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Hey I have rumination syndrome. How can I contact you to take advice ? My life has become hell bcoz of this eating syndrome, too much negative thoughts. Hope you will help me

Thank you for this video I also have cerebral palsy and anorexia so this makes me feel better and I'm not alone.

Looking at yourself in all your different roles in life is a great way to boost self confidence.

SHOULD A THERAPIST be supportive or should a therapist stop you half way only to seem like they aren't being supportive...?? I'm having issues getting her to understand but she doesn't seem to be for my best interest what to do???

you kinda suck, honestly

Brianna. Thank you for your raw honesty. I too have have CP and an eating disorder. Listening to your story helped validate my feelings. For years I thought I was alone in having a serious ED and CP. Slowly I see more people talking and writing about their experience with physical disability and eating disorders. I wish you the best in recovery.

Awesome..I luv it

Just watching this again, Jenn... and wanting you to know how very special you are to me. I love you girl <3

I love you!

It's been an honour girl. Sisters for life <3

I'm sorry to see you go, but if it's the right decision for you then I am happy for you. I really really would love to keep up with you though, if you opened your blog again or made a new TH-cam channel or made a new blog or whatever, I definitely want to follow your journey. Glad that things are falling into place. xx

Wow, Jenn... Mascara Alert... Thank you sweetheart... I do "get you"... And thanks for "getting" me. <3 I love you hon... This means the world to me. You mean the world to me. xox

I rarely comment but I found this channel in 2009 just after I started my recovery and I really appreciate your videos over the past several years. Thank you for them and good luck to you in all that you do.

It's nice to see your lovely face again. Beautiful video, as always. I love you to the moon and back.

im so proud of you. :)

So glad to see you back on here. Just wondering if you'd be able to give any advice on dealing with urges alcohol wise and how to even begin trying to stop without AA? Thanks. Xox

It's good to see you back, and as you said it's much better to deal with it before it gets out of hand. How have you dealt with cravings? Generally I'm doing well atm, taking care with trying to have healthier meals and I've joined a gym. But (and this might sound silly) my big weakness is chocolate. A lot of the time is a constant battle not to eat it/ lots of it. This has probably always been my main problem. My attitude is better now as I don't go into negative thoughts about myself over it anymore, which only used to lead to binges (and sometimes purging). I've tried not denying myself too (which would also cause a binge) and just eating when hungry etc but I just get really strong cravings and however much anything else improves nothing I do seems to really change this. Sometimes it's emotional, but often it isn't, it feels more physiological. Sometimes it's habit. Whatever it is it's really hard to break! Any advice? Also, I've been wondering if you are planning to open your blog back up at all?

That was really impressive. Academic, yet accessible. And great metaphor !!!

This is so heartbreaking, you are so brave for making this.

You are so brave, thank you for making this video, it really helped me

Thank you.

Hey Arielle, I have been watching your videos for quite a while but never commented before and now finding out about this tragedy in your life really shocked me and I wanted to let you know that ... that I'm sure there are thousands of people out there watching your videos, being inspired by you but never telling you how much it means to them... I can't even imagine through how much pain you are going right now ... Thank you for all your inspiring videos... :(

thank you so much for sharing this with us! people need to see the other side of suicide. this is very important. <3

No words... I'm so very sorry for your loss and your pain. :( xx <3

I have a lot of respect for you. There's nothing I could say to help but you're in my thoughts.

Hey Arielle bear! <3 First off I just wanted to let you know that you are in my prayers and I'm sending you a huge hug to wherever you are. I cried with you in this vlog as it pertains to me. You are an incredible woman and no matter when, where or how you reboot your life, I believe you will be a GREAT and exceptional young woman. You have made it through SO much already at the tender age of 29. God always has a plan for our lives and I highly doubt that no matter the reasoning why or how Rick took his life... God does NOT intend the pain to endure forever. I am curious to know if you knew that your husband was in emotional pain or not. I find suicide very complex but its so rare that to get such a genuine response/answer about its everlasting effects on the ones who are left behind. What a selfless, understanding, compassionate and sweet woman YOU are for not being angry and saying that your husbands actions were selfish like the rest would. I am thinking of you sweetie!! XOXOXOOOO

all my love goes out to you Arielle. youre an incredible woman and I know (as you do too!) that you can make it through this. That video was so powerful, so poignant and so heartfelt. Its such a complicated issue and hurts people from every direction, Thank you for making this video. oxox

Glad to see you back to vlogging, even under the current circumstances. You have a voice that demands to be heard and a powerful message to share. Thanks, Arielle.

I am so proud of you, beautiful girl. Love you endlessly.

Sending You Lots of Love and Healing Prayers during this Beyond Difficult Time XOXOXO Cynthie

You're so brave for making this Arielle it really is a message that needs to be heard xxx

this was such a brave video to make. and you are right, you will prevail. i'm so sorry for the pain you're going through right now though. i follow your blog daily and every time i read it i send so much support and love your way xxx

Oh my gosh, I am so sorry for you Arielle, you are such an amazing woman and inspire me tremendously Thankyou xx

God bless you, Arielle. Thinking of you.

I am thinking of you Arielle.

Arielle, thank you for making this video. I honestly believe that it is going to save lives. You are truly inspirational and my thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue to move forward and make a positive impact on this world.

So much love and prayers to you Arielle- Your blog has been so honest and powerful. You are so full of strength it is amazing to me. This made me cry for the loss you are feeling in so many ways, but I pray that anyone who sees this and feels like their life has no meaning, that your heartfelt words really will touch them. Thanks for sharing something so personal. <3

I am so sorry that you are going through this. My thoughts and prayers are certainly with you and yours. :(

My thoughts and prayers go out to Arielle. Incredible video and something I really needed to hear right now. I actually recorded just the second half about full recovery being possible and such into an mp3 so that I can have it on my computer to play over and over again when I'm feeling doubtful or triggered or hopeless, to remind myself to continue fighting this battle until I've finally won. Because I know one day I will succeed over my ED, as long as I have God by my side, I have wonderful and supportive friends like you Jenn by my side constantly reminding me I truly am worth it, and so long as I never give up (which I don't ever plan on doing... I've been down that road, and it's no way to live, and I don't EVER want to be so hopeless and close to death again).

For whatever reason, I cannot reply to you, Kim. I'll message you.

I'm heartbroken for Arielle, it was clear how much her husband meant to her. I can't even imagine what she must be going through. My thoughts are with you Arielle xxx

My thoughts are with Arielle, what a terrible loss. Sending much much love to her at this difficult time.

Wonderful video as always. Also, I wanted to say I'm sorry to hear about Arielle's husband. She and their family are definitely in my thoughts and prayers. :(

I think I've learnt /am learning that like you said one or a few characteristics don't define me. But I haven't yet reached the stage of being able to not act as though they do.

Watched this, still got the same message as a lot of the other videos I watched and I think I will do pretty well tmrw on my final. This video was taken sometime ago, are you still studying psych in some university now.

Would that it were possible to just step out of the cocoon and fly free. When you say connect with others do you mean others who understand or like family and friends?

My eating issues are the one thing that really won't shift. With a lot of work I have managed to improve drastically in terms of depression and also with self harm and anxiety. The only way I am able to see any improvement on my eating is if I don't focus on it. I am able to resist purging. But bingeing /overeating just will not go away. I may be ok for a little while but it creeps back in. Then the minute I start to think about it, depression and behaviours get much worse when I find that I am unable to control it. Am I just destined to gain more and more weight and feel worse (physically, body image and so on) with every passing year? I'm sick of being this way, I just want a normal relationship with food and so many things would genuinely be so much better. How can it be so hard? To some people food is just food. I often feel like it's taken over my life. I'm always thinking about it, regardless what else I'm doing. It's like an addiction. I also have ibs and atm we are wondering if I may have a food intolerance. But I find it too difficult to stick to an elimination diet for long enough to even find out. Even just physically, if food was just food, I could just have what I need and be much healthier. I feel ill all the time and yet I still can't stop.

My eating issues are the one thing that really won't shift. With a lot of work I have managed to improve drastically in terms of depression and also with self harm and anxiety. The only way I am able to see any improvement on my eating is if I don't focus on it. I am able to resist purging. But bingeing /overeating just will not go away. I may be ok for a little while but it creeps back in. Then the minute I start to think about it, depression and behaviours get much worse when I find that I am unable to control it. Am I just destined to gain more and more weight and feel worse (physically, body image and so on) with every passing year? I'm sick of being this way, I just want a normal relationship with food and so many things would genuinely be so much better. How can it be so hard? To some people food is just food. I often feel like it's taken over my life. I'm always thinking about it, regardless what else I'm doing. It's like an addiction. I also have ibs and atm we are wondering if I may have a food intolerance. But I find it too difficult to stick to an elimination diet for long enough to even find out. Even just physically, if food was just food, I could just have what I need and be much healthier. I feel ill all the time and yet I still can't stop.

I'm sorry you're upset hon. Glad you did the video though. Why do you think it is that even though your ed was the most "severe" thing for you, now you tend to fall back on things like self harm or drinking? Is it that you know if you did anything ed-wise it would be too easy to fall back into it and hell to get out again, but you need something and therefore the other options are "better" because they don't have as strong a hold and aren't as likely to drag you into as deep a pit? Not sure how well I explained that xx

sending love x