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Stay strong Hugs to you

I'm proud of you. Things will get better it might take a while, baby steps ❤

omg evie!! You’re freaking rocking it & im proud of you for pushing through!! Thank you for such wonderful, inspiring videos. You are strong girly 💪🏼💗 (idk if you remember me, but I was a barista at Nikos!) sending you hugs!!

22 was my best year! It's the year I looked myself in the mirror and realized that just because I was plus sized didn't mean I wasn't beautiful. It was a confidence I held onto until I turned 38 and started experiencing perimenopause. My body went through changes that women are not educated about. I'm still working on finding the confidence I had back then and won't give up. I say I'm ''22 and holding''. I hope you enjoyed your special day! :) You have a new subscriber now.

Happy birthdayyy 🫶

I’m so happy for u this is truly amazing 🫶🏻😁 (Also random but someday when I’m recovered I want to go to a cute cafe get a bagel with cream cheese and a chai tea and read a book next to a window)

You got me here in tears bc I think I’m at the lowest in my ed I’ve ever been and can’t imagine being recovered. Thank you so much you have no idea how much this effected me🫶🏻

I Love Evie Gulland She’s Beautiful in The Video My first time watching Her Video lol Happy Saturday 🥰🥰💙

I’m right there with you, today is day 1 for me, plus a horrible week of knowing it was gonna happen. This is my worst nightmare and I don’t know how I’m gonna live without this person in my life. The pain is debilitating and the feeling of emptiness and anguish are overwhelming. Every second is torture and I can’t even decide what’s worse between day or night. Holding you, we are in this together. In my case it’s a really amazing person who left, and this somehow makes it even worse for me. I’ve known a horrible breakup from a real narcissist after an even longer relationship, and even though it was horrible, I could console myself that it was for the best and that he was a piece of s**t. But when you actually feel like the person leaving is the best, your perfect match, your dream guy, with a great personality, such a good person and who you had such a great connection with, I find it hurts more. And that’s what I’m going through right now. The memories are both the most beautiful thing ever and the most painful thing ever. I’m still in denial I think, I can’t come to terms with the reality of it. It’s the most horrible pain I’ve ever felt, and the most empty I’ve ever felt. I’m scared and wondering when I’m gonna start to feel more of a will to live even without him in my life. I guess in my case, it’s especially hard that I already had a deeply-rooted codependency issue, and have had depression and a lack of self-sufficiency pretty much forever. So losing this person you wanted to spend the rest of your life with, is the ultimate stab in your guts. I’m not even at a point where I can say that I “hope” for better days, because in a way, wishing for feeling better at the other side of this breakup is a little bit accepting it and coming to terms with this person’s absence from your life, and right now I just don’t want to let go.

I’m not sure why your video appeared in my feed, but it has struck a cord with me because I suffer from depression and anxiety as well. It’s certainly a miserable way to be! You’re very young and I’m so sorry that you suffer from this. I’m like you. I can be fine one minute and then the next I’m sobbing and don’t even know why. I do know that medication and therapy and being kind to yourself can help. All medication doesn’t work for everyone and sometimes you have to try many before you find one that will give some relief. Also what worked at one time, may run its’ course and not work as well so you search for another. Some therapists aren’t right and you may have to find one that you vibe better with. As you get older, those female hormones are going to calm down and thank God for menopause! At least you don’t have to deal with the bleeding anymore! Lol! If you can, find something that you absolutely LOVE to do and concentrate on it and just enjoy the heck out of it! If you’re too depressed to go out, make it something that you can do at home like art or journal making or trading postcards with a group through the mail, ANYTHING that you love. Do something that is low pressure so as not to cause anxiety. I have very bad days, but I also have a few good ones, and some acceptable ones. I know that you can’t turn it all off like a switch. God, I know I wish I could! Tell yourself “maybe every day this week won’t be the greatest, but I’m going to try to shoot for one day being excellent, doing things that I enjoy and that feel good to me”. Then try two days the next week or whatever you think you can do realistically. You can get through this! Please get through this! You are special and some people would be devastated without you. Leaving Earth is permanent. The torment is not. Remember that sweet, young lady! You’ve got this! I don’t know you, but I feel like you can get better. It may be slower than you’d like, but it’s possible. Love yourself!!! I’ll be rooting for you!

im still trying to heal, its been 2 years since she left and i still think about her. she prlly dont remember me anymore and is with someone new. god i miss her i wish we made things right.idk how to fully move on. its mentally draining

Its far from the end. Dont give up on love, and especially love for yourself. There will probably come thoughts such as "Im worthless, useless, lazy" etc. But these arent from you! Live in the moment during this difficult time, and whatever you do, DONT isolate yourself! (i made this mistake, it makes it much worse). You are worthy of finding love in someone, and especially in yourself. Just based on this video alone, i can tell you are an honest, genuine and kind soul. Dont forget that

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Heartbreak is always the worst pain. I was in love with a woman that already was in a relationship. It killed me inside. She was my neighbour. I saw her every day. She was cute and funny, when I talked with her. But I never said something about my feelings for her, I never want to take a mens wife. I was in love with her years, it sucked and I wish I could turn off the heartpain. I moved out of my apartment, because I couldnt take it anymore. Its crazy, but it was the only way. Sadly I saw her for some weeks in a supermarket and my stupid heart jumped again. Man, this feeling sucks. I hope your wounds will heal soon. Greetings from germany

had me laughing my ass off 🤣

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Also change the music you listen to. Because if it’s depressing, that will not help you at all. There is an enemy against our souls that wants us to stuck in our cycle of sadness, so that we don’t live in peace of mind that only comes from the truth of the Lord.

You may not want this answer but I’m telling you Jesus. Knowing Jesus is the answer. Knowing His Word is the answer. Read the Holy bible. Let it read you and refresh your heart and mind. It’s okay to be broken in Jesus’ arms. Don’t worry, God has a plan and purpose for you girl. I have been through hell and back relationship after relationship and even suicidal along with supportive family. But nobody or anything will fulfill you like you want to be fulfilled. Jesus will fulfill you with peace and hope and joy. Just have faith pray to Jesus and give Him your broken heart and let Him give you what He has been waiting to give you. Jesus is a gentleman, He won’t press himself upon you. I have been through it mentally, with a psychiatrist and meds even drug addiction. None of it ever cured me, it will pass yes but please know there is a hope and true peace in Jesus and letting him in your heart. My advice is stop trying to understand everything right now. I can see the confusion in you that I used to experience. I pray that Jesus heals delivers and comforts you with His Holy Spirit. The answers aren’t in what or how much good you can do. The answer to refreshing is Jesus.

Man. I wish I could talk to you. Just so you know you’re not alone. Idk who you have in your life, but hold onto your people. Try to not be alone. Find relatable individuals who can bring you comfort from them understanding you. Validation really helps. So does seeing that people are patient with your constant mood shifts . Also working out. Even though it feels impossible. Open a window get fresh air idk. You’ve got this. You just need to weather the storm.

Worst pain I’ve ever had was heartbreak. Truly feel for you. Time is definitely your friend. Sorry for what you’re going through from a random dude on the internet. Took me years to feel normal again. Not sure how this was on my page, but hope some little words gave you a little bit of comfort. You got this girl. You know how strong you are and you got this.

New to your channel. I hope this message finds you on a good day. You seem like a truly beautiful person inside and out so keep the chin up and keep going. Remind yourself there will be more good days than bad. p.s. You also have a great laugh and smile. Was someone tickling your foot in the hot tub as you cut away so fast? 😂 Have a great day and I hope the leg heals soon.👍

Lovely to see you again! your videos always brighten my day, I’ve always been to therapy since I was 11 so I’m there with you on this ahah

good to see you girl 🙂

Love this, I know this is a bit of a different kind of therapy but have you ever tried manifesting/law of attraction? it’s not for everyone but it helps me to feel more grounded and in control of things when I put it into practice and hope you have a good holiday

just want to say your videos are really helping me and I relate to you a lot having such a similar situation with my mental health, feel like we’re on this journey together, cerebrate the baby steps even being self aware is something to be proud of xx

your eyes are beautiful girl ❤

that's a great insight about treating yourself like a child. When I feel out of control I kind of split my idea of my consciousness into 2 - responsible adult and overwhelmed child - and I consciously put the adult part in charge and follow their instructions. It helps sometimes.

Girl, I would like to suggest physical exercises like walking (you probably already do this, but that's ok) I really hope that you are well and that everything in your life gets better and better ❤

What a relief to see you smiling girl ❤❤❤

People with terminal OCD are really fun ;) I used to work with a Chief Engineer who had it. At afternoon break we would buy a bag of M&Ms and give him. He would (every time) open it, lay them on the break table, stack them in rows by color on the table, and then had to eat them in a certain order ;) Every time!!! It was amazing to watch ;)

wow you're super hot

You are incredible ❤

This video made me feel less alone and i really appreciate these kind of real videos. You're doing so amazing!! please keep being kind and patient with yourself xx I would love to see a video talking about your OCD as its something i feel is very misunderstood and not often talked about. Thanks for making my day!!! Keep being you queen <3

Mindfulness doesn’t work for me either, I find puzzle books so helpful as well - they’re a great way to refocus on something else other than the spiralling thoughts. I’m sorry that you’re struggling so much with overthinking 💚💚💚

Sorry you feel so sad Things will get better with time

Girl, all I want right now is to hug you, I hope you get better soon

It's incredible that video does have no comments. I feel exactly the say. Maybe I will regret it commenting it with a public name of my profile. But, fuck it. I will the same way, for years. And I don't know till today how to escape from this state and throw away that shit from my head. I feel like stucked and paralyzed with doing anything, when I know that everything I do and use my energy for doing it, will not have a meaning and value in a future. I don't know how many years I will have to spend in this state and lose these years for being paralyzed, instead of doing what we should do or search for what we should do. I send to you my compassion and support. I'm sorry you have to struggle same or similar problems 🙁

Proud of you xxxx

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I hope this message brings you joy and happiness. Keep it up! post more shorts.

so proud of you ❤

I understand talk to me when you need to x

so sweet and happy, let’s go on holiday asap 🦦

The external world being too much is reallll. My mum had to come through to Edi to do my shopping (which made me feel pathetic), but I had been eating like a can of raw chickpeas or tomatos because that's all that was in my cupboard. I live opposite Lidl, so it honestly so stupid. But fuck man, I feel you the outside world is a lot.

I know it might not feel like it, but every single one of these videos is a victory against your demons. Keep doing it.

Beautifully done, as always!

Imortialised on the Internet that you called me a "good friend".

love you ❤ you’re amazing

What an incredibly important thing you're doing, and so brilliantly expressed. Amazing work. ❤

thank u love u !