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I chose Ezra off of a baby name list and because it sounds similar to my deadname.

Wow thank you for giving an update!! And actually it seems your beard is still really thiccc despite dutasteride? 😮 you have really nice hair : D

I'd often been mistaken for being younger anyway, but my favorite after-starting-T incident was going to buy vapes (have to be 21, I'm almost 43). My partner was paying for them, and the lady behind the counter, who had seen us in there MULTIPLE times when I was girlmoding, looks at my partner, points at me in boymode, and asks them "Is he old enough to be getting these?" It was so funny and affirming that I couldn't even be mad about showing her my ID even though it has my birth name on it. It really does seem like second puberty makes trans folks of all stripes look so much younger.

Been following you for a long time on twitter (which I've now given up) and on yt. You've always posted the most lovely, honest and kind trans content available. It's such a shame that you get attacked so much when the algorithm picks something up. Keep up the great content and keep on being yourself!

I'm a trans guy too, been on T for 5 years as well. I'm intermittently open and visible because of the same reasons. Although I don't necessarily agree with the term, I'd say I "pass" in most situations and can avoid abuse by just not acknowledging my identity online. One of my fondest memories was the time a person created a hit piece on their blog about me stating that "I might be a tr*nny now, but I'll always be a b*tch" because I ghosted/blocked them. I'm sorry you go through this brother. Love and support to you! I really appreciate your channel. ❤

"Exchange with some guys at Enter Shikari gig" We need to get away from labelling everything and everyone, Whether it be gender, race, colour. I don't know your full situation, But i'm sure you'd rather be called a man than a trans man?

Boy you need to be BLASTING that test 500mg a week baybeee

Thank you for being so open. I think a lot of people don’t know what they need to know and to have a safe place to ask means a lot.

Jesus loves you. ❤

This is the first video I've seen of you, and it breaks my heart that the other comment is so hateful. So I wanted to comment as well to say that this is a beautiful and informative message, and you dont deserve any hate for it ❤

No worries sister. Ur birth and death certificate will tell you who you are? The documents dont lie. Every single cell in you body screams "XX"

Is that work for bodybuilding?? 😮

I enjoyed watching your video, thank you. Enjoy Brighton Pride tomorrow if you're going, but the weather doesn't look too good.

Wish i never took it feel queasy all the time. Not going to have booster. Just going to go back on the better rhe devil you know, testogel. I know its not a proper go at it, but gel is more in control. Probably the surge making me queasy. Did you have to wait 12 weeks before going back on testogel? Hope not but still have 20 sachets left.

Quick question. I'm having Nebido soon. Do you order it through a prescription or do they have it ready at appointment? On testogel at the moment. Doesn't give me right level. Thanks

Do you feel any side effects? And is there any risk of periods coming back?

I need to be more monotone I think. Also, if i speak quietly, my voice stays low. The minute i get excited it goes way up. I feel like a knob. Lol i guess it just takes practice

You have a beard. Why would you get misgendered?

Where can i order this? Im From EU.

thanks for muscling through the embarrassment on this one, very helpful

fkkn ridiculous. the whole situation in the uk is heartbreaking and enraging and exhausting. stay strong out there brother 💪❤️

Thanks for sharing the tips you get!

That is incredible :( I'd put money on it being the Tories starving them of funds and causing the NHS Gender clinics to be in even more of a mess than other parts of the NHS. I really really hope other trans/NB folk get the chance you got to get on a pilot scheme.

Sometimes it takes little reminders like that to show us how far we've actually progressed. I think I've been managing to extend my range (that is, keeping fairly close to my 'old' voice) because I still default to my 'customer service voice' at work, which helps me keep my feminine range. But when I play around to see how far down I can drop, I tend to surprise myself with the bassier tones and resonance that I'm achieving. Haven't got any before & now footage to compare, as I've never been fond of being recorded, but when I pay attention and push a little, I hear a distinct change.

I thought of mha-

How many per cent? How is you testo levels? Greetings from Brazil

I never understand why the GCs are so obsessed with such a tiny percentage of society that most of them have never knowingly interacted with IRL. Inclusivity and diversity enrich everyone's lives and doesn't threaten the majority! Gah! Solidarity as always, Endeavour my friend x

As a sub maker and user, try "desired voice" subliminals, they work rather fast, I've tried them before. Just use the TH-cam search bar

comparing this vid to older vids of yours i'd say your hairdo is making you look younger. ive seen a lot of teens and twenty somethings with a curly top and short sides.

I’m so sorry you have to put up with this shit. You and every trans person deserves to be loved and appreciated, not bullied and abused. I’m sending you all the love and healing my friend.

At first I misread "those scars are horrible" as "those cars are horrible" and I didn't even question it I was like yeah cars are pretty bad though.

The thing that shocked me the most about this was finding out you're older than me?!?

Sorry you’ve received all this hate. These people thrive off of spreading hatred. Please keep sharing your videos and keep doing what you’re doing ❤The transphobes will always exist as will we. They can either continue to make the lives of a small minority of people who they are never going to meet hell, or accept us. Its that simple. However much bile and froth they unleash they will never be able to wish away trans people. We will continue to exist ( happy) as we always have done. It’s been great following your journey! Much love and solidarity! x

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Oh good heavens about the drive! It's actually almost a little intimidating. I'd nearly always had a pretty high drive anyway pre-T, and I've absolutely noticed an uptick, even just microdosing. When I first heard about bottom growth, I was a bit apprehensive, but once I started thinking back, having old memories coming back up at me, I'd realized just how often I'd wished I could single player mode *that* way instead of how I'd been stuck having to do so, and that nervousness just went up in smoke. Obviously microdosing means things happen more slowly, but I get excited to find those little changes as they happen ☺️

Silly silly transphobes

Oh mate, this sucks - I'm sorry you have to deal with all this 😑 FWIW I've quit Twitter and moved over to Mastodon which is much better for my MH. Also 'be cool, be weird embrace your quirks' is epic and is now going to be my philosophy!! Sending much love as always x

Dude, you're smashing it... Some people just can't understand that we can be happy and trans. And some people are hateful bastards with a heart of coal

my dog, my fucking dog. Originally it was Ash, bc i was waching pokemon and i liked the name ash, but then i was like, yk what. I like the name asher and here we are.

....you were also depressed because you weren't happy within yourself, now you are it must be a great relief. 👍

I had no idea the process of transition, I thought it was tablets etc. Wow, I learn something new every day 👍 Following, because I think it is important to understand every aspect of human life. Thank you for sharing

Im a 40+ cis woman, my feet have gone up a half size... or maybe shoes are made differently by make *shrug* Maybe because your transition was after puberty?

Be happy because smaller shoes cost less

A really interesting story - I remember you telling me on the Birdsite where the name Endeavour came from but it's fascinating to get the full context. BTW, if it hadn't been for She-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named, Severus could have been a good option because IIRC he was one of the decent Roman emperors!

Aw thx for sharing! Tender. I never posed this question to my parents. But when I chose my current name, my mom was very enthusiastic about helping with the middle name. It was funny how into it she was. I have an entire story about how I found my name, too long for TH-cam post though. Enjoying seeing your posts, man, thank you! 🥰

Lol, 💯 on everything you said. I'm like...how do cis-guy teens get any work done 🤣. You hit the nail on the head, so so different- the urge, strength, "the punch", sensation. I mean it's awesome...different awesome, but just a big adjustment to figuring out my "new" body. Keep the videos coming, lol (no pun intended), I appreciate your candor

Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I'm at T 18mos, and got like 4-7 dark and gray hairs (tons of peach fuzz lol). And I'm like...oh f@#% it, it is what it is. I got a friend who has a similar T timeline, and he's got a full beard.. so yeah, genetics. And my endocrinologist said you get a better idea of what to expect after 3-5yrs on T. Also I figure, cis guys don't just grow beard overnight, they have puberty for like 5 years or more maybe!

Been trying to tell my dad he could grow a kickass beard, but his moustache is simply too powerful.

They are a scam company targeting out community. I am trying to get their Instagram shut down and would like your help. Please just report them on Instagram and hopefully they can’t post sales and find more victims.

How did you like it??? Looking into it for myself