much and miss spending time with you all ;////; much love and many waffles sooshi, thank you for being there for me as well as everyone else~! .... definitely not crying 💙

Don’t worry about it, Loki! Take all the time you need to get better. we’ll be here waiting for you when you get back. But Congratulations.🎉🎉 i’m hitting the 200 subscribers. I’m so happy for you. You definitely deserve way more cause you’re amazing and awesome! Looking forward to seeing you grow both on TH-cam and twitch!

@@jhawley031 this was taken directly from a stream, so the chill vibes is what you can expect there :3 and that’s good to hear, yeah coming out to yourself is the biggest hurdle, and it takes time to experiment and figure out yourself, at the end of the day you’ll find out more who you truly are, just never forget that no matter where you end up at the end of self discovery, you are still you 🩷 and that is beautiful :3

i have lemon and tea but no ginger! ;-; i am trying my best to get better! thank you for the sweet advice 🧡

when my voice comes back i would definitely be down to do a more comprehensive video :3 thank you for supporting nonetheless!!

you still need a camera, i just uses the camera for facial recognition! a good starting one for 3d avatar work would be veeseeface or vnyan! for 2d avatar work i would recommend vtubestudio. other than that there are pngtuber alternatives but i'm not as well versed in those!! either way good luck and i hope this helped!

thank you thank you! i'm still shocked at how well this is doing! thank you for being so kind!

@Mapleson unintentional indeed, but tbh i did chuckle to myself at the time! hehe

@@preflightarc4835 that is so beautiful!! and amazing!! keep up the amazing work, and would love to hear more about your journey to help people as well!! 🩷

@ I’m always happy to share what I’m working on!! It’s the beautiful stories like yours that make me want to carry on ❤️

@@preflightarc4835 are you looking for more people's experiences and testimonies ?

and finally coming to terms with that is some of the most liberating one can feel 💛

I had kind of a strange upbringing. My parents had complicated relationships with religion so I got no religion in my upbringing at all. And somehow I missed the memo about gender being a defining part of who I am. Like....that sounds weird but It's caused me problems. I didn't related to other guys well because I couldn't understand why I was something important or why anyone had to prove it. But apparently in the 80s I didn't do guy well enough for them and couldn't fake it well enough either. Here I am rambling at 1230am. Sheesh. I don't think I need to go on with my entire life story ATM. Thank you though. Much appreciated. Now go drink water and get healthy

@@notelliot70 you don't have to feel like you can talk about this stuff hon, it's always a treat to learn more about people, and it helps to build empathy 💕thank you so much for sharing, it's always a pleasure having you around~! :3

I don't know necessarily how i would format or edit a video like that ;-; but i can try~!

i'm trying i just may have jumped the gun ;-; ty so so much for the support hon, ~!

maybe just a little bit ;-;

raaaaah~!

@@notelliot70 that’s honestly just a sad way to live, there’s so much to love and be excited about, + there are more tangible things to be mad about ty for your take notelliot!! good to hear from you again! (am currently sick and wanting my throat to melt away)

@@HeyItLoki Oh no. Musta been something at the airport. Rest. Hydrate. Get better. *hugs*

AYYY I LOVE THAT, tytyty hope you enjoyed, i'm actually live rn if you'd like to say hi~! have a superb and wonderful day~!

i have on a few occasions yeah :3

@@HeyItLoki I ended up playing heroes of the storm more than I did league. To me they feel very similar but if you haven’t, I was gonna suggest but I figured you have because you like to play World of Warcraft.

@@deathxeaglex9z7 yep yep~! too bad it doesn't get support anymore really..

Trying out multiple things on TH-cam would be a fun little mix-up, but as always, you do whatever you think would be good and fun, Lopki 💚

It's a hard choice. It would be fun watching you play Avowed live, but you also expressed interest in branching out on TH-cam. Depending on what the game is like, maybe you'll be able to do both. Like, do one specific playthrough (like doing the main quest and side quests) on one side and do something else (like adventuring and other things) on the other side

@@tntalchemist i love that idea!!!

that is a pretty fair and profound take, i struggle to understand it (which is why i asked in the video) cause showing immense hatred and disdain for someone or something that quite literally has no direct effect on you just makes zero sense to me...

@@HeyItLoki It's normal to not understand it, that kind of behavior is not bound by logic. If these people were sensible to logic, they wouldn't be hateful or triggered.

CONGRATULATIONS~! i'm not cute >:(

YES ! People are learning ! Goooooooood !

@@HeyItLoki Yes you are ! :smilysnek:

Walking everywhere is a lot more fun. There's so many random events that can pop up on your travels and it can get easy getting distracted by shinies and finding more fun stuff to do lol Err, well, when you're forced to hold stuff that overencumbers you, maybe a horse won't be so bad XD

Honestly would love to see you do a NV run. That game is just so great and fun!

*dragon corpse sitting outside the town, villagers act like nothing is out of the ordinary* The game really seems to like throwing bears at you lol Honestly, Vlindrel Hall in Markarth purely becuase Dwarven architecture is cool lol

@@tntalchemist that’s available after the molag bal questline right?

@HeyItLoki it's just the hold house, just gotta gain Igmund's favor and you can buy the house. I've seen it said you can take over Whiterun with the Stormcloaks to be able to bypass that, but I've never gone back to Markarth to find out for sure and that doesn't make a whole lot of sense to me since they're two different holds lol It's not free, but it's spacious has a great view of the city

@@pringlesxp Thistle is best bean~! yeah i’m mainly considering the house in falkreath, and windhelm, eventually i want to get every house though!

@@pringlesxp tactical and fashionable 😎

Limited fast travel is good. I wouldn't ban it but how you're doing is great so far

I was wondering where all the dragons were in this addition. I haven't seen any except at a distance in my recent playthroughs

And don't you need a sabre cat pelt for crafting at that one riverside table? 🤔

@@notelliot70 wdymmmmm what riverside table? did i forget!?

@@HeyItLoki I makes daedra summoning spells I believe. I've never run across it but you did earlier

is there a player home in winterhold?? fun fact my favourite favourite city is windhelm... which is why i go imperials everytime so it's not an insufferable place haha but ye the only "home" in winterhold i can think of is the like midden???

Ooooh I was still talking about guard outfits lmao I like the home in Markarth, and it's also the most "Breton" area of the game. But I like the one you can build in Hjaalmarch as well

@ my favorite has always been the house you can build in falkreath and the house you can buy in windhelm ❤️

I don't think I've actually visited the house in Falkreath, or I forgot. Windhelm one is really nice though.

@ windhelm has a secret room :3 and lakeview manor in falkreath is just GORGEOUS

@@deathxeaglex9z7 i’ll have to look into it a bit more absolutely!! it wouldn’t be unmodded though haha

@@HeyItLoki well if you choose to play them would it be on here or would you play it on twitch?

@ although youtube STILL isn’t my comfort zone, i’d say here! i like that there is unique things here, compared to twitch

@@HeyItLokiokay cool I would watch either way on any platform lol!

@@deathxeaglex9z7 something happens later in the video! that kinda pushes me to stick with no direct fast travel haha ❤️

@ I know you got a pet bunny so cute!

@@deathxeaglex9z7 thanks hon, it’s been a little rough recently but i’m doing good! so many amazing people within this community, its beautiful 🩷

@@HeyItLoki just know we all love you I’m wishing best of luck on your trip and I hope everyone there see how amazing and awesome you are! We always be here for you !❤️

@ WHY ARE YOU ALL SO SWEET AHHH