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Chicken pox ain't shit, but it sounded like a wise decision in order to keep it under control and have it on your terms... But would've been a lil better to keep him in the loop, ya know... If she's gonna get it one day, let's just get it done and out of the way, in my opinion it'd be best to at the very least keep the itching under control-for the most part that is, and that'll help against any scratch marks or pain...

As a selfkept quiet black male hypersexual homosexual person I can relate to everything you said it is the worst and I am so grateful for this video I'm not straight/heterosexual but I understand everything about this topic thank you so much for this breakthrough peace and blessings to you💯💎💗🙏

Was it a transition losing the goal of striving to get good grades in uni/college?

Ever feel capable of succeeding at something, but mentally you're not ready to go for it?

What's your morning routine?

Ever dread going to bed because you don't think you'll get up when your alarm goes off?

What are your creative outlets?

Do you feel like, to a certain extent, you were clinging on to your student identity after you graduated from uni/college?

Do you feel like nowadays social status is partly a function of how busy you are?

Did you have inflated standards after you graduated from uni/college?

Do you have pent up POSITIVE emotions lurking inside of you?

Have you learned about your current self by learning about your parents' past?

How did your high school experience affect your subsequent years?

How have your relationship needs changed over the years?

How do you express your love and gratitude towards your friends?

Did you feel lonely after you finished uni/college?

Do you ever find yourself held back by your fears of rejection?

How did you first job after school go/how is it going?

Do you find it easy to criticize past decisions since you now know the outcome of those decisions?

Do you feel like there are any specific gaps between your current self and your desired self?

What are some of the arbitrary deadlines that you've set for yourself after uni/college?

What are some things you compare yourself to others on?

What are some of the behaviour-outcome relationships that you feel fortunate for having?

What are some of the options that you're considering/did consider now that you are finished your undergrad?

Ever felt guilty for struggling mentally after uni/college?

What are some of your experiences with being too hard on yourself because you were/currently are, struggling after uni/college?

Hi all! My name is Brian, I am 27 and I graduated from McGill in 2013. During my undergrad I had no real reason to picture myself having to deal with mental health struggles, nor with mental health illnesses, once I was done school. I was getting good grades, had an amazing friend group, and I was confident in my ability to succeed after university. Simply put, I was very comfortable with my current identity - a student. When university ended, the resulting shock and abrupt change took me completely by surprise. I was not ready. Losing my lifelong identity as a student, losing the structure provided by attending university, losing the day-to-day proximity to my core group of friends, all combined with a whole new set of options, expectations, standards, deadlines (real and arbitrary), as well as a whole new set of ways to compare myself to others, resulted in me spending my next few years dealing with those mental health struggles that I had no real reason to picture myself having to deal with while I was attending McGill. 2016 was the peak. Two trips to the ER, psychologists, psychiatrists, anti-depressants, and a day-to-day life that was usually centered on trying to get out of bed. I was constantly in a debilitating internal debate between my emotions and my rationale. Whenever my emotions urged me to fully delve into and explore how I was feeling, my rationale would jump in and counter with things like, “toughen up, you got this, it’s just a phase, no one else is struggling as much as you, etc.” Picture the song Guilty Conscience by Eminem and Dr. Dre, but with Dre wanting me to explore my emotions and Slim telling me otherwise ("You know what, Dre. I don’t like your attitude.”) Eventually, my rationale ran out of excuses and I opened myself up to what I was going through (sorry, Slim). From there, I slowly committed myself to learning more and more about myself in the context of a recent university graduate. I wrote those last paragraphs with ease. However, the content in those paragraphs took me about 3 and a half years to become aware of and internalize. It is still uncomfortable to look back and realize that once upon a time I was struggling so much, and without any real concrete understanding as to why. UP x OUT x IT is my humble contribution to raising awareness about post-university mental health. The first series, POST-UNIVERSITY DEPRESSION, is 24 episodes in which I go into my experiences with transitioning out of university, as well as certain things from my past that contributed to my struggles. How has finishing university/college affected you?