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Smiling Jack
เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 20 ก.พ. 2013
A vlog Channal about my battle with schizophrenia.
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hope you have a good day
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This Is a poem I could not stop myself from writing, I have to get it out or it eats me up inside. Enjoy There are more than fifty shades of Grey, There are billions, These walls of Grey seem to get shallower than my grave in the morn I am awaken with a craving that is slowly turning my lungs Grey Staring at a crooked cross, god must see us all as Grey, I was made in his image Four walls chocki...
Capture 3 10 14 2016 10 10 PM
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not gonna hold back even if i get a banned for saying that "word"
I just dont know
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Things with my best friend is so rocky i didnt even want to be my beat friend anymorw
short story time. next video will tell the whole thing from the start to finish
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short story time. next video will tell the whole thing from the start to finish
Random thing that pissed me the hell off
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Random thing that pissed me the hell off
Not gonna stop me from trying to help people
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Not gonna stop me from trying to help people
Update on some health issues and a my first tattoo
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Update on some health issues and a my first tattoo
jack where are you ?
9 years ago.. how did things turn out ?
I never get simultaneous voices always one after the other and not so much in public while interacting with others although they are there , they are not allowed to interfere significantly other than sleep deprivation with basic tasks and manual labor , I prefer to be quiet and I am tall and athletic but getting old. Christianity is the core of my being but not in Churches; they'll just make me wanna go back home. There is a lot of info about these voices in the Bible both Catholic and Protestant. Here's one, Wisdom: Let us(demons) examine him(us) by outrages and tortures, that we may know his meekness and try his patience. And by the way, YOU can most certainly amount to something , Far beyond your expectations. Your inner self can glow with strength and warmth. God is not feeble in the least and HE waits for you to look for Him. he has a tremendous love for humanity.
I can relate to this and thanks for the video
I have the same thing as you and it breaking me down): all day long I hear 4 people talking shit and talking about what I’m doing . I don’t even like to shower with the lights on or take my clothes off …it’s hell and nobody understands. I hear then right now making fun of me for writing this ): having this has made me understand why people commit suicide.
Are you still out there ?
He's still out there, he may try to gain access to this account soon to post an update if he can. He's happily married and a father to an 8 Month old baby and 3 step kids. He still struggles but is doing so great!. I'm his happy wife and I'm going to encourage him to start posting again. Life is so difficult but full of beauty.
jamesfly are you Christian ? hear voices ?
Hello
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Thank you for sharing. It sounds like your dogs are very important to you. I had a little dog and I miss him. I could not take care of him as well as I would have liked to. He was a nice little guy. The other day I thought I heard him whether I hallucinated it, or if It was a dream, I am not sure. You mentioned good hallucinations, can you share or maybe you already have a video describing some of your bad hallucinations. I would just like to compare notes. By the way you’re very cool dude and very intelligent. God bless you.
Hope you are doing well! Would love to hear more of your recovery and how you are now? Thank you for sharing.
Hey!!
Be strong, get on the right meds you'll be okay I can promise you
I enjoy listening to your videos, good luck with everything ❤
hang in there buddy glad you are uploading again keep it up, do u see the humans still
I keep seeing scary hallucinations at night.
what thing you see?
Looking forward to your next video… Take care
How're you doing now? :)
Have you been checked for food sensitivities? Such as being Celiac or Lactose intolerant? The reason I ask is because it's been shown a huge correlation between the Western Diet and people of other cultures who don't eat much wheat or milk / dairy products, as to how many have schizophrenic / psychosis. Try getting rid of Wheat and Dairy (as well as chocolate) and incorporate a good multivitamin such as Oxylent. Get Vitamin D3, Vitamin K2 and magnesium and supplement with those too which will help you get to sleep without medication. Those are three main vitamins that most people are lacking.
Today is the first time I have seen your videos and I look forward to hearing more about you. This is definitely not a waste. Your bravery in doing this is probably inspiring more people out there than you realize. Not all of them will make a comment so you may not know that you're making an impact but just remember you are. You are not a mistake. God created you and he is not capable of making mistakes. Take care buddy God bless
stay strong bro
Absolutely bud, I will be around.
Don't give up. I see a lot of potential. I'd be happy to talk with you on the phone.
Thanks ,man. It's just hard to see hope in the future. I would take you up on that offer ,but for about a month and a half i've been without a phone, I broke it trying to mix the cracks in my camera.... Yeah messed up the mantle now it wont start. If i get a new phone i'll pm you with it. Might get one for Christmas, but i really want a nice Elgin pocket watch. Also another clock for my room so i can have two.
hey Dylon do u plan to vote for president in november?
Tim Shufflebottom well yo be honest the obama situation of free health care has shut down atleast three main psychiatric offices and now i have to deal with 65 dollars everytime i go to my pdoc or any doctors, except when i go and get blood drawn. so im going with the one who does not want to carry on with the obama legacy. so for me personally and for the several other people who have been affected. i have blue cross blue sheld as a first insurance and Medicare i believe thats what it is called. ive been turned down but two doctors who refuse to see me because of my secondary covering. so im going with who I see might be the most beneficial for me and other people with mental illness. so im going to say he shouldn't have the power over the but he is likely the one candidate that cant be bought and be a puppet. so im voting for trump not because she is a woman, i would love to see that one day, but no way in hell will i endorse her in the slightest. shes a puppet whose gonna win of you want the homest to god she will more than likely win.
alot of people in USA have told thst obama care is a complete disaster
you are totally right. but the people want a new figure head because she will easily be manipulated. these are just my thoughts , just an opinion. it does not make what i say true. in the usa for aslong as we can have free speech and im very thank full for that
I watch alot of videos from the campaigns of hillary and donald and im with the impresion that trump is more popular then clinton right now , is this true? did u watch the debates?
Tim Shufflebottom yes ive been watching them. people like trump more with hopes for companies that want to go big or simply make a certain amount of money they should pay to the government. not even business wants to be a mom and pop story the rest of their years. people like him is because hes smart at what he is no politician, he is a man trying to fix the broken country we live in. hilary just smiles and laughs at every question. she is sick person in general. he plans make zero percent but you know the mediator always lobes soft ball and she can even answer the question with making it be about trump. she dodges everything with a attack on trump
are these people u see ever try to interact with u or to get your attention, the doctors ever say that one day hopefully u could be completly symptom free?
Tim Shufflebottom yeeeeeeees when im reading a book they start whispering on my ears or they cover the screen with their hands but its alot better. the good voices always cheer me on in vyda games and make a mental note on what i should b highlight and what not.
so they appear to like it when you play video games? they say''shoot this guy, go there, take ths item, depending on the type of game?
Tim Shufflebottom pretty much or they make fun if im not doing well. someyimes a face would pop out of the screen at random times.
in your old videos u mentioned that the scariest visual hallu that u see is a liitle girl, why u find little kids are the most scary hallucinations, i bet all of them are scary but u said that children u hate the most to hallucinate
Hope you get feeling better soon
hello Dylan, do u have any idea why these people seems to appear mostly in your bathroom, are they real looking like real people, cant those medicine that ur on help to get rid of them ?
I'm not sure if I have told you, I'm scizoaffective. Been on meds since the early 1980, the antipsychotics have made a big difference in my life but not so lucky on the antidepressants but the docs are not happy unless I take them. About all I can recommencement is talk to your doc or counselor about your issues. I have even called the crisis line when my issues get bad.
I remember U mentioned in one video that u like to play video games, I like video games too. With that said can I ask what is your computer's cores, graphic card, ram, etc. I have to buy me a new one and I wonder what type of computer will be best for the latest games to run smooth
i have a quadcore with 8 hyper threading. gtx 970, just got a new harddrivehard drive because my computer got friend even though i had a surge protector on so i honestly dont know what brand or anything other tham i had 5 terabytes amd now im at 1 terabyte. 32 gigs of ram and a 750 power supply. 6 fans not including including the 4 faces from my graphics card and one other thing. i can run pretty much Any thing but the im having to re download about 16 games from steam. fun times. im not computer expert by any means so if i forgot anything im sorry. what are you going to do ? you gonna build or buy pre-built?
I want to buy one pre-build, for games, for example if I make a chose between two computers one is with i7 with gtx 950 and the other one is with i5 but with gtx1080 wich one is better for gaming in your opinion?
lol no im not, so u into fitness too?
you look pretty good Dylan, love how you look with shaved head and also this 2 vids you look more awake than the last ones so 10/10
thanks mg :) that means alot to me. yeah im slowly becoming less and less tired all day, ya feel me?
Thank you for the video responce to my questions and thoughts u rock my friend !
no problem man. thanks:) any question ill answer to the best of my ability
your hair looks great!!
thank you:)
no problem mate :)
do you still see people in your room or the meds are working well this time?
It depends. honestly today ive only seen 2 people in my bathroom. My room is safe again mostly, but there are always a few stragglers. The voices different from day to day. This morning I was hearing numbers and advice from a female voice and listening to some old bands so i was talking with her until about 11am because my meds started working more.
what advices did the female voice tell u to do, what were the people in the bathroom doing
she brought up some bands i used to listen to. she was bringing up old school morbid angel, rammstein, bmth count your blessings, mcr, old eminem slimshady lp, and bands like that id look em up and shed suggested which songs i should listen too and when to stop and switch. the people in my bathroom standing their naked with what looks like an isis beheading was why they are naked and blood pouring out of their necks on to the floor. so i just closed the door and went to use my parents bathroom.
oh my god, such brutal hallucination. I watched older videos from you and u said that u saw regular people standing around. I never though that they can be so nightmerish. Im so sorry that u still see them, and they appear vivid and clear like real people? At least is somehow good that the voice u hear is friendly , I dont remember u ever said before any voice that is positive
That would of made me mad too. After I turned 21 I would be asked to show my ID for cigarettes but never for beer.
Glad you are still hanging in there as long as it isn't effect your living conditions. For me it is therapeutic & the mental health staff agree.
my doctor agrees but mom only wants happy fluffy cloud videos
Im happy you reconsidered and still make your videos, hope you are feeling better friend :)
thank you, im glad aswell
hey Dylan, really glad to see you again! I'm sorry to hear you're self harming, unlike you I self harmed long before I was diagnosed with anything but like you I do it more when I'm stressed or manic. I'm currently in a locked rehab for young women with personality disorders. Originally when I entered hospital on the 14th of may last year I was diagnosed with schizophrenia but recently they've changed it to BPD and PTSD. I really missed you I'm so glad you're okay :)
hey dude! I was super worried about you, so glad to see you again :) I hope things get better for you soon
what diet u used to lose so much weight
Good seeing you again but no reason to apologize, we all have issues. Hope things get better for you soon.
please make videos again , been long time my friend
thank you.. im gonna try my hardest. im finally opening my doors again
Glad to hear it
Thanks for sharing your story. Much love. Stay strong, I know it's hard.
can u tell how exactly the people look like, can u describe them, from the visual hallucinations?
hey dude I missed you! im glad youre okay, and im sorry youve had such a rough time. sorry I haven't been around much for the last 7 months I've been in hospital, got discharged yesterday. I have also been diagnosed with schizophrenia. I just wanted you to know I'm always here for you if you need someone to talk to or whatever. keep your chin up everything will be alright :)
I'm new and I don't understand your problems just yet but you seem to have a positive attitude on dealing with it. Keep your head up man, life is tough sometimes but remember you aren't alone :)
You should make videos again, man. But only if it helps, of course...
I hope you get better (:
you are so brave
I hope you are doing okay, you haven't made a video in a while?
hey jack, wondering how you're doing why you're not posting anymore videos. what happened?
Hey you doing alright? You haven't been posting videos I've been worried about you, I hope you're okay