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My 20s | constant up & downs, no longer numb, feeling emotions again
The process of making new habits and new thought patterns is a difficult one. Old ways wants to take hold and keeps popping back up because it’s something I’m used to and frankly was the “easier” choice. But I know I’m making better changes overall as recently I’ve been feeling emotions (finally) and actually letting myself feel them instead of trying push and ignore them.
Voice memo recorded February 17 2021
Diary Entry 6 | Documenting my life
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“Dear Diary” series is me sharing the thoughts and current state I’m at because many times I wish I heard peoples life stories and thought processes of not just the “success” (however you define it) but their whole story. It helps to know when others are going through the same thoughts as me and I’ve wanted someone to share them, and I thought why not be that person for people who have these thoughts like me.
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About Me:
Lost in this journey called life. Was once afraid to be lost but decided to embrace the excitement of the unknown and find my own path at my own pace. Here I document my life (I try to document the highs as well as lows), sharing my thoughts, and experience.
So basically my channel is a journal.
I post somewhat weekly or monthly or quarterly (?) basically when I feel like it 😅
มุมมอง: 41

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My 20s | when your family are negative people & trying to not tie ego to job title
มุมมอง 42ปีที่แล้ว
0:06 - 2:33 As I change my thoughts patterns I realize that the people around me have negative thought patterns 2:34 - 4:43 going after what you want and trying not to tie self worth to a title or label I was very tired in this recording hence why things weren't the most coherent and well spoken entry lol Voice memo recorded January 24 2021, Pt2 Diary entry 5 | Documenting my life “Dear Diary” ...
My 20s | unmotivated again, taking forever to act, commitment issue, not a self help channel
มุมมอง 47ปีที่แล้ว
Finally took the steps and acted on my ideas by opening up accounts but I’m feeling unmotivated again. Reason why it takes me forever to start and act on something is becaae i end up getting stuck in a mever ending cycle. Realizing I have commitment issues and why im not a self help channel. Voice memo recorded January 24, 2021, Pt 1 Diary entry 4 | Documenting my life “Dear Diary” series is me...
My 20s | in a better mental space, taking action, i think i changed my thought patterns
มุมมอง 28ปีที่แล้ว
Recorded a month after I made the decision to finally work towards changing my mentality. After making the decision it has helped me get out of the rut I was stuck in for 2 years. Editing this in the future, I smile and at the same time laughed, you’ll understand as more voice recordings come out. Stay tuned ;) Voice memo recorded January 16, 2021 Diary entry 3 | Documenting my life “Dear Diary...
My 20s | dealing with life first, a lot of thinking (as usual) to try and start somewhere
มุมมอง 1492 ปีที่แล้ว
A recap of what I’ve been up to Voice memo recorded January 1st, 2021 Diary entry 2 | Documenting my life “Dear Diary” series is me sharing the thoughts and current state I’m at because many times I wish I heard peoples life stories and thought processes of not just the “success” (however you define it) but their whole story. It helps to know when others are going through the same thoughts as m...
My 20s | fear of success, keeping an unrealistic image, vulnerability
มุมมอง 512 ปีที่แล้ว
Fear of not only failure but also success. Trying to keep up an image of "having it together". I cringe hearing myself, but this was/is me being very open and vulnerable to my deeper thoughts. Voice Recording December 19 2020 2:30am Diary entry 1 | Documenting my life This recording was what gave me the idea to start the “Dear Diary” series “Dear Diary” series is just me sharing the thoughts an...
Dear Diary My 20s | Trailer
มุมมอง 492 ปีที่แล้ว
Hi, it’s been a long time since I have uploaded. I’ve missed creating and have been working on this project here and there but never had the courage to upload. Reasons being, it’s been so long but also whenever I edited here and there, I was reminded again with how fragile/shallow my roots were (and probably still are) just when I think I'm doing good I fell into old habits. But I remind myself...
To the DOE, From the "Smart Kid" 🤡 | Spoken Word Poetry
มุมมอง 2183 ปีที่แล้ว
When the Department of Education fails even the "smart" kids, who is the system for? DOE can represent other figures in your life as well Smart is in quotation, because yes school was easy for me, but just because my type of smart was ideal in a school setting doesn't mean its the only type of smart, nor does it mean I'm actually "smart" Follow Me: 💕 th-cam.com/channels/HlkUCxof-YHk-1BC-VS8Pg.h...
For those who are *willing* to take that first step to change
มุมมอง 8293 ปีที่แล้ว
For the overthinkers, procrastinators, perfectionist For those who blame everything on lack of motivation, laziness, and situation For those who watch "motivational" videos and don't do anything (and actually started hating motivational speakers and motivational videos) For those who never act on what they want For those who feel lost and left behind in life For those who are afraid For those w...
20s be like #Existential 😂💀 | My Millennial & Gen Z thoughts in TikToks
มุมมอง 2553 ปีที่แล้ว
Confused af "zillennial", from entering college confused, graduating confused, post-graduate life being confusing, settling for a job and hating it, being unemployed feeling discouraged and wanting to avoid the rat race..... yeah basically a timeline of thoughts and 20s life so far being just a big ball of confusing "I don't want to die, but I don't want to do this either" this has been my mood...
Graduating with major I hate (update) | attempting at life again
มุมมอง 5313 ปีที่แล้ว
Thoughts of a lost and unemployed post-graduate who just kinda stopped trying for a while, but this video is like an attempt to try at life again with my first step being starting YT again. College isn't for everyone and definitely wasn't for me, I fell into the "waiting place" as Dr. Seus calls it the "most useless place" after my last unemployment update and haven't been doing anything to fur...
Social Distancing 6ft apart 📏 See your friends safely 😷
มุมมอง 1244 ปีที่แล้ว
It's best to stay inside but if you're starting to go a little insane staying home all day, just some ideas of what you might be able to do if you want to see your friends during this coronavirus pandemic. I'm honestly a homebody but even for me this quarantine was getting a bit tough, but of course, if where you live it's really bad please do stay home and follow your country/state rules, and ...
Month in my Life on Hawaii Vlog 🏖️| beach bummin, shopping, poke bowl etc
มุมมอง 2555 ปีที่แล้ว
Summer days in my life living in Hawaii. It's summer vacation which means beach and going out more than usual lol (basically what I did when I said I "chilled" in the video before this one). Over the summer I usually go to the beach at least once a week, because the water just feels better when the weather is sweltering hot lol. Also, I finally got a tripod so I had fun editing this as I did tr...
No job after college for 6+ months | failing to move after college (strict parents)
มุมมอง 7475 ปีที่แล้ว
Life update of why I've been unemployed after college for 6 months... At one point or another, I will have to make a decision if it's my happiness or my parents. Hopefully, I can try to find a compromise without so much fighting. Anyways, I don't have much advice about post-graduation unemployment since I'm still dealing with unemployment as well, but something someone told me is to just get a ...
a non touristy Korea Vlog | off the beaten path of Korea
มุมมอง 9295 ปีที่แล้ว
Last vlog in my Korea vlog series. Literally just followed my mom's friend (local Korean) around from Seoul to the outskirt of Daejeon near the countryside of Geumsan (yeah idk where I actually was). It's a non-touristy chill vlog with a touch of traditional Korea (traditional Korean food staying at a traditional style home). Hope you enjoy! Places in the vlog - restaurant/ cafe with the garden...
Shopping Malls in Honolulu | Hawaii Shopping Intro
มุมมอง 3565 ปีที่แล้ว
Shopping Malls in Honolulu | Hawaii Shopping Intro
Wise Words from Dr Seuss | Real talk about life after HS & College and Life's Ups and Downs
มุมมอง 1115 ปีที่แล้ว
Wise Words from Dr Seuss | Real talk about life after HS & College and Life's Ups and Downs
Week in a life of an unemployed post grad who pretends life's good 😅 | Chill Vlog
มุมมอง 1735 ปีที่แล้ว
Week in a life of an unemployed post grad who pretends life's good 😅 | Chill Vlog
Enjoying the last moments of 2018 | koolau farmers, picnic in the park, sunset, making summer rolls
มุมมอง 1275 ปีที่แล้ว
Enjoying the last moments of 2018 | koolau farmers, picnic in the park, sunset, making summer rolls
Last Week of College 🎓🌺 | Graduating from University of Hawaii at Manoa
มุมมอง 1.5K5 ปีที่แล้ว
Last Week of College 🎓🌺 | Graduating from University of Hawaii at Manoa
Thank You | Waikiki Sunset on the Beach Timelapse
มุมมอง 335 ปีที่แล้ว
Thank You | Waikiki Sunset on the Beach Timelapse
Makapu'u Tide pools💦 | Thanksgiving Weekend in Hawai'i✌
มุมมอง 1215 ปีที่แล้ว
Makapu'u Tide pools💦 | Thanksgiving Weekend in Hawai'i✌
Graduating with a Major I Hate | College Senior Anxiety
มุมมอง 12K5 ปีที่แล้ว
Graduating with a Major I Hate | College Senior Anxiety
Art District of Honolulu 🎨 | Kaka'ako Mural Paintings 🖌
มุมมอง 2395 ปีที่แล้ว
Art District of Honolulu 🎨 | Kaka'ako Mural Paintings 🖌
Been told I was strong and yet I also fell into depression
มุมมอง 1185 ปีที่แล้ว
Been told I was strong and yet I also fell into depression
University of Hawaii at Manoa | A Month in a Life of a College Student learning about set design
มุมมอง 1.3K5 ปีที่แล้ว
University of Hawaii at Manoa | A Month in a Life of a College Student learning about set design
Giving Up on Dreams | Advice To My Younger Self
มุมมอง 2285 ปีที่แล้ว
Giving Up on Dreams | Advice To My Younger Self
First Day of School | UH Mānoa (My First Video)
มุมมอง 3.3K6 ปีที่แล้ว
First Day of School | UH Mānoa (My First Video)

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  • @eggxecution
    @eggxecution 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    nice

  • @thatlittlelight2420
    @thatlittlelight2420 ปีที่แล้ว

    Same boat. I just graduated last month with a bachelors in biochem and knew i wanted to do art instead. But i didnt think it was lucrative and people around me said that too so here i am. I finally took an art class in my last semester and felt at home. So now im going to chase that.

  • @ChooseLoveToday316
    @ChooseLoveToday316 ปีที่แล้ว

    "The system failed a lot of us." Nailed it. My advice is love yourself and act to do the best for yourself. I relate with every word you are saying.

  • @Ara-fg3er
    @Ara-fg3er ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm freshman now and senior in my major make me have anxiety. It makes me hate my major.

  • @LostButFoundDiaries
    @LostButFoundDiaries ปีที่แล้ว

    Check out my "Dear Diary" series th-cam.com/play/PL-m_NtGGtzm5sF-XjGJjUwfWhAh_u-2Wh.html

  • @jakegomez8279
    @jakegomez8279 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm in a situation where everyday I feel a deep regrets for swifting into a course only to hate it. I'm in my second year and I'm planning to shift to CS. Should I? Need help

  • @soda_1017
    @soda_1017 ปีที่แล้ว

    Literally cried watching the latter part🥲 I should have searched for this video earlier, so that I won’t be trapped in the same major as a graduate student now. I feel you so much about how you don’t want to give it up considering how much money and effort spent… We all deserve a life doing we love! It’s okay to be unconventional!

  • @jashannon
    @jashannon ปีที่แล้ว

    My daughter is going through the same thing and I mentioned the same thing to her but I also mentioned to her that many of the masters degree programs do not require a bachelor's in the same major. So if you have an inclination for a different major that would be a better choice find out what the requirements are for that master's degree program because oftentimes you can get in with any bachelor's degree you might have to take one or two prerequisite classes. and there is teaching, which for elementary school requires one or two standardized tests plus any bachelor's. or if the bachelor is in a middle or high school subject, only one standardized test and maybe two community College courses in health and computers. If you are not sure if you would like teaching I recommend being a substitute teacher after your bachelor's degree. that is a good part time job too because you can say no when they call you early morning to come in. in California you also need a standardized test and a background check. this will allow you to see what it's like being a teacher. even though managing kids can be more challenging as a sub as you probably know. And some schools the kids are more challenging regarding their behavior than other schools.

  • @Harmony12345
    @Harmony12345 ปีที่แล้ว

    If you ever need to talk, I’m here to listen

  • @Mwahaha105
    @Mwahaha105 ปีที่แล้ว

    The only thing I disagree with here is the claim that life isn’t a race. Everything else was spot on.

  • @chomosuke0720
    @chomosuke0720 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    There's something raw about the video presentation. It really feels like a sincere message that I don't find in many TH-cam videos similar to this. Great stuff! Made me feel a lot better about my journey as an unenthusiastic chemical engineering student.

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries ปีที่แล้ว

      I’m glad it helped :) Ty for your comment! I have a video series right now if you want to check it out👍

  • @palisades3401
    @palisades3401 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for this, really.

  • @JaniceCaparas
    @JaniceCaparas 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    ☺️

  • @Harmony12345
    @Harmony12345 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Keep doing what feels right for you ☺️

  • @Harmony12345
    @Harmony12345 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I completely I understand where you’re coming from, you’re not alone

  • @Harmony12345
    @Harmony12345 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    soo happy to see you back ☺️

  • @taylormcmillan9771
    @taylormcmillan9771 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    PЯӨMӨƧM

  • @sitifatimahharon3824
    @sitifatimahharon3824 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    To shop cosmetics and skin care....where..

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I don’t have recommendations but cosmetic and skincare shops are everywhere in Korea

  • @koteswarris8949
    @koteswarris8949 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Finally a video!! We missed you! Awesome video as always. I never really understood people who fear success though. Its so weird. I only fear failure.

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Ty🥺 and yeah I realized I would stop myself from success because of what may or may not happen after the success, which ultimately was again fear of failure

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@LostButFoundDiaries aw man, I'm so sorry about that. Try to get over the fear. You're not alone btw, a lot of my friends have this. Keep pushing girl! You got this! ✨ :)

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@koteswarris8949 thxs :) and your friends should watch my videos too x)

  • @genesisc3744
    @genesisc3744 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    too late for me...im looking for internships after graduation

  • @genesisc3744
    @genesisc3744 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    advice for anyone, take volunteering hours or community service in the degree you chose to study to know if it really is for you or go for what you are passionate for no matter how unrealistic it looks is for everyone, if you what you are passionate about, everything will fall into place.

  • @btsmochimi7924
    @btsmochimi7924 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Capitalism is so embedded in our social construction that it hurts aspiring creatives who want to live unconventionally😭

  • @fccoz8348
    @fccoz8348 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m 29 graduated about a year ago, worked at a big corporate company for the past 10 months and i hated it. Maybe the corporate world isn’t for me. I couldn’t be myself there, had to talk a certain way and act a certain way. Idk i felt trapped. Needless to say i quit and i feel bad and guilty. Help

    • @uluomu
      @uluomu 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I kind of feel you.. what are you doing now?

    • @fccoz8348
      @fccoz8348 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@uluomu helping with the family business

    • @uluomu
      @uluomu 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@fccoz8348 cool you get that opportunity

  • @atiayassmine1547
    @atiayassmine1547 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thnx alot for this video :'( im having a break down for choosing architecture. .. even after 4years i still feel worthless . But this vdo boosted my mood a bit

  • @Harmony12345
    @Harmony12345 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    It’s been over a year since you uploaded, I hope you will return back to TH-cam, you’re an amazing person

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I’m back, hopefully for awhile x) Tbh your comment pushed me to finally upload, kept reading it whenever I tried to talk myself to postponing uploading, Ty💛

    • @Harmony12345
      @Harmony12345 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@LostButFoundDiaries I’m soo happy your back, thank you for your kind words, I’m glad I could be of some help to you, you’re an amazing person ☺️

  • @trevorfranks69
    @trevorfranks69 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    i just want to be self-employed, I don't like working in offices but I don't like working with clients too.

  • @Harmony12345
    @Harmony12345 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hey we all miss you very much, I hope you’re doing well and hopefully you can come back, I’m in the similar situation as you and it feels good that there are people that are waking up to this toxic conditioning of the education system, it’s all about business for them

  • @alimog9347
    @alimog9347 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    That's meeee in so many ways, for now, i'll type this comment and i'll get back to it every now and then and make an update on my state. Right now i'm totally lost in so many ways, but i'm pretty sure that i'll start doing what i needed to do 5 years ago. It really hurts thinking of 5 lost years at the best stage of age, but as you said, fuck it, i think that the most important thing i learned from this tough experience is being the leader of my own life and not give compromises on my major life decisions according to what people think especially people close to me. I came to the realization that i'm the best who can understand me and what i really need. Even if tough, think of your journey as an adventure and this will ease things up and give u joy through challenges. ciao

    • @decalcomania6481
      @decalcomania6481 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Heyy 4 lost years here 😂 its okay everyone has their own pace and as they said in the video life is not a race ^^ dont give up and good luck

    • @alimog9347
      @alimog9347 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@decalcomania6481 thanks, yeah my year's resolution for now, is that life is not a race at all, i should be disciplined, i should work hard, but i should not panic or worry that i'm late or so.

    • @uluomu
      @uluomu 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Well guys.. almost 7 lost years for me 😅 I‘m in in the 12th semester of my law degree and got about 2-3 to go. I absolutely hate it I wish I had never done it and studied something I actually enjoy instead. What are you doing now?

    • @alimog9347
      @alimog9347 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@uluomu Yesterday i graduated with a mechanical engineering degree, i have so many frustrating emotions, during the 5 years i gave so much effort, homework, projects, exams, reports, lectures, begging Doctors, living alone, so many transportations and so much suffering, the shocking fact is that i was doing so without being happy and the worst without a goal of it without a destination, just with increasing self-hatred as years of studies were coming, with more depression, with more sadness and hopelessness, i don't know why exactly i continued doing what i was doing, i don't know why i immediately didn't stop this madness, what i know that for now, i am full of regrets, i was organizing the tons of papers, books, reports, copybooks i have in my home office, with tears all around, i'm seeing my huge effort done for no reason, i don't want to work with my degree, dor now i'm fucking stuck, all day in my room, don't know when and where the light of hope will leak into my room so i can hold it tight and pull my self out of my mind's hell.

  • @diegoalejandromalavermoren1679
    @diegoalejandromalavermoren1679 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm crying, I am in situation that I hate so much my degree is a education degree, i thought I could get through for 4 years but my anxiety and depression is killing me. I want to study a business degree, especially economics because I have always like the markets and trading and investments despite that in my country the stock market is nothing compared to the us, or European countries . If I change my parents and relatives would think that I am a disappointment. I don't know what to do. I always tried to get good grades, however I feel it's just a waste of effort for a degree I will not use it and is a worthless degree it isn't like medicine or a engineering that at least have good pay job, so much time wasted and I barely have 1 and half. The worst is that with my degree I couldn't apply for any job that at least I feel interest. I have to visit my shrink, for this kinda problem. Just I have to stay strong and endure as much as I can. You are not alone, well reading this comments I don't feel so bad at the moment.

    • @decalcomania6481
      @decalcomania6481 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Heyy i have the same problem and i came to the realisation that parents wont think you re a disappointement if you change your major. You just have to convince them and to make them realize you hate your current major. Good luck i hope you re gonna end up working in a field you like ❤

  • @zrjhjl
    @zrjhjl 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm just crying

  • @bebeyer_5130
    @bebeyer_5130 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I miss you

  • @futurespoon
    @futurespoon 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    this is really me right now :/ im in my second last year doing a business degree and I've known for awhile that I really don't like business as a whole but I didn't know what else I would rather study and I didn't want to take time off because of a combination of parental expectations, simply not wanting to, and not having the funds to go off for a year to "find myself". i even changed my major within business from accounting to operations management and every semester im just wondering what on earth I'm doing with my life. I haven't pursued internships or networking as much as I should have because of fear and now I'm about to finish up this degree with no relevant experience and I'm terrified. I always wanted to do art in high school but didn't even allow myself to consider it because I thought money would be enough to motivate me and it really isn't. Sometimes I think i could be okay with a typical 9-5 with an office and free lunches and whatever else the corporate life gives you and other times I think I would 100% waste away into a miserable depression if I did that. I want to work on my art again but everytime I sit down I can't bring myself to start or I feel like I should be working on schoolwork instead. I feel like an idiot because I could have hustled and gotten a well paying business job and be set for life but I always felt out of place and uncomfortable in that atmosphere and I find comfort in knowing there are others like me and others who don't work in the field they studied but it seems like such a far off future that I can't imagine what I will end up doing

    • @LULLYxoxo
      @LULLYxoxo 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      If you hate studying, you are human. You could use your knowledge of business to sell your art. You could also pursue a master’s in art history.

  • @yasenmutazalyas9530
    @yasenmutazalyas9530 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Congratulations! i hope this day come to me ASAP :)

  • @Allie83829
    @Allie83829 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have that problem, I’m studying a three year environmental chemistry job heavily based on the chemistry part and I HATE IT. Being put in a laboratory and being told to just mix chemicals is so scary. I actually got a anxiety and panic attacks because of laboratory (well I guess I have anxiety for much longer but never experienced panic attacks). I got them in the really early beginning of the school year/job studying. And since then I get all about 3-6monthes such a „mood“ like I actually really want to end this job studying and do something different. The idea is always there but never extremely present (more like, I know I don’t want that job but I need the thing to have finished it so that I can study something different with it(the fact that I finished it)). But actually it messes me up. I know I never want to work in a laboratory but 99% of the jobs are lab jobs. These panic attacks and stuff are horrible. Last year at the end in November I think. I had a really bad breakdown actually I had suicide thoughts and something like a eating disorder (I think I have light depression maybe but the eating disorder was new, even tho I know u can’t label it like that when it goes away in about a week again). But it felt so strange. I know this job doesn’t make me happy and never will. It makes my mental health bad. But everytime I think of quitting I’m like „but maybe there will be a interesting thing in the second year that I want to do“ Tho and I love my friends at school :(

    • @stellagyan541
      @stellagyan541 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hey how are you doing buddy?

  • @asgharj5893
    @asgharj5893 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    what did you major in?

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Ended up majoring in urban planning environmental focus

  • @LULLYxoxo
    @LULLYxoxo 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Don’t lose hope, you can always work outside of your field or pursue a graduate degree unrelated to your undergrad major. I know someone with a bachelor’s in IT who’s in a doctoral English program!

  • @Deryasvoice
    @Deryasvoice 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm sort of having a 2AM mental breakdown rn. I'm not a US student (I'm from Turkey where you have to score really high on a national exam to get into the program you want) and I'm studying English Language Teaching. The only reason I chose it, was because my exam score was fit for that program. My dream was always to study medicine, and I'm constantly thinking about how I regret not studying harder for the exam. It's not that I despise the thought of becoming a teacher, I would enjoy it and it pays well here compared to it's working hours, however I can't pull through the courses anymore. And each passing week, I hate my program more and more. In order to switch majors, I have to re-enter the national exam, however I have to study really hard (for a year) if I want to get into medicine, which is almost impossible with having to study for the exams of my current program too. I feel like I'm going insane trying to figure things out and I don't know what to do, I try to motivate myself into loving my program but it just gets worse and worse.

    • @decalcomania6481
      @decalcomania6481 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Heyy have you ever thought about going abroad to study? There are countries like romania and russia where medicine is not expensive and you dont need high scores to study it ^^ it could be a solution. Good luck you re gonna make it and everything is gonna be okay ❤

    • @uluomu
      @uluomu 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I feel you.. not with teaching and medicine, but I‘m stuck in a law degree I hate in my country

  • @connorcampbell6842
    @connorcampbell6842 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm currently in my Junior year of college and am feeling this anxiety. I entered college as a Civil Engineering major and have been studying it, but during Covid with all my classes being online I started to fall behind and underperform in my classes. Now that we are back in person and the classes are more centered on my major, I am realizing how much I truly despise it. I feel trapped in my major since I don't know what else I want to pursue and I feel as though it is too late for me to be undeclared. I am truly STUCK. I want to get a degree in a field of interest for me but I don't know what that is and I don't know how to find out what that is. If anyone has advice for me, please leave a reply. This video was comforting though since it did remind me that I can still find a career I enjoy after college, but I'm not quite at the point in my college education yet where my degree is right around the corner so I am hoping to find a major that I enjoy before it is truly too late.

    • @mochamp4353
      @mochamp4353 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      THIS right here is what a lot of engineering students I know are also going thru (self included)

    • @xr3xd49
      @xr3xd49 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hello, I read your comment and your story is similar to mine, but I studied online, majoring in information engineering, but with the passage of time I felt that I did not belong to this major. I like the English language major, but for some circumstance, I did not join this major while I was in my first year and I feel depressed and anxious. I hate this major. What do I do? I'm wasting five years of my life on something I don't like

    • @dumbgenious1960
      @dumbgenious1960 ปีที่แล้ว

      Me exactly but in software engineering. I’m bored and I hate it, I’m desperate to change but I just don’t know what to change to.

  • @Nehaprathap
    @Nehaprathap 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have to go 3 more years to get out of this hole.. At least you're out of this

  • @kaamyyyl
    @kaamyyyl 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    thank you for this <3

  • @jasmin-px8yl
    @jasmin-px8yl 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Woah this actually helped .

  • @Asmr-collection201
    @Asmr-collection201 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    14

  • @koteswarris8949
    @koteswarris8949 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Which software do you use for editing your videos ? Thanks.

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I used Hitfilm or Davinci resolve (both are free and pretty similar)

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@LostButFoundDiaries thanks. How are you doing btw? Is everything ok now? Hope you're doing good and everything worked out well for you! Take care 💕

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@koteswarris8949 I’m currently well, but took a lot to mentally be here, it’s ups and downs haha

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@LostButFoundDiaries Damn...going through something similar in my life too. Thank you being vulnerable and posting about it online. It makes people like me feel less alone. Take care of yourself :) 💕

  • @cameronmilan1467
    @cameronmilan1467 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    What was your major if you don’t mind me asking? I just recently graduated with my degree in English literature. I really enjoyed my major, but there’s some part of me that wishes that I studied something else. I’m currently working part-time as an ESL tutor for a local English language school, but I feel like I should be working full-time in something else for whatever reason. I live on Guam, so I feel you when it comes to lack of opportunity on my island (especially when it comes to my degree LOL). I wish you the best of luck in your future endeavors!! :)

    • @LostButFoundDiaries
      @LostButFoundDiaries 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I ended up majored in Urban Planning (environmental focus) but I knew it wasn’t something I wanted to pursue. And thank you :) best luck to you too~

  • @koteswarris8949
    @koteswarris8949 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    When she said - "I became my own foe" I felt that... 😭

  • @christinamartinez1503
    @christinamartinez1503 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I only have two more classes left for my degree program and I feel like I want to switch but I’m freaking out feeling like I wasted all this time. This helps a lot though.

  • @neerashinimelisa9620
    @neerashinimelisa9620 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I love u

  • @devitorizqi3642
    @devitorizqi3642 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Any tips to loosen up this stress mates? 😁

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      😭😭😭it's been 3 months I am still stuck in the rut !!!

    • @devitorizqi3642
      @devitorizqi3642 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Koteswarri S Bcom what major breuh?

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@devitorizqi3642 um..so basically I am doing a bachelor's in Commerce, and on the side my parents want me to do CMA(Cost and Management Accounting). But...I just realised that I hate accounting. I am a very creative person. Things like, interior designing, music production, singing, designing, etc, are what I am passionate about. The above mentioned activities makes me forget to pee, drink, eat etc...like...I can do them all day if I have to. I also love Business, so...I am still kinda figuring out how to integrate my passion with business. But like...I am really scared to tell my parents this, because all they care about is money, so...they won't really understand the idea of passion. I don't know what to do 😭 I come from a middle class family. We live paycheck to paycheck every month. So...I also have the pressure to start earning money as soon as possible(I just don't wanna be a burden to my family).

  • @elisamondragon2849
    @elisamondragon2849 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    My parents were major assholes in not letting change my major. Any parent with two brain cells would love for their kid to left communication sciences, right? I was only 21 when I told those morons I needed to left that major for superficial people. 💔💔💔💔 I can't wait to die.

  • @cheesypretzel5416
    @cheesypretzel5416 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just found this video and it gives me lot of comfort. I'm in my first year of international relations study. IR is my own choice, I like the lesson but I just don't see myself doing IR stuff related in the next 4 years. It confuses me whether I chose the wrong major or I haven't tried hard enough. Anyway thanks for the insight!!

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same here. I dropped out of college thinking that i wanted to become a CMA(Cost and Management Accountant). But...now I don't really know if I like it. I don't know if Accounting is for me. I want to do FOREX TRADING, but again I am really scared thta I might not ending making a living out of it. Ahhh I am really scared and confused at the same time !!

    • @yoiiumoi6019
      @yoiiumoi6019 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@koteswarris8949 hi, I know your comment is a year old but wanted to know what you decided to do? I’m in a similar situation

    • @koteswarris8949
      @koteswarris8949 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@yoiiumoi6019 Hey hi! Yes, ofcourse, i can give you a life update. I am in a much much much much better place now. I have actually become profitable in forex trading, i slogged my ass off for a year. And also, i dropped.out of college, and I'm doing my cma course, which is also going very well. I struggled a lot, ngl, i had sever anxiety and depression to a point where, i would get panic attacks once a week. But thankfully i have amazing friends who helped me through my journey. Some gave me a shoulder to cry and vent, some gave me advice on what to do and some even helped me out by letting me borrow some money to fund my forex account. But, after a year, I'm glad to say, i don't suffer from depression and anxiety anymore, I turned 20 in August. I also got myself a part time job as a social media manager in a small business. Fortunately this company that i work for gives me flexile timings so that it wouldn't mess with my academics. My academics: I have to pass 8 papers in total, I'm studyinf to become a Cost and Management Accountant (CMA). I wrotr my first 4 paoers in July, but unfortunately couldnt pass it, i lost 11 marks 🙃 which very frustrating, but at the same time i boosted my confidence because i honestly thought i wouldnt get anywhere close to passing mark. I will be rewriting these 4 papers next year. Right now I'm focusing on the next 4 papers, which i have an exam in the month of January...so...yeah so far so good. REGARDING FOREX: I am profitable only in demo, but once i trade live, my lose trades because i let fear take over. I am working on the psychological aspect of trading rn, like controlling emotions and fear and all that stuff. Heyy whatever you're going through, its gonna be ok. Its gonna be hard, both emotionally and physically. But you gotta push through. Trust me, once you get through that phase, life i beautiful. Take care ❣️