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I am currently 32 weeks pregnant and until a couple of weeks ago I was feeling so happy, i didnt have any bad symptoms (its my first pregnancy) have been an wonderful pregnancy in terms of my physical health...However this last trimester have been really hard for my mental health. I am having a hard time to accept my body (and I didnt even gain so much weight) but I always was the type of person that cares a lot about my looks (I know it sounds superficial but it is how I feel) just the silly fact that I have a big belly now, makes me feel ashamed to go out, I dont want other people look at me, I feel like nothing that I wear right now looks good and I just feel like ridiculous with the clothes I wear. Also, I lost apetite, I cant enjoy eating like before, I feel like I am just wasting my time because I am not doing anything interesting or useful right now, specially because I feel limited by this last trimester which I feel tired, uncomfortable with my body and not excited about anything....I dont want to see anybody now and I know I need to wait just 2 more months, but it feels like forever. AND then I have a lot of anxiety about my due date, I am so scared that it will hurt... (sorry my english, not english speaker hehe)

Beautiful! Me and my husband don’t even have a home yet we live with a family member because we are in so much debt. but we are growing to get out!

The rage is definitely me! I went home to visit family for two weeks, and I was so irritated and sleep deprived. I feel bad for all the mean things I said about my family. I live 2000 miles away and I live in a boring lonely town. This is my first pregnancy and I am not excited at all. On top of these doctors wanting all these stupid azz genetic tests!

Hey!! Your video popped up on my TH-cam. I recognize you somehow! You look so familiar! Where are you from? I feel like we went to school together. My name is a Brittney.

Thanks for having the courage to share this. Your video has made a difference in my life and I just want thank you for this ❤

I keep trying to tell people like my mom or husband my older kids. Like I’m not ok, I’m so tired, I don’t want to leave my room, I’m irritated, I’m emotional. But they don’t hear me. I’ve been trying not to get on meds. I stopped taking meds for depression and anxiety when I learned I was pregnant. I’m 18 weeks, and this is baby number 6.

I can’t even put into sentences what I feel. But i just broke down listening to you because the worst feeling is summer just passing by and im just in bed and my kids are eating cereal twice a day and snacks and running around in the yard with friends. Their hair is a mess and I just feel like a failure.

I know this is 3 years old, but I’m glad I came across your video. I’m 18 weeks pregnant, it’s been very hard, I’ve been going through the same, I have a 4 year old daughter and I’m pregnant with twins. Sometimes I can get very stressed because my daughter doesn’t listen, so I have to scream at her , I do not spank her either, and my husband thinks she doesn’t listen because I don’t spank her 😭 but I was mistreated as a child and I can not spank my daughter. I’m very depressed too. I cry a lot . I pray every day. I know God can handle our stress and anxieties. I don’t want this to affect my babies 😭😭😭 Lord I pray for you to put peace in my mind and heart ❤️ so I let this anxiety and stress in your hands. Thank you for your video. God bless you 🙏🏽

I have similar feelings :( mixed feelings guilt, anxiety, stress..fear

Can someone offer me a little advice? I'm 60 years old. I was an avid reader of great literature and 20th century American short stories. I would collect books faster than I could read them, hoping I could read them when i had "more time". They're in bins and on shelves and honestly i just want to focus on my Orthodox Study Bible now and my other religious books. I don't have much free time because I also take care of pets and an elderly parent in addition to my own family. I feel fiction is a distraction from that. My dilemma is, should I donate the books or is it better to discard them so I don't encourage others to lose their focus on Christ?

Amen! Thank you for posting this and i praise God for it!

Just came across this video and I’m feeling the same way. I am pregnant with my 4th baby, and it’s my first boy... and I feel so much rage, or I’m crying about everything. Extremely tired, and constantly snapping at my girls and feeling like I don’t want them to touch me. Then I’m hard on my husband who works so hard for our family. I feel like a failure and a horrible mom. I was saved a few years ago, and constantly fail by not turning all my troubles and feelings to The Lord.

I am 9 weeks pregnant and going through something I can’t explain. Constant crying and my body feels different to me. A feeling of emptiness and worrying will this result in a miscarriage or I might have miscarried and will come to know about it on my first scan. This overwhelming feeling is eating me from inside. I can’t share it with my parents as I cant see them stressed about me. They live in a different country so no point in stressing them out. My husband wanted me to abort the baby because he thinks I don’t deserve to be a mother. And today he said this baby is only mine and he wants a separation. The reason is me, I keep asking him to be with me, I don’t like eating most of the stuff, fatigue makes me not wanting to cook. He can’t keep cooking for me, he gets tired too. Its so easy for men to say this baby has nothing to do with them whereas a mother cant even imagine to say this

Going through the same thing. This video was beautiful and you’re so brave. You helped many of us ❤ - first time mom

Thank you for this video. I’m wary of topics of religion dealing with anxiety but you made such a safe space. Thank you and I hope you’re feeling better.

I'm so glad for the brave face you've been able to put on to talk about this. When I was pregnant in the mid eighties and early nineties neither postpartum, nor neonatal depression, was EVER talked about in light of it being both a hormonal imbalance and as treatable. It rather was looked at as shameful and something that you as a mom was doing wrong. Throughout my pregnancies, except for the second trimester, when estrogen is much higher and progesterone lower, I suffered horrible, dark depression. I then suffered postpartum for over a yr following the birth of my babies. The intrusive, irrational thoughts that setup head space in my mind and took over night and day literally drove me to suicidal thoughts. While I knew the love I had love for my babies, I felt like the world's most terrible mother for being unable to bond with them, or have those warm fuzzies I seen my friends displaying. It was not until I started into menopause yrs and yrs later and was losing estrogen at a higher ratio then progesterone that the same type of depression resurfaced. By then the worldwide was at our fingertips. It was not until my research lead me to the topic of depression during menopause being connected to both neonatal and postpartum, that I stumbled across the unbelievable body of work by Dr Elizabeth Vliet. This then lead me to an OUTSTANDING functional medicine doctor who ordered an entire battery of blood test that no traditional ob/gyn physician would even know about, much less order when looking into the well being of their patients. At the end of the day, I was one of the fifteen percent of the female population that is highly sensitive to the psychiatric implications of progesterone causing moderate to severe depression. The only way of countering it is to block it all together, or make sure estrogen is substantially higher than your progesterone level. So while this is not possible during pregnancy because of the fine dance that needs to take place between hormone levels to grow a new little human, postpartum depression can often be treated with a single, or a series of estrogen injections. The goal being to keep your levels high until your body's own ability to regulate it kicks in. Often after birth, estrogen production, at least in a population of some women, is slow to return, hence more episodes of postpartum depression, or when severe enough, postpartum psychosis. Now here at age fifty-six and in menopause, my physician has me setup on a cycle of three months of continuous estrogen hormone replacement, followed by twelve days of progesterone/estrogen therapy combined, so I'll have a quarterly menstrual bleed. She's assured me that research has shown having a cycle every three months is sufficient to keep any overgrowth of cells within the uterus. We of course confirm this with bi yearly pap smears. The estrogen she adds in during my progesterone therapy, buffers and helps keep the unwanted side effects from being severe. While I still may feel a little blue during this time, it compares nothing to when when my body and mind are exposed to progesterone alone. It's been a real. God send.🙏💞

I really appreciate this video. Thank you 🖤 I can’t thank you enough for sharing the irritability aspect with your son and the dogs. Exactly what is happening to me right now. And the guilt. And the concern about what type of environment the baby is growing in and the guilt about not making nutritious meals. It’s like you read a script out of my head. Thank you 🙏🏼🖤

I’ve been itching to declutter since my husband and I have downsized to a duplex. My faith also inspired me to reevaluate how I shop, (food waste, thrifting, donating, etc.) Home decor is my biggest problem! I want our home to look nice but I’ve actually made it more cluttered instead. 🙃 I would add on to strictly shop at thrift stores and if an item isn’t there-oh well, you likely don’t need it! It’s a discipline! I enjoy thrift stores with a purpose too, I shop and donate to Hospice of the East Bay. We need to remember scripture always- “But the day when the Lord comes again will surprise everyone like the coming of a thief. The sky will disappear with a loud noise. Everything in the sky will be destroyed with fire. And the earth and everything in it will be burned up.” 2 Peter 3:10

Hi. Im 24 weeks. I struggled with anxiety, panic 2 years ago due to a bad relationship. I had got it under control. Over the past 2 weeks, Ive felt anxious, uncomfortable. Thoughts have been just racing. I haven’t even done my hair in a month. Its a process for sure.

Husband here: my wife is 12 weeks pregnant and it’s a complete mess. She is so angry, so mean, I can’t do anything right, she won’t touch me, she makes time for everything except me. She won’t go to church anymore. She is very mean. Like, incredibly mean. She makes me feel so useless and ugly, unwanted and unappreciated. Even though I pay for everything, work 60 hours a week, she never gives me praise for anything that I do. She won’t even make eye contact with me. She says “this is all your fault”….. I feel so unloved and like an outsider who just provides all the money and protection. I get no love in this house anymore

The fact that I’m pregnant and can’t smoke or drink or get out of the house makes me cry and makes me feel guilty because I should feel happy

I am 20 years old and I am 26 weeks pregnant with my first baby and I was feeling a little down today and came across your video.

i just found your page and i really needed to hear this. Thank you!

This is one of the only helpful and relatable videos on the internet about this topic. Thank you so much for posting. I feel less alone.

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I'm really struggling with perinatal anxiety and depression. 8 weeks before due date

Thank you for this video. I’m in my second trimester and dealing with anxiety mostly at night 😢

Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story. I feel so guilty for being in such a dark place. I relate to everything you’re saying. I’m scared of asking for SSRIs but I don’t know if I have another option.

You news to talk to your husband and get help. The health providers told me it was normal. I had a misscarrage and went to a wemans clinic to help me because I was afraid of being sent home or not taken seriously. I got help with passing the baby. However, it cost me my marriage. You can't do this alone. Go get help. Tell people. This is a clinical problem that you will need help with.

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More people should realize is that having many material possessions will never make them happy.

Matthew 6:19-21 King James Version 19 Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal: 20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal: 21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.

How are you we never heard from you again. Are you and your baby safe?

Thank you for sharing. Your video has been a great source of comfort for me, especially as I'm currently 10 weeks pregnant and experiencing some anxiety. 😢 I truly appreciate your mention of seeking help from God, as I wholeheartedly believe that God always listens to our prayers and has the power to guide our lives. As a Muslim, your talk serves as a valuable reminder of where I should turn for support first. Thanks again.

From South Africa. We have load shedding nearly daily. Over the weekend now, we are having a break. Praise the Lord🎉We have a gas oven and hob and a generator which needs fixing right now. Here all the businesses rely heavily on generators. Most of the time we have water as our municipality has a generator for the pump. Sometimes the batteries get stolen. We have rechargeable bulbs and a battery to charge some emergency lights. The worst is the heat, fridges being off, no computer for homeschooling. So we have to have an adaptable schedule and old fashioned schooling too. The upside is it brings out creativity and the children started doing puzzles and playing monopoly and card games again. I also discovered how many chores you can do without electricity. Blessings.

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Thank you for this. I'm 17 weeks pregnant, cant sleep, lost appetite, i just find myself bursting into tears at different points of the day with silly triggers. I'm not a social person and my husband is clueless about my feelings. This just helped me see that it's not just me. I hope all the mamas out there are okay now.

Just stumbled across this; the minimalism 2 years later still going well?

Washington state Christ follower also ❤ trying to get this minimalism journey going. Ive already started but I hit a road block... its hard for me to get rid of sentimental items... I'm trying so hard

I love declare and decrea but is there something I'm suppose to uproot. Part of my hoarding was a weird security blanket.temp,tool that doesn't work so well

It's so lonely. I am 9 weeks pregnant and not thrilled about it. I feel guilty about it! My family is definitely paying a price too. I am not enough for them right now and that hurts

I appreciate that you mentioned rage, it was definitely something that I hadn't dealt with in the level that I've had recently. I have a teenager and I don't really snap at him but with my husband and more so outside external things; like my doctors, my neighbors who keep burning incense and practically suffocating us to death, my cat meowing at night or banging on his crate, or eating stuff off the floor, or if we order out- food that isn't cooked right and strange things will just trigger me and I think it's because I can't control those outside factors. There are things I can do, but am limited in a lot of ways. It's something I've been praying for God to help me with.

This video is 2 years old but it helped me feel a little better. I have had the worst anxiety this pregnancy and I'm only around 15weeks along but I feel it has amplified every day. My pregnancy began very traumatically, I was having fainting episodes around 4-5weeks , dizziness, shortness of breath, went to the E.R several times within the span of like a week or two and then I went to the obgyn who confirmed I had a sub chorionic hematoma (I had bleeding) and a cyst, the doctors & ultrasound techs were absolutely negligent and horrible (only making my anxiety worse). I remember during my subchorionic hematoma, I went to the ER, they let me sit there bleeding, for Hours in the ER then, they sent me to do an ultrasound, the ultrasound tech shoved the intravaginal ultrasound up so hard that I cried, when she pulled out the wand there was so much blood, she was also extremely rough and I asked her if she was almost done to which she gave me a cold tone "Do you want me to stop? or do you want me to get the pictures done that they need?". Not only was I going through a miscarriage scare, I had to deal with abusive tech's. Then from weeks 6-9 I had EXTREME nausea (hypermisis gravidarium levels), I couldn't eat or drink that well, my eyes kept rolling in the back of my head, I had chills, weakness, my husband was taking care of me and had to walk me to restroom and shower... and my doctors were just telling me "take tylenol you'll be fine", so I did that... I took tylenol when I couldn't withstand the pain anymore and then ? I had an allergic reaction to the Tylenol. When I went back to my ob/gyn instead of being comforting or understanding she said "You need to stop going to the E.R" (I was only going because that is what the nurses and doctors were telling me "if your symptoms get worse go to the ER" also fainting is not okay and my condition was really bad, but I was too weak to argue.) Finally around 13 weeks I began to feel a little better, got my energy back but since then... I've been processing all of the traumatic events and trying to work through my feelings. Now they are testing me for all kinds of genetic abnormalities and I am seeing a high risk ob/gyn. It has been difficult and I feel like a lab rat rather than an expecting mother. I have had so many vials of blood taken in the past few months alone... and I have to face the circumstances of uncertainty in the future (possible pre term labor, health issues, baby's health). And also deal with life... it's been a difficult journey and I'm glad that I'm not the only who dealt with anxiety while pregnant <3 So Thank you!

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Hey girl! I hope you and your new baby are doing amazing and that you and your family are safe and healthy. Ill be praying for you! Jesus loves you ❤️

I'm from Washington, and also a christian too! This was super inspiring and motivating, thank you :D

Today I know that I had depression during pregnancy and after At the time no one noticed until my second child was 5 months and a doctor asked for more testing My depression means low energy, strong body ache and trouble sleeping Looking from the outside no one notice that I was suffering so much, and I just felt like getting it through hour by hour, day by day … My pastor at the time told me that I present myself too well that’s why people couldn’t understand that I was falling apart for 4 years Then after getting sick too frequently one doctor spot my sintomas then I started looking to get help Still people don’t understand . How can I be depressed with two gorgeous kids My greater help come more from my church and doctors than family and friends A wonderful pastor helped me for 10 years to deal, to understand my depression, and mental disorder SEEK professional HELP, family can have a good heart but at some point profession counseling is best Church can be an heaven when we are “alone” and struggling

I am prego and dont want to be Im not happy about it I cant stop it My husband is doing his best keeping me happy but its failing. I just want it to end. No one talks about this, its bringing up old ptsd with my childhood abuse ive faced with my parents. All of it is so overwhelming

Lost my father this year and now my parents moved away from the city me and my husband lives. I am 9 weeks pregnant and i am losing it i feel like i will fuck up my relationship due to constant crying and severe anxiety.