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🐝 the Bardling
New Zealand
เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 12 ม.ค. 2019
100% human + dimples the guitar
Sweet Thunder (in thunderstorm) | original peek
sick rn but i had to do it.
sorry throat and nose.
sorry throat and nose.
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The (full) Ballad of the Broken & the Young | original
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Wasn't gonna upload this one like so many others I've recorded because I feel it isn't a good representation of how this song normally sounds. BUT FUCK IT. I need to keep creating, and not get hung up on shit like this. It's not like this is the only version of this song I'm allowed to upload, hehe. So... Here is a memory from a beautiful Summer afternoon I spent in the grass among the spiders,...
The Key to Contentment is YOU | Part I & II
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Six months apart, these two parts of my learnings on the self were recorded to help solidify my own insights. I post them here in case they may be able to help my loved ones, or anyone else, as they feel alone or lost. There isn't much else to say this time. Part I 00:00 - Returning to the True Self Part II 02:32 - A Sickness of the Self Much love, 💛🌻🐝
Dear Grady Smith: You are allowed.
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Good Morning. Very closely related to my videos on accepting criticism and The Hypercritic. May you take this energy into your days and feel free. WE ARE CRINGE BUT FREE. Altho, I do wish I recorded this video once I prettied myself up for the day bc I look hot now as I type this. But then that'd destroy the humanity aye? FUCK IT. im allowed. Grady's video (check out his channel): th-cam.com/vi...
Dear 🐝: Bad Days - an interactive prologue
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New music is coming soon, but here's something from back in July this year that has helped me get through recent difficulties. Here's an example of my motto "music is the key to the universe" when playing around with Zach Bryan, a TV, a guitar, and a lot of sad got me happy. Here's the video th-cam.com/video/o7tPVsMC8_I/w-d-xo.html&ab_channel=ZachBryan more to come on bad days but remember 🐝 th...
Dear Lana & Cohen: Chelsea Hotel | cover
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Good morning. It's time to win another day. It's time to wake up, roll out of bed, and do what you love to do. Or do what you NEED to do to support what you love to do. We can do it. I've been playing this song for a long time. Lana Del Rey's covers of it are stunningly beautiful to me. I've also agonised about how to record and upload this to TH-cam what key, how to hit every tone perfectly, w...
Dear Darling: Yours Faithfully, Moon | original
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The debut of my first original song. I started writing this on Sunday the 9th of July 2023 (thanks journal) for my Darling. He was like a dream to me the kind of man I knew I needed to marry. Loving and being loved by him has been one of the greatest privileges of my life so far. With him, the music I had loved my whole life took on a different sound. The Winter gives way to Summer, the Hells c...
Dear Humans: What do you accept for yourself? and others? (It's contagious)
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Play a game with me: notice this in your own life over the next wee while. Really think about this and get back to me after some meditation, as I will to you. Much love, 💛🌻🐝
Dear 🐝: Confronting the Hypercritic
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Dear 🐝, Recorded on the 4th of July, 2024, this video logs some of the internal work I’ve been doing. As of the 29th of July, 2024, I feel this video really captures an important day for us, which I now have so much more clarity on. Onwards and upwards, darling. Much love, 💛🌻🐝
Dear Subscribers: Where I've been, am, and am going
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Here is a little unedited video for you talking about the rawness of my current relationship with social media, life, and specifically TH-cam. TLDR: things are changing. Expect more music, more journalistic entries, more humanlike bullshit. 🐝
this is super cool!! would you ever release the tabs for it?? I would love to try and play!!!!
Well done!
Kachow
true bard hours
Un-privated. Now the description is kinda ironic lmaoooooooo. Fun to look back on.
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Lovely video, thanks for the positive message!
Thank YOU for stopping by and a lovely comment 🥰
Pretty fucking cool Grady saw this. Grateful for this beautiful thing we all share: human connection. I hope someone passes you a smile today. :) <3
This video is a gift and I’m grateful to you for making it. An entirely accurate read of me. Really really helpful perspective.
Dear 🐝 - Im having a terrible day today. Everything feels so overwhelming and I’m drowning in my anxiety. But seeing you master your present moment and take things one second at a time to forge a better future moment is giving me courage. Your fumbling and unapologetically fun freedom is contagious 🤍💛🤍 I remember you. Thank you for being with me. I love you so much and I’m so grateful for you. No matter what happens, I’m just so glad to be a part of you and to know that you are and always will be a part of me. I’ll get back to my uni now. Future me - anxious or not - may you feel just as encouraged. I hope you laugh at this moment and this comment and smile because you know the truth: There’s nothing to worry about :) 🐝🌻💛
Gonna post my new original sometime soon but have this for now :) We overcame our struggles from this particular video by the way. Winners.
hii this is great! artist to artist-you’re very talented, keep going!💫
Amazing
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@@ethanprescott4683 :)))
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Beautiful!😎👍
need to smoke more cigarettes lol. sounds beautiful :)
Yo guys let's not forget ONE thing.... She just woke up.. lol Once again I really like how you're slowly coming back to YT.... Keep it up. This cover sounds amazing!!!
Haha thank you yes. Warmed up me would have sung it different, but that would ruin the beauty in the spontaneous authenticity wouldn’t it :P Glad you enjoyed, thank you for your time spent with me and the music 🏔️✨🐝
@@BeetheBardling Yea I see what you mean regarding the authenticity haha. As long as you continue posting I'll be here to follow you and your music journey.
Ayee you uploaded haha!!! I was watching your videos and was wondering when you were going to upload more videos. This was great to listen too. Do you have any other socials?
@@JohnnyChinoTorres Aw thanks for tuning in ☺️ Hope you’ve been enjoying. Nah, I’m pretty anti-social-media. But can always catch me here 🏔️
This makes me want to pick up my guitar again. I'm a total novice, but one day I want to write a song for my girlfriend. How beautiful the lyrics you wrote!
Thank you, you totally should 😊 My guitar is my new video game
AYE LETS GOOOOOOO You sound great, Bee. I'm so glad you posted this
🥰 Yaaay we did it! And more cooking, too. I think you’ll like them even more… Gonna start experimenting with DAW like Reaper too
Beautiful job!
🙏 Thanks for stopping by again and for the feedback. Have a great one 🌸
Cool 🐝
👋 again 🌻
I think i dish out a little bit of both praise and criticism. the criticism i give is proportional to how close my relationship is with that person. im more likely to give praise to strangers than to people im close with, which is weird. ideally i would recognise people's boundaries when it comes to lack of praise or too much criticsim then manage it from there.
You should upload more.
@@iWillTalkToGod coming soon :)
What goes around... I am hesitant to give criticism to others usually, but quite hard on myself. I have noticed though, that I am much more *actively* kind to others, and readily provide that warmth when I am practicing a better internal dialogue inside my own mind. It goes both ways. Also, you are really beautiful both physically and in the presence of your personality and should feel confident about yourself!
@@basedstruggler3436 This is your sign to FROM TODAY be actively and objectively constructive where you deserve it within yourself. Challenge accepted? Also, thank you. I don’t really respond to compliments like that, but I will in this case because I want to illustrate that I still struggle to accept praise. People can say such lovely things again and again and I still cannot believe them yet. But I am grateful for them. And every day gets me closer to living in a world unclouded by the heavy toxic fog of self hatred. It’s clearing, but it takes time. Gotta keep it it. Have a wonderful day today 🤍 Thank you for your engagement with the topic, your efforts for yourself and others, and for supporting the video 🌱
women have reached a whole another level of delusion
Hmm. quick to give praise or criticism. my gut reaction was neither. Though deeper down I know that to be untrue. In a work enviroment I it is mainly praise with criticism being soft and only targeted and job required things often followed with praise in another aspect. In personal life. I dont really have much of one socially. so when I do interact with people it's usually a first time so it's mainly praise as I briefly get to know them before we part ways. As I listened to you. I thought about how I dont actually praise myself at all. if I do something well or "perfectly" it is just how it was supposed to be or expected. anything else is soft or harsh self criticism. I have however worked on accepting praise from others. I used to and in some situations still do have a hard time accepting or believing it. I had a situation when I was younger and had finished some project work. a fellow student had sincerly praised the artisitc side to the work. instead of thanking them I criticized my own work but quickly stopped when I had seen I had negatively effected the other person with my own self talk and seemingly ignoring their words of praise. I have worked on it a lot and it has made me feel better to accept others genuine praise.
@@weiry_ I read this comment last night, on my couch, to one of my best friends as it came in. We were both really impressed by your story, and found it so relatable. It’s a shame how many people there are that take their wins and their good qualities for granted with no recognition of praise - just “expected”. And your story about your friend and your self criticism too. Thank you so much for sharing, because I think that sharing these insights would hopefully help other people recognise certain patterns within themselves or others that you have already begun. I have a lot of admiration for the quality of this comment, both technically in its writing and in the depth of insight. I wish you all the best in your future. May you continue to feel better and better with genuine praise. May you become a friend to yourself that you see shed all failings and grow in all goodness through kind and loving praise and criticism. And nice pfp too - I like that anime. Slice of life very on point for this channel haha.
@@BeetheBardling I'm reading this just before bed tonight. Thank you for your kind words. I had to catch my thoughts out as I was reading your reply. I hadnt thoughts that were resistant to your reply. I completely agree with you. Others can hold valuable insights. Even if they feel insignificant to another person it might be eye opening to another or give some relatability to their own experiences. I have to thank you for creating this video. Authentically talking through your experience with your stream and following into your insights into praise and criticism was so so valuable. It helped inspired? develop my own thoughts on the subject which in turn may help other people when they read the comment. I also commend your courage to post your thoughts in video form. Authenticity is another area I've been working on. What it means to me, how to express it without fear and dealing with my own inner critic in regards to expressing myself in a authentic way. to be honest I could keep writing but I'll leave that there as to not take up your time or test the comment character limit! I hope you continue to freely express yourself in the way you see fit to. Yes March comes in like a lion is one of my fav slice of lifes! I related a lot to it and lead to a lot of thinking around the various themes of the show. I also really liked the first opening to it. kinda melancholy into something more up beat.
Hello to New Zealand from Australia!
Hi Australia I’m dad :3 👋
My issue with accepting praise and most importantly love in the past is that myself, people, and the world conditioned me to believe that I was undeserving of it. Whether it was behaviors in others on how they treated me or me running through negative thought loops, I eventually came to the conclusion I was worthless. This was perpetuated by internal circumstances as well whether is was mental illness or an incessant need to utilize substances to cope with my perceived inadequacies. Trauma certainly contributed to it. Today is different. I'm slowly relearning how to accept praise and love from others and more importantly myself. I try to remind myself how I would speak to an important friend of mine if they were being taunted by their own thoughts in the way I was or was undergoing the weighty trials by fire that the world consistently hurls.
@@Cade2k36 Thanks for sharing 💛🌱 Sounds like your relationship with yourself is on such a nice track. I wish you lots of fun on your adventures :3 I had a similar rule when I started journaling: “Don’t despair, and don’t be mean”. It certainly can be such a long process after years of gaslighting/conditioning can’t it? But man does it reward you with such a strength in character once you overcome it ☺️🤍 Happy for you.
Yeah if you got hate in your heart, you'll judge things you don't understand. It's no Bueno for every1. Empathy and perspective!
Gracias Steve
@@BeetheBardling de nada 😇
really needed this, thanks.
@@mazovist🤍🌸
At this point in my life, many people in my life offer me praise and less are willing to criticize. Given that, I feel like it needs to be my role to harshly criticize myself to keep my ego in check and to keep me accountable for my mistakes and flaws. Nobody is going to know how much you suck more than yourself.
@@adamyooz that’s an interesting spot to be in, I suppose I can’t imagine what it’s like to not be criticised haha. I wonder what thinking on this topic over the next couple weeks will reveal to you 🤔 And I wonder which you are more prone to giving others - criticism, or praise? Cruelty or kindness? As different, not the same. Thanks for the perspective. Hope you’re not too harsh on yourself! Have a fantastic day 💐
it is no wonder we are told that those who condemn others will themselves be condemned, and those who forgive will themselves be forgiven. for those who wished to dispute Him could not answer for one in a thousand of their sins. AMEN
Thank you <3
Your accent sounds like a mixture of every single accent from english speaking areas (except sheffield)
@@GpoJim-ee8wl Unfortunately CANNOT do a Manchester accent either 😭☠️ but this is like lowkey one of the nicest compliments ever, I’ll take that
@@BeetheBardling Manchester accent is bad anyway
@@BeetheBardling I remember getting complimented about smth I did for the first time, the guy said "your art looks like picasso" and I thought that was really nice
@@GpoJim-ee8wl that IS really nice :3 little sweet comments and moments like that that we remember as humans are very… very pretty memories.
@@BeetheBardling ye
It's been fascinating in my own life to see how uncomfortable it gets when receiving a genuine compliment about something my own inner critic likes to beat me up about. There's this moment of cognitive dissonance between the story I've been telling myself and what other people are actually recognizing in me. That creates this moment of decision where I have the opportunity to choose which of these narratives I'm going to believe. The funny thing is, over time, I've found that it's easier to get those compliments when I'm being the most genuine version of myself. Weird and imperfect as I may be, if I'm truly being me, there's no lie for the inner critic to hold up and go "but what about ___?". I also see it in others, especially men, when I give a real compliment. At least from my own life experience, it seems we've grown quite accustomed to being told we're wrong, did something poorly, aren't trying hard enough, etc. Taking the time to notice, and intentionally give that genuine praise to someone can honestly make a difference, even if they don't believe it at first. All that said, thank you for making this video. I didn't know I needed it in my day today, but I did. Keep up the good work 😄
@@Takashiaramake wow, such great insights! I totally agree! I think not only does it become easier to accept praise when you’re being your authentic self, but everything gets a bit easier too. The self is really so key. I’m glad we are talking about this because men’s mental health is really important to me. I’m a guy’s gal, and all my bros are dudes. And it’s been wonderful to see men thinking about and openly discussing this topic in the comment section. We need more spaces like that. Thanks so much for your thoughtful engagement - have a good day 🌷
Amazing video, inspired to be positive today
@@acebecks6288 Yay 💛💐🐝 have a good day! (And beyond)
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The algorithm thinks I’ll watch anything
Fr she fine tho
@@anon69_q yeah bro this shit isn’t for everyone, i get it. Since this’ll be the last time you probs ever see or hear of me in your life then, I wanna wish you this: May you achieve all you deserve to in life, and may you enjoy all you let yourself to. The video wasn’t for you - but I’m glad you got sent my way anyway just so I can have those hopes for you for one minute of my life. Have a good one 👋
@@BeetheBardling I didn’t mean that as an insult. This just isn’t the content I watch. Your video was very thoughtful and you were able to explain yourself well. My take is that we can compartmentalize. IRL, I offer compliments easily and often, yet I tend to be critical of my actions. Simultaneously, I’ll defend my actions, if I find the criticism from others to be poor (haters hating). I think a lot of people are like this. I understand it’s important to love and care for yourself, however in technique driven careers I believe being self conscious and critical is key. Maybe that’s just the hyper-critic speaking.
@@anon69_q aye no prob, sorry for my misunderstanding. My good wishes still stand of course 🤍 Perhaps now two-fold. That’s a really cool perspective on this, thanks for offering it up. I’ll have fun thinking about that at work today. You’re right, I think it’s really important to be critical of yourself in those fields. I think it’s important in most. But sometimes people can be just cruel. I like the way you think. See you around I guess :)
Everything contains within it good and bad. When we praise something and focus on the good in it, we're ignoring the bad (and that's just fine). When we criticize things and focus on the bad, we're ignoring the good (and that's fine too). Haters are gonna hate, obviously, but the hatred says more about the hater than it does about that which is being hated upon. It's just as easy to see the good in something and celebrate it as it is to see the bad and cut it to shit. Of course, which of these we see depends heavily on how we're doing on a personal level. It's noble of you to wish the best for the haters, as they're obviously going through the shit. We're allowed open our hearts to the goodness in everything. Love is the only antidote there is to Hate.
@@blakewentley Yeah I reckon balance is super important to strike in life. It’s quite surprising how many people can struggle with this isn’t it? I’ve recently also been journaling about balance in terms of time and activity. How many people do hours of procrastinating/doomscrolling and then force themselves to do hours of hard intensive work to balance it out? A big block of white and a big block of black. A more balanced, more interesting, and more consistently enjoyable life is enjoyed in a faster oscillation between the black and the white I believe. Currently guilty of this myself, and just woke up from a nap 😴, hahaha. Your comment gets me thinking about this concept in the context of what we accept in terms of seeing and perceiving this marbling idea of the yin and yang in positive and negative feedback. And positive and negative output. Very interesting, and I am glad for it. On another point, my sister once told me: “Hate isn’t the opposite of love, it’s indifference.” And I agree that the only antidote to hate, this fiery and negative obsession (the word obsession isn’t quite right, but you get me), is love. Love, a gentle and positive dwelling of the thoughts. Yes, dwelling of the thoughts is a better term than obsession. I hope I don’t confuse you by including my ongoing thought processes in this comment haha. But hate and love, being so closely linked, can maybe be both as easily mastered? Or love chosen more easily in favour of hate. I don’t know. A lot for me to think about. But the maternal love I have for others informs the maternal and empathetic love I have for the haters and creeps. Pitiful things. I hope they get better. The strong will, and the weak won’t. Thanks for thoughtful engagement with my content again. I wanted to thank you for it with an equally thoughtful engagement with your own ideas. Wishing you a fantastic day.
@@BeetheBardling Without the contrasts we face in our day to day life, we'd be completely desensitized to the goodness that is in everything, and constantly surrounds us. Some people prefer the big blocks of black just so they can experience the big blocks of white, but I'm right there with you doing my best to intermingle the two just to keep things on a more even keel. I'm glad you shared your sister's point about love and hate. For the past few years I've been operating under the principle that we have the choice to allow fear to govern our behavior, or if we so choose we can have love guide us instead. But then I read recently that love and fear aren't really opposites; they're on separate spectrums, love and hate being opposites, with fear and courage also being such. To which I respond, what is fear but aversion, and what is love but attraction? So I love your point that the antithesis of love is indifference. Love can be viewed as possessing a passion for something, while hate is similarly an emotion stemming from passion, the difference being that with love comes acceptance where hate is lacking this. I love your sister's comment because it shows me there are just so many ways to look at this, so many things to consider, and like you said, a lot for me to think about. It seems to me we're put on this earth to learn how to love every bit of it, the parts that are easy to love and the parts that are not so easy. The haters and creeps will find their way, even if they take the difficult route and have to learn to love it the hard way. I'm happy to thoughtfully engage with your content. Thank you for your content in the first place. Your authenticity, thoughtfulness and sincerity are positively refreshing, and everything this world needs. Keep doing what you're doing :D!
@@blakewentley WOOOOOOOO!! What a great conversation - awesome points!!!! You keep it up too! About to go have the best day possible ⚡️
Praise has always been hard for me to accept, too. I've often (half-jokingly) asked people to, "Now say something demeaning please" just so I can feel grounded again. But I'm trying to be more mindful of the self-deprecating voice and just thank people for their kind words. Speaking of which, thank you for chatting with us. You have a very kind and thoughtful air about you and I wish you all the best on your journey!
@@Caleb_Kirkland thanks for such thoughtful engagement with the video man. I really appreciate you sharing your experience because it’s… it’s a pretty special thing to relate to people right? And man what you said hits home for me too so hard hahahah. I physically cringe and want to run away at praise. But uh… so THANKS hhahaha. Thank you. 🙏 Wishing you the best on your journey too :)
Solid food for thought
I think there's something magical about improvising or letting something happen on the spot the first time. Then when doing it again it might not hit the same as the original time it was played (or sung). Something about not thinking too hard tends to allow things to flow beautifully. on a side note, good to see you post again. I hope you learn to not be so hard on yourself. You're doing great by being here already. I believe in you. everything in this world runs on belief, so go easy on yourself and allow the notes and songs to come out. No need to critique them.
@@nicosanchez_music you’re so right dude. Just finished another song in the garden because I was J CHILLIN. And so right about belief too, an interestingly synchronicitous comment haha. Have a good one 🌸
Grow the garden//stop chasing butterflies
Had me laughing at 1:10
Thank you to those that joined me in my live practice. You really made an impact on me. Here's to you 🍻
These videos will be so valuable to you in the future. And you never know whose life they'll touch, and who you'll remind that we're not in this alone. Keep doing what you're doing. It's all a process and it only gets better.