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Skyrim Ironman Episode 103 Getting drunk with Shag lak
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 102 Morag Tong Project AHO
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 101 Sadrith Kegran Council Hall
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 100 Exploring Sadrith Kegran
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 99 Project AHO Part 1
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 98 Swamp Hunting
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 97 Advanced Smithing & Enchanting
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 96 Shadowgreen Cavern Noster's Helmet
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 95 Episode of Failure 2
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 94 Dainty Sload Stone of Barenziah location
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 93 INIGO is STUCK again
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 92 Lights Out!
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 91 Bandit killing in Broken Oar Grotto
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 90 Broken Oar Grotto
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 89 Episode of Failure
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 88 Radiant Raiments
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 88 Radiant Raiments
Skyrim Ironman Episode 87 Stone of Barenziah theft in Blue Palace
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 87 Stone of Barenziah theft in Blue Palace
Skyrim Ironman Episode 86 Sheogorath god of Madness
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 86 Sheogorath god of Madness
Skyrim Ironman Episode 85 The Blue Palace
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 85 The Blue Palace
Skyrim Ironman Episode 84 Inigo the Bard
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 84 Inigo the Bard
Skyrim Ironman Episode 83 Sunny Solitude
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 83 Sunny Solitude
Skyrim Ironman Episode 82 The Restless Winking Skeever
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 82 The Restless Winking Skeever
Skyrim Ironman Episode 81 Roggvir's Execution
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 81 Roggvir's Execution
Skyrim Ironman Episode 80 Adopt my first kid
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 80 Adopt my first kid
Skyrim Ironman Episode 78 Mikrals Galdur Amulet
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Skyrim Ironman Episode 78 Mikrals Galdur Amulet
Skyrim Amulet of Mara Real Life Engagement!
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Skyrim Amulet of Mara Real Life Engagement!
That is terrifying. My brother has schizoaffective disorder and I have always asked him what it was like I cannot imagine having to live like this.
I’m happy to make you aware of what he goes through, and I’m happy to be a voice for those who struggle to explain it. 👌🏻
Me after the lobotomy
One day i saw my mother and i thought what would happen to me if she's dead. And suddenly i saw her like she was dead already but still ahe was being there. For the first time she felt like a stranger in my house. I was just looking at her like she is just a soul and i dont have a mother. I don't know whats going on.
While i don’t have schizophrenia the message of hope and empowerment is what i needed to hear right now
That wasn't too bad?
You left out auditory thoughts of self toward self, audible thoughts of others, dream images, and memories pushing through. Lots of the blur isn't necessary but if you could do rate of travel and distance distortion too with all visual elements it would ripen to perfection. Oh and don't forget strangers calling out your name from afar in various accents and attitudinal tones. Other than that (I'm a perfectionist) you have done well to educate those who are blessed with the inability to imagine it. My tinnitus rarely varies in volume that rapidly. I'm relatively free of this almost all the time now. I wouldn't attempt to drive a car at that level of impairment.
Thanks. I focused more on the ‘physical’ experience. The mocking voice could be the ‘voices’ you might be refering to. As for self thoughts it is more thoughts in the head than physical auditory hallucinations that my ears actually hear. And as for time expansion and shortening that would be a bit difficult to represent realistically on video 😂 Maybe ‘flashbacks’ and ‘waking’ in another situation could be somethng I can make in another video😊 You gave me some ideas for another video. Need better video equipment to do it effectively though…
No crazy stuff on this vid…
My dad has schizophrenia so that might be a big play on the fact that ive been having symptoms of schizophrenia. I wont bore you on all the details but if you wanna know just lemme know. But anyways this is realistic as fuck for me the blurry vision and the non stop image of peoples faces that you see irl. Last night my mom looked at me with such disappointment when she saw me come inside after smoking weed. And the whole high i just kept bro nvm im js yapping
@@masko57 This is one of the reasons I made this video. To be a voice for people like us and shed light to those who struggle to understand. But weed aggravates and increases the symptoms. It is a bad idea to use it if you are already genetically pre disposed. That was a trigger for my very first psychotic episode. I am happy to be of service! I finally got a full time job now! So I hope I can finally get some free time to make some more videos like this one.
It’s like having a million thoughts
i’ve experienced this. also had a few psychotic breaks. not currently medicated but in the process of getting help. kinda scared to admit this to myself but my brain doesn’t work the same anymore.
@@stars19735 I relate very much with you. Few people understand us.
I cant smoke dope anymore (cannabis) without going into a bad trip...
Looks like Adelaide.
Playing on x box and I got none of this. No note at the beginning. My lo is perfect. Is there a patch? I’m able to give 50 coin to people that’s about all
I have Hollis bag but Bryn won’t talk and Bolli is oblivious
Never got the bandit prompts either.
You forgot to photoshop everyone's eyes as side eyeing at the camera.
WOW this tripped me out so much, its just like being on lsd but permanently, thank you for this educating video. The part when you focus on someones face and it laggs behind is so like psychedelic visuals, you have too double check too see if that was real or just your imagination. Imagine what it would be like having this in the 1500s
Nothing like my schizophrenia... Besides, it's more a frequency thing, it's difficult to portray the intensity of the frequency. It's scope of immersive perception hijacking, tends to be more than shadow, filament visual and auditory hallucinations. You would probably need an immersive VR headset to get any sort of representation of hardcore schizophrenia. At times seemingly participating in a whole other dimension. I heard a rumour there's 27 to choose from. I've found my schizophrenia is more disturbing for others, than it has been for myself. It's not exactly a condition that many relationships manage to persevere through...
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As someone who has it lemme just say that this is in no way realistic😭
Each person who suffers has a different experience. For me this is what I go through and many others agree. But maybe share the symptoms you go though?
This looks like an acid and datura trip.
@@jimmyalfonda3536 Basically similar, except it comes naturally. The brain automatically puts you in a permanent trip. You need to take counter drugs to become ‘normal’. It can be ‘fun’ for a short moment for those who have normal brains by taking substances, but it is a living hell to live with permanently and hard to make a living. And on-top of it all it is misunderstood, judged and stigmatised.
It's hard to explain in words to people what it's like so this video helps alot tysm
Night 5 on fivnnn nights and freddy be like.
Seems kinda fun sign me up
Apart from the chaotic emotions and inability to make a proper living I guess it kind of is a ‘fun’ or interesting experience 😂 Just wish people had more understanding and sympathy towards it.
0:30 When you enter an ancestral tomb in Morrowind
Eat delicious Vralar Rexalti Cybalta Ingressa as mandated by Kaiser Permanente
For you
does it have moments that it gets better or worse? or is it the same way all day long everyday? does your emotional states afects it? like if you are feeling worse emotionaly does the visual and sound symptoms gets worse too?
Being on medication takes it away about 80% but it is always there in some way and with this comes crippling emotions. This video represents when off medication for about 3 days. It gets worse the longer I am off meds. The visual distortion and voices I can handle, but the emotions are unbearable. And yes your mindset definately can have a big impact on how better or worse it can be, but just using mindfulness or positive thinking won't help that much.
Average dextromethorphan + Benadryl experience
Can you stop with the ringing sound? Are you trying to pop a hole in my ear drum?
imagine bro , like wtf its crazy not to know whaaaaaat people might suffer from.so sad but weird too.. thats alienish
CIA and NSA MIND CONTROL PATENT USP # 4,877,027 (October 31, 1989), Hearing System Abstract: Sound is induced in the head of a person by radiating the head with microwaves in the range of 100 megahertz to 10,000 megahertz that are modulated with a particular waveform. The waveform consists of frequency modulated bursts. Each burst is made up of 10 to 20 uniformly spaced pulses grouped tightly together. The burst width is between 500 nanoseconds and 100 microseconds. The bursts are frequency modulated Behavior Modification and Mind Control Patents USP # 6,488,617 (December 3, 2002), Method and Device for Producing a Desired Brain State Abstract: A method and device for the production of a desired brain state in an individual contain means for monitoring and analyzing the brain state while a set of one or more magnets produce fields that alter this state. A computational system alters various parameters of the magnetic fields in order to close the gap between the actual and desired brain state. This feedback process operates continuously until the gap is minimized and/or removed. USP # 6,091,994 (July 18, 2000), Pulsative Manipulation of Nervous Systems Abstract: Method and apparatus for manipulating the nervous system by imparting subliminal pulsative cooling to the subject�s skin at a frequency that is suitable for the excitation of a sensory resonance. At present, two major sensory resonances are known, with frequencies near 1/2 Hz and 2.4 Hz. The 1/2 Hz sensory resonance causes relaxation, sleepiness, ptosis of the eyelids, a tonic smile, a �knot� in the stomach, or sexual excitement, depending on the precise frequency used. The 2.4 Hz resonance causes the slowing of certain cortical activities. USP # 6,052,336 (April 18, 2000), Apparatus and Method of Broadcasting Audible Sound Using Ultrasonic Sound as a Carrier Abstract: An ultrasonic sound source broadcasts an ultrasonic signal which is amplitude and/or frequency modulated with an information input signal originating from an information input source. The modulated signal, which may be amplified, is then broadcast via a projector unit, whereupon an individual or group of individuals located in the broadcast region detect the audible sound. USP # 5,539,705 (July 23, 1996), Ultrasonic Speech Translator and Communications System Abstract: A wireless communication system, undetectable by radio-frequency methods, for converting audio signals, including human voice, to electronic signals in the ultrasonic frequency range, transmitting the ultrasonic signal by way of acoustic pressure waves across a carrier medium, including gases, liquids and solids, and reconverting the ultrasonic acoustic pressure waves back to the original audio signal. This invention was made with government support under Contract DE-ACO5-840R2l400, awarded by the US Department of Energy to Martin Marietta Energy Systems, Inc. USP # 5,507,291 (April 16, 1996), Method and an Associated Apparatus for Remotely Determining Information as to Person�s Emotional State Abstract: In a method for remotely determining information relating to a person�s emotional state, an waveform energy having a predetermined frequency and a predetermined intensity is generated and wirelessly transmitted towards a remotely located subject. Waveform energy emitted from the subject is detected and automatically analyzed to derive information relating to the individual�s emotional state. USP # 5,159,703 (October 27, 1992), Silent Subliminal Presentation System Abstract: A silent communications system in which nonaural carriers, in the very low or very high audio frequency range or in the adjacent ultrasonic frequency spectrum, are amplitude or frequency modulated with the desired intelligence and propagated acoustically or vibrationally, for inducement into the brain. USP # 5,017,143 (May 21, 1991), Method and Apparatus for Producing Subliminal Images Abstract: A method and apparatus to produce more effective visual subliminal communications. Graphic and/or text images, presented for durations of less than a video frame, at organized rhythmic intervals, the rhythmic intervals intended to affect user receptivity, moods or behavior. USP # 4,877,027 (October 31, 1989), Hearing System Abstract: Sound is induced in the head of a person by radiating the head with microwaves in the range of 100 megahertz to 10,000 megahertz that are modulated with a particular waveform. The waveform consists of frequency modulated bursts. Each burst is made up of 10 to 20 uniformly spaced pulses grouped tightly together. The burst width is between 500 nanoseconds and 100 microseconds. The bursts are frequency modulated
Take your medication your not making sense, I know you can’t help it but come ON! How can you not see how ridiculous your claims are!?
I hate when my psychosis kicks in in the middle of Slytherin territory
Is this to gain sympathy? Or help create empathy?
@@carpballet Read the description. It is to educate mostly and bring awareness.
When people are trying to misdiagnose you They will use videos on TH-cam or other social media and bait you with materials they think you will agree with But they will include the ringing affects and other symptoms But will try to put a positive spin on these symptoms they would like you to agree with This will help them trick you into agreeing with the misdiagnosing process 😂
What city is this?
Cape Town
This is a bit if not very much similar to psychoactive substances from deliriants to psychedelics.
Now imagine being in that state permanently. I need to take “drugs” (medication) to not be “high”
@@TheVanmeijer I'm very sorry this is how your life experience is for you. I hope that you are able to cope and that the pharmaceuticals work to manage your symptoms. Even just a prolonged state like this would be terrifying, but to live permanently here would be tantamount to torture. I wish you the best in your life!
@@HexniliumThank you very much. Much appreciated. It is very much stigmatised and misunderstood because from the outside there is apparently nothing wrong with the sufferer, so it makes work and everyday life very difficult, but I was able to push through and hold jobs in the past, just not as easy and the expectations are to perform the same as ‘neurotypical’ people. But the trippiness does increase perspective and creativity. 😂 Please help being part of spreading awareness and understanding. 😉
0:30 bro is just reminiscing playing morrowind in his head leave him alone
I was like this when I was a child but it like faster at 1.25x you feel like you are fxcking slow! and the people around you are moving very fast.
Schizophrenia looks like a demonic attack on the mind
Add vine boom sound effects everytime a face flashes and boom you got a shitpost
Haha so funny 😐
Ok i'm not Schizophrenic then
Lsd eternal loop
Idk if this is relevant but a quarter of my lsd trips were like this, very eerie
real
This looks like an acid trip. I don’t have schizophrenia but I’ve done acid many times and this looks like a mild acid trip. Ofc it must be horrible if it can just suddenly happen to you out of nowhere
Yeah. It is basically like being on a permanent acid trip. Wish sometimes I can milk the chemicals out of my brain and sell them to junkies. Would have been a millionaire by now. Ironically I need to take ‘drugs’ to not ‘be on drugs’
I’m sorry this has happened to you. Is your medication effective and can you have a regular life under it? I’m genuinely curious
@@davidpaez8892 I edited the video while off meds to get a more accurate depiction of what I actually go through. Like editing it ‘Live’ - at least I can do editing while off meds, 😂but holding a job and working under pressure is almost impossible, even with meds… I have just been coping kind of, with a lot of support. I had a video editing job which I scraped through without people even being aware of what I go through, but it collapsed after I went off meds, haven’t had anything official since then. Hoping to kick off my TH-cam channel properly.
Visual distortions are a very important symptom to acknowledge. My mate Sully who lives with schizophrenia his whole life hates looking people in the eyes, because the longer he looks at someone's face, the more it distorts and contorts until it's an incomprehensible writhing mess. It's his most persistent visual hallucination.
I didn't know this. That sounds so terrible to experience. :(
wait thats a symptom?
Are you sure he doesn’t just have an issue with his visual cortex? There is a condition with the informal name of Demon Face Syndrome that manifests itself pretty much as you said. The thing that differentiates it from schizophrenia is that there aren’t actually any hallucinations beyond it. When it comes to perception they can hallucinate some extreme stuff, but it’s a visual cortex malfunction rather than an actual psychosis. So someone with Demon Face Syndrome will not hear voices or hallucinate anything linked specifically with their mental state, they’ll just see a face distort and contort (or see faces appear where there are none). The most famous case has pictures for it, since the person who suffered from it could perceive a face normally on a screen and distorted in person, so an artist was able to distort the image on the screen until it matched what he saw in front of him. In that example, the faces appear goblin-like, but in other cases it can vary to things like faces looking like they distort as you observe them (like your friend), and even them consistently distorting into something like dragon faces. Sorry for the long comment, but if he hasn’t already I suggest your friend looks up the syndrome to get some more info on it, and maybe goes and sees his GP if he feels it might be a more accurate diagnosis. (Also in the goblin-face case they did find a kind of cure, which was glasses tinted to a specific colour, but afaik it’s the only time it’s ever been treated successfully).
Yup the high frequency sounds and frame dragging are pretty accurate 😮
Strange how it’s different from delusional disorder, yet I still hear voices in my head!
Everyone hears voices
@@Reece-Mincher3601what? No people don’t hear voices they can’t control inside their heads that’s not normal where are you getting that?
@koalaplays8855 Simply a leftover artefact of human consciousness, and if you actually talked to people you'd soon find that it is much less rare than one may think.. and yes, everyone hears voices, whether it be the TV on in the background, a voicemail from your late grandma, or imagining how you think a person would sound like through only text; in fact it is abnormal to NOT hear voices, hope that helps ☺️
@@Reece-Mincher3601 read my comment again before you reply, it’s actually weird you don’t read comments before replying, i said quote: “people don’t hear voices in their head they can’t control” obviously anyone can play a voice in there head but it’s controlled, and even then, when you imagine a voice it’s kinda toned down in the mind, when it comes to hallucinations it’s clear as day voices
@koalaplays8855 That's ultimately subjective, is it not? Everyone and their mum get intrusive thoughts
Bro ACID IS LIKE 10 TIMES WORSE THAN THIS. This can’t be what schizophrenia is like. They report seeing angry hallucinations of people making demands of them. THIS IS NOTHING LIKE THAT.
It's honestly look like your motherboard have some broken parts and working with issues.
I didn't believe in this video, but since many people in the comment section are saying that it is accurate then I believe, and wow, that sounds really an estrange experience. I am very sad for the people who have such disease...