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@@clcomposer7965 I will let my past self know

or the jazz, only the mis-direction for some mysterious time-wasting reason.

thank you, it was performed once. I'm excited for it to be performed again

@@johnnytheyoungmaestro thank you

Not the same thing. I went down this rabbit hole with my old conducting professor. I'm basically trying to have the feel of dotted sixteenth notes, or 4 over 3. Switching to 2/4 would imply a different rhythm. Just my two cents

@@ChristianMechem the audience is listening without the score in hand and it sounds like 2/4. I think it would also be easier to perform without the extra jank. Just my 2 cents

Fair enough. As the composer, and the conductor of the initial performance, I'm content with this decision. Thank you for your feedback, sincerely

There is a recording on my channel of a full performance by the Allegro Orchestra. The video is "Serenade No.1"

There's a version out there with real instruments. I just personally would like to rerecord it

@@ChristianMechem fair enough, I’d love to hear that whenever it gets rerecorded!

It would sound sooo much better in MS4 😭

@@bluefalcon5433 I tried MS4. I prefer note performer in this case

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Thank you.

i want to help you but TH-cam does not allow me to

Thank you

If you do I'd be happy to see it! :)

@@ChristianMechem Just started working on it!

Amazing work

@@somebody9033 thank you

I understand. It gets better.

Thank you❤

@@weileytatertot2208 thank you

@@terrotorotbart8319 thank you, I really appreciate that

@@hyrumforpresident thank you sincerely

i want to help you but TH-cam does not allow me to

Thank you❤

Amazing

@@CarsandMoreCars55 Thank you <3

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@@ChristianMechem Nobody wants to steal it, because it’s a shitty riff.

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