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Thanks for posting

You actually dipped a bit into the tenor range, so your voice sits on the lower end for a boy. That's great it dropped some, too. I understand though how you feel you were always meant to have a low voice. I hear you about being uncomfortable with singing treble clef. At puberty I was almost baritone but for awhile I was put in the alto section. My alto notes were so weak that it was embarassing. When I was put in the tenor section I felt better. My dysphoria arises from not sounding like a fully grown man and just sounding like a 13-year old. I'm able to alleviate it by singing countertenor, because my vocal range matches that of an adult countertenor's. I get dysphoric when I try to sing along with baritones, baritone-tenors or even low tenors, because their high notes are my low notes. It reminds me my vocal chords haven't masculinized enough to be able to sing along with them in their vocal register.

I'm at 3 months now and this is exactly how I feel. It's getting real and theres so much mourning for my past self. Thank you for voicing this and helping it make sense

I know what you mean about being sad but not sure why.

I feel like that too sometimes when i go out like Im the weirdo

I mean im soo scared of telling anyone I actually know

Relateable!!!!!

Yeah i had more guy friends too. I had a few crushes and i was always outed to said crushes or mocked for them it really sucked.

Dude i have a twin too shes a blond huh how crazy is that?

I feel you man!!!

How do you not have more views

I remember back in pe id get a bit over agressive sometimes wgen playing floor hockey and soccer and everyone nicknamed me the beast yeah it was kinda embarrasing as a girl back then but it was definately a sign that i was no girl.

I wouldnt say i was stronger there were moments tho but as a kid i was pretty confrontational with guys i didnt like. At winter sports one year i did basketball instead of iceskating and got along great with the coach and tried to act all cool but just ended up looking stupis half the time but he was impressed with my shooting skills. Man i miss my hoop.

I dont have the luxury of therapy sadly. Out of nowhere like onlya week ago the thought popped in my head what if i was trans then i had a anxiety attack realizing all the ways i was similar to guys and yeah. Im almost certain im a guy..of course there is still doubt but after i changed my youtube profile from Khara to Caleb and something just clicked. I literally argued with myself for a few days it was nuts.

I think its fucked that ya havrto pay 100 to 200 some dollars just to change our names

So right now its caleb i really like it but i have a bit of a problem with its religious conatation. Idk i like the name Dodger or Caspian.

One time i sang son of man with a friend in band for a game and would try to do the phil collin voice.

Ive always tried to do male voice impressions ever since i was a kid Prince of Egypt mainly a little later on treasure planet sinbad Atlantis ya know the clasdics i remember seeing the el dorado trailer and constantly doing the lines from it . I hear you on the hearing but not getting it its soo annoying.

I really hate that my face is soo round. I really hate it soo much.

Im having some pretty bad voice dysphoria everytime it cracks or spumds high i wince or just stop talking.

Tysm!! because of your ways i am now going for a male haircut next week!!!

Thank you for this video! I am also in my 30’s and have just started a social transition. I appreciate your encouraging words and your openness about your experiences.

I feel for you. I did a legal name change, but it took 8 weeks to get my medical insurance to acknowledge and change it- I literally had to threaten refusal of payment before they "promptly" changed my name in their systems. (It was changed the next day.) This is only because I changed my first name- apparently, if I had a name change due to marriage or divorce, it would have only taken "up to 2 weeks", which is their stated timeframe. Four months and a new year of health plan later, I'm still having issues with it. There needs to be more awareness of these "small details", so thanks for making the video!

I'm not 30 but I'm 24 and just finally decided to stop denying the fact that I'm trans. Starting my transition now and only have come out to a few people. I knew I was supposed to be a guy when i was 11 but when I told people they basically told me I had to be a girl so I hid my feelings and tried my best to embrace femininity. Can't do it anymore, no matter how hard it is to transition, come out, all the medical stuff, name change, etc. I searched for your video because I keep hearing about people who transitioned in their teens, something i feel i should have been able to do. But it helps to know that there are people out there who transition later. There's no right time to transition, just the time that you're ready. Everyone's experience is different and i think it's really important to share later transitioning people's stories.

You are so real. I appreciate your honesty so much, and I swear, are you me?

Your videos provide so much more than the slew of other videos out there. Thanks for sharing.

Your facial hair is awesome! I'm 12 - 13 weeks on T and nothing near what you have!

Awesome!

Hey man how have you been? Hope you update soon!

Nice updates!!!!

Hey man! I am so looking forward to following your story. We look so much alike, and I'm just starting transitioning myself. I am so excited to see how things go for you, and to learn from your journey :) As an older person (36) I'm very excited to find people my age headed down this road.

Nice god bless u bro...

Hello Harry, I'm a 50 year old Italian ftm. Started T 4 months ago. And I have all the same issues as you. It really sucks sometimes, like being misgendered but, hey, don't worry, 50 years as your female friend feel free to take your time to adjust (to my friends) but then me myself are still adjusting among self doubt, pronounce issues and everything else. I know I want to look male, no question about it and no question about my breast for example which I can't stand anymore. But it's a winding road every single day. These days especially with my group of lesbian friends which I don't know where to stand anymore. So much going on

The isolation of quarantine has been rough on our community. I think videos like this really help.

I think some may also mourn why couldn't they have been socialized as a little boy. Mourning and joy are happening at once. Good video.

Nice . Thanks for the update.

3 months and my 40th birthday just went by. Thanks for the video about transitioning without being in your teens and 20s.

I liked and subscribed, I just hit 2 months as well. I'm interested in following your journey!