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Brooke Walker
United States
เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 9 ส.ค. 2016
When the Lies Become Too Much: Losing a Marriage to Cult Control
In this heart-wrenching episode of How to Leave a Cult, I share the unraveling of my marriage amidst the powerful grip of cult influence. After the birth of our second child, my husband told me he couldn’t bear the people in the group anymore and decided to leave. I reflect on the pain of this loss, amplified by cult members’ gaslighting-insisting that he was a liar and had never truly loved me. Together, we’ll examine how cults use manipulation to isolate us from genuine love and support, and how I began to piece my life back together while facing profound betrayal and grief. This episode offers insight into the harsh realities of escaping cult influence, even in the deepest parts of personal relationships.
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Unlearning Venom: Healing Cult Trauma Through Gratitude
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In this episode of How to Leave a Cult, I take you inside the intense and often toxic dynamics of life as a young couple in the cult. From attending trance circles and processes to learning the cult's harsh, down-and-dirty communication methods, I share how venomous words became a way of life. We explore the damage that such negative patterns can cause in relationships and personal well-being. ...
Healing Beyond the Surface: Cult Expectations, Trauma, and Recovery
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In this episode of How to Leave a Cult, we dive deep into how living under a cult’s control affects us long after we’ve left. We start by exploring the 80/20 iceberg theory, which reveals how explicit rules and hidden expectations from cult life shape our recovery from trauma. I share the emotional journey of my child's birth, where the pressure to meet cult standards-like having a home birth-l...
When Milestones Aren’t Yours: The Wedding and Baby Shower I Didn’t Plan
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In this deeply personal episode, I open up about two major life events-my wedding and baby shower-that were entirely decided for me. From the guest list to the location, nothing was truly mine. I share how these moments, which should have been joyful and celebratory, were orchestrated by the controlling hands of the group I was part of. Join me as I reflect on the emotional toll of having such ...
Returning to the Fold: David's Journey In and Out of Cult Life
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Returning to the Fold: David's Journey In and Out of Cult Life
Enforcing the Faith: How Cult Teachings Made Me Controlling
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Enforcing the Faith: How Cult Teachings Made Me Controlling
Shame and Submission: Life in My Cult-Arranged Relationship
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Shame and Submission: Life in My Cult-Arranged Relationship
Dictated Destiny: My Arranged Cult Marriage
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Dictated Destiny: My Arranged Cult Marriage
Behind Closed Doors: My Life in a Cult at 16
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Behind Closed Doors: My Life in a Cult at 16
Hidden in Plain Sight - Defining Cults and The Tactics they Use
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Hidden in Plain Sight - Defining Cults and The Tactics they Use
Lawsuits Galore: The Cult's Legal Onslaught Unveiled
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Lawsuits Galore: The Cult's Legal Onslaught Unveiled
Echoes of Waco: Rumors, Threats, and Protective Measures in Cult Communities
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Echoes of Waco: Rumors, Threats, and Protective Measures in Cult Communities
Forced Friendships, Pot Fallout, and Learning to Lie: Navigating Cult Dynamics
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Forced Friendships, Pot Fallout, and Learning to Lie: Navigating Cult Dynamics
From Junior High to Cult "Service": My Journey through Rumors and Legal Realities
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From Junior High to Cult "Service": My Journey through Rumors and Legal Realities
School, Sexual Promiscuity, Religious Purity, and Relationships in Light of Church Expectations
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School, Sexual Promiscuity, Religious Purity, and Relationships in Light of Church Expectations
Beyond the Cult: Navigating Relationships After Leaving
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Beyond the Cult: Navigating Relationships After Leaving
Cult Redefines Sibling Relationships and other WTF
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Cult Redefines Sibling Relationships and other WTF
Speaking to the dead, and cruel practices toward the living.
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Speaking to the dead, and cruel practices toward the living.
Strategies for Sustainable Success: Stress Management Essentials CLE
มุมมอง 11ปีที่แล้ว
Strategies for Sustainable Success: Stress Management Essentials CLE
5 Ways to push past your comfort zone, to grow both personally and professionally.
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5 Ways to push past your comfort zone, to grow both personally and professionally.
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You look like you vote Kamala 😂
You don't have to share all thoughts that come to your mind. Consider whether there is value in what you voice.
I’m gonna practice this every day. I think I’m pretty good about gratitude, but I’m going to make sure I’m on target sounds like a plan.
I’m gonna practice this every day. I think I’m pretty good about gratitude, but I’m going to make sure I’m on target sounds like a plan.
I always tell clients to see how you feel at the beginning and end. So if you do it for a month, what is different in a months time. This helped me to see how it was making an impact. I love the science but it had to move the needle for me:)
Sounds exactly like a Christian worldview All we need is Jesus
Not dumb, brainwashed from childhood
Yes, definitely:)
kamehameha better
A good idea (within limits). Unfortunately a lot of emotional damage is incurred without learning ways to “skillfully” express ourselves.
Many things were good idea in theory.
Thanks Brooke.
You are welcome:)
Wow pink you really let go
The IMRT pamphlet! Some of the principles can be useful as pointers-but look how they were abused when applied by Steven and Trina to manipulate and control everybody. At the time for those of us who believed Dr. Duran (the spirit guide) was essentially infallible (and by association the ministers) we bought the message tooth and nail. A few ideas are useful. But over all it caused a lot of problems in our relationships-both with one another and with friends. This notion that expression is patently a good thing is completely ridiculous. The skill of learning to hold our tongue and reflect when we’re emotionally charged is wisdom and maturity. Sensitivity to others feelings is a sign of maturity. The whole notion that anybody is infallible is wrong and potentially dangerous. This was our lesson🙏
Yeah they definitely got distorted.
@@brookewalker9118 And yet within a certain limited context each one could be helpful. It’s important to realize that even the best concepts are only pointers, and not ultimate truth.
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U are so beautiful!! I’m very excited for the next episode! Hv a great day💜💜💜
Its good, already recorded, but not out til next week! You Too
Hi Brooke ! Is there any links of the cult to the tree stumps burning or any of the burnings in the forest around to Tonto village? Thanks
@@i.g.6733 No, the only fires I was aware of around TV were controlled burnings by the forest service. The families that were part of the church were very respectful of the forest and fearful of fires that could burn down their homes. What burnings are you referring to??
Love this video girl!! Also thank u for the breathing techniques!💜
Thanks for the kind words! You are welcome!
Jeez-It must have been tough on your folks to have to have relinquished control or having any primary influence on your upbringing-
They were often told they made a mistake giving a child up for adoption. I think that made them doubt their parenting and they gave too much away.
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When will youv shut up😂
Just a tip as people will be discovering your videos at different stages in their FYP; going forward, you should give us some context at the beginning, recapping what you’ve been talking about in your past few episodes before you begin. That way we can decide if it’s an interesting enough story to stick around or not. Most people will not go back and start from the beginning of a podcast until they know what is being discussed.
Thats a great suggestion. Thank you for the feedback!
Weak.
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Another gem. Thank you Brooke!
Glad you enjoyed it!
Excellent!
Glad you liked it!
Thank you Brooke👍
You are so welcome!
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Brooke, did your other family members end up parting ways with the Church and getting a life, as well? I appreciate the work you’re doing here. As I mentioned in a previous comment, we also lived with the community briefly at the beginning in 1982, and then briefly again in the fall of 1989. Not an easy time🙏
We were there in 89, I was only 11 or so, if you ever want to chat I'd love to hear about your experience.
Fortunately my entire family is out and living wonderful lives. The church is not really in existence anymore.
I went through one of those processes. It was terribly traumatic and took some years to unravel it. Fortunately, friends helped us out. Blessings to you for bringing this out into the open.
Ugh...sorry. They used practices from EST and then there own special blend of abuse from what I understand. How did you find my podcast?
Beautiful!
Thank you!
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It’s so good this is coming out🙏
So many people have been hurt, time to help those avoid falling into and healing if they did.
Thank you for the beautiful work you are doing.🙏
So nice of you
Easy... open the door and walk out. You r pathetic
Literally the same thoughts I have had of myself. Let's break down why people don't leave. 1. I was raised in it...I didn't know what was outside of the hell I lived in was not worse and had been lied to for my entire life that it was. 2. I had no resources, no skills, no money, and no where to go, and since I worked in cult run businesses I didn't know anyone would hire me. I will make a video to explain more, thanks for commenting.
I left the Democratic party in 2016. I know the difficulty on leaving a cult.
The key is hearing points of view and making independent decisions.
listening to this has helped me so much, thank you for sharing your story.
I appreciate ur words girl😇
Thank you for speaking about this even though it’s hard. Also u look so good queen!!
Awe thanks! The goal is to help others with it all! It gives me the strength:)
My name was "Stevie" for the first few years of my life, named after you-know-who. I don't remember my time in the COIC cult, as we moved to Seattle in '89 after leaving the cult a year or 2 before (and changed my name to Travis- that birth certificate edit was a headache for decades until I finally got AZ to reissue me a fresh copy, Trina's signature still adorns it at the bottom) but the lasting effects have definitely left scars in my family. Discovering the details of some of my formative years has been a sad eye opener. My brothers are 6 and 8 years older than me (J was born in 78, S in '76), and a lot of their personalities make a lot of sense knowing some of the shit you guys went through. Lots of distrust and skepticism. Sadly we are not close, nor am I very close with my parents, J & S. I wonder often how much that distance is a result of the cult during my brothers childhood, and the damage it did to my parents (who divorced in '95). Im looking forward to listening to your podcast and hearing about your experiences and how you managed to get away and live your life as you want. Good on you for speaking out and Im so glad to know you got out and are able to move on and help others heal. Having some insight outside my family of origin's stories will be very interesting. Cheers, Travis H.
Hi Travis, Great name change BTW. You were not the last person named Stevie! I remember your family, mostly J, because we are the same age. We went to school together for a while before they left. Unfortunately, I also remember him getting teased quite a bit. I am not sure if we all had a lot of that, I know I did, but I remember he was as well. Since I started this podcast I am regularly reminded of the damage the Church of Immortal Consciousness caused. The ripple effects are very deep and far reaching. I really hope this does help you in some small way. We all deserve to find peace, joy, happiness and be surrounded by people that support and uplift us, and celebrate in our wins and hold us when we fall. Thank you so much for reaching out. When people left we were so gaslit about them being "bad" people so they were cut out like a cancer that never existed. Which was all BS. All members had to ostracize anyone who left. It was incredibly cruel. Thank you! Brooke
Amazing job 👏 it's always been interesting to me to hear about the earlier days. My generation didn't start showing up until a few years later.
Same. I was born into it in '84 (named Stevie after steven kamp until I was 4) so I only have the stories my family of origin have shared, as we left in '87(?) or '88. Oh, and the trauma, lots of that got spread around! -Travis
Thank you 🙏 Yes, things definitely changed over the years.
Our son was actually the first child born into the community in 1982. The community was just at the beginning. It wasn’t really in tune with us, so we left a few months later. As destiny would have it we reconnected with Steven and Trina in the late 80’s and moved back to Mesa, from Oregon, with our now two children. But the energy had changed drastically. It was like being in a Concentration Camp-the control, the manipulation, the hardcore processing. By Grace alone after only 4 months friends helped us leave. We had no money now. Our self esteem had been hammered hard-but we got through it. It was an extraordinarily powerful and painful learning- In one processing session after hours of horrendous accusations I told them to fuck off and bolted to leave. Steve Rensch and a couple other guys tackled me to the ground and started choking me. Just before passing out Steve released his grip. I stood up bruised, bleeding, and shocked. This was the beginning of the end. Sandra was complicit. It mattered not what Red Fox or Duran said to us or the community in subsequent trances. Our hearts and minds were turned off; inwardly I was focused on getting us home to Oregon. As we subsequently processed it over the years we took many valuable lessons away from the experience. We see it ultimately as a karmic thing-So in that sense we don’t live with blame. But this does not mean we condone their behavior-It was terribly misguided and abusive. That they themselves cannot cop to the fact that they ran a destructive cult does not bode well for their own healing, nor spiritual understanding (which they arrogantly prided themselves on).
I commend you on your transparency and being vulnerable for the sake of serving others. Thank you for this!
I appreciate you taking time to listen:)
❤❤ Love you, sis!
Love You!!!
Beautiful and brave....love you!
Thank You, Love you!
This is an amazing start, I'm excited to hear and learn more.
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Is that a question? Punctuation helps me know if your making a statement. It isn’t PROMOSM. If that is your question/accusation. Thanks for commenting 😀
I have deleted several comments that have been posted here because they will not be tolerated and are against my community guidelines. This is my page and I speak about negative religious environments. I also help people share their stories. I do not allow attacks toward the people who share their vulnerability and come out about the group they left. Specifically from members who are still in the congregation in which they left. Go pray for them in your own home and stop throwing hate and shade. If you have comments that are respectful...they will not be deleted.
Thank you!
Kim Freeburg you’re very welcome!
Good work from a fantastic interviewer. Heaven is where we make it.
Awesome Brooke!
Great video brooke!