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tending our garden
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"life is bristling with thorns, and I know no other remedy than to cultivate one's garden." (voltaire) • informational, video essays, storytimes • on psychology & healing, & other interests
(previously called: dissociatedaze; kimjo)
(previously called: dissociatedaze; kimjo)
persona & shadow: Jungian archetypes explained in Rilke's 'the notebooks of malte laurids brigge'
Jungian Archetypes of the Persona and the Shadow, and integration of archetypes from the unconscious to the conscious self, in Rainer Maria Rilke's novel, The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge.
00:08 - Intro about Jungian collective unconscious archetypes
03:11 - Malte and the archetypes of the Persona and Shadow
03:44 - The Persona archetype - social mask, costume, disguise
05:39 - The Shadow archetype - mirror, reflection
08:56 - The Shadow - attempts at integration of the unconscious with the conscious self, and loss of sense of self
10:59 - Return to the Persona in social relation
11:53 - Malte's struggle to integrate and reach self actualization - psychological issues, fever
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Writing, narration, artwork, and video by dissociatedaze.
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00:08 - Intro about Jungian collective unconscious archetypes
03:11 - Malte and the archetypes of the Persona and Shadow
03:44 - The Persona archetype - social mask, costume, disguise
05:39 - The Shadow archetype - mirror, reflection
08:56 - The Shadow - attempts at integration of the unconscious with the conscious self, and loss of sense of self
10:59 - Return to the Persona in social relation
11:53 - Malte's struggle to integrate and reach self actualization - psychological issues, fever
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Writing, narration, artwork, and video by dissociatedaze.
If you want to support this channel:
Donate at www.paypal.me/BuildingBurning
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storytime: inpatient eating disorder treatment for anorexia nervosa
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My story about my experience in inpatient eating disorder treatment. (cw: eating disorders - anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, EDNOS, binge eating disorder, ARFID, orthorexia, pica, etc.) If you want to support this channel: Donate at www.paypal.me/BuildingBurning Like, comment, and subscribe.
mama & baby raccoons screetch as they pass by in the shadows
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Loud mama raccoon and her loud babies screeching and chittering as they pass by safely along the top of the fence in the shadows. If you want to support this channel: Donate at www.paypal.me/BuildingBurning Like, comment, and subscribe.
how dissociation can look for me: depersonalization/derealization (DPDR) caught on camera
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Here is some footage of how dissociation (depersonalization and derealization) can look in my experience. This was caught on camera while I was filming working on another project. I want to show how dissociation can look, to showcase how discreet it can be from outside. Set to the music "Ghosts" by Building Burning. I experience dissociation as part of Complex-PTSD and Dissociative Identity Dis...
snow in the mountains. | grounding & calming ambient sound & nature scene to relax, study, meditate
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Snow and rain in the mountains. Relaxing ambient sounds and a nature scene for calming, grounding, meditation, study, etc. Filmed in the Sierra Nevadas, California 2020. If you want to support this channel: Donate at www.paypal.me/BuildingBurning Like, comment, and subscribe.
hallucinations & archetypal symbolism: psychosis & interpreting the language of the subconscious
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hallucinations & archetypal symbolism: psychosis & interpreting the language of the subconscious
my experience in eating disorder treatment: inpatient, PHP, IOP, & residential (now recovered)
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my experience in eating disorder treatment: inpatient, PHP, IOP, & residential (now recovered)
my eating disorder story: anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, EDNOS (now recovered)
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my eating disorder story: anorexia nervosa, bulimia nervosa, EDNOS (now recovered)
eating disorders: how caretakers effect the development of EDs & how to break the cycle (my story)
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eating disorders: how caretakers effect the development of EDs & how to break the cycle (my story)
eating disorders: physiology of stress & trauma
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eating disorders: physiology of stress & trauma
eating disorders: a coping-mechanism for stress (& on recovery & healing)
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eating disorders: a coping-mechanism for stress (& on recovery & healing)
reconnecting with dissociated parts of self: grief in dissociative identity, CPTSD, psychosis
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reconnecting with dissociated parts of self: grief in dissociative identity, CPTSD, psychosis
to love & be loved. | sleepy sphynx cat: calming, relaxing, grounding, set to music: mimicking birds
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to love & be loved. | sleepy sphynx cat: calming, relaxing, grounding, set to music: mimicking birds
be curious. | healing trauma by building something out of nothing
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be curious. | healing trauma by building something out of nothing
finding safety in instability. | accepting struggles & making meaning in CPTSD, depression, anxiety
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finding safety in instability. | accepting struggles & making meaning in CPTSD, depression, anxiety
(B&W version) my experience with dissociative identity disorder [full, with subtitles]
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(B&W version) my experience with dissociative identity disorder [full, with subtitles]
my experience with dissociative identity disorder
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my experience with dissociative identity disorder
touch as a grounding-skill: mindfulness of senses in coping with trauma, dissociation, psychosis
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touch as a grounding-skill: mindfulness of senses in coping with trauma, dissociation, psychosis
grounding skills: examples | Mindfulness of senses to cope with stress, trauma, CPTSD, dissociation
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grounding skills: examples | Mindfulness of senses to cope with stress, trauma, CPTSD, dissociation
intro about grounding-skills: mindfulness of senses in coping with dissociation, trauma, psychosis
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intro about grounding-skills: mindfulness of senses in coping with dissociation, trauma, psychosis
wolf parade "disco sheets" live. | at the regent theater in los angeles, ca, 01.20
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wolf parade "disco sheets" live. | at the regent theater in los angeles, ca, 01.20
radical face "severus & stone" live. | at the troubador in los angeles, ca, 02.20 (with lyrics)
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radical face "severus & stone" live. | at the troubador in los angeles, ca, 02.20 (with lyrics)
music from the tunnel at devil's gate dam: trumpet and french-horn. | california, USA, 07/2020.
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music from the tunnel at devil's gate dam: trumpet and french-horn. | california, USA, 07/2020.
my psychosis story: CPTSD, shadow people & spirit realm/psychic dimension (including artwork)
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my psychosis story: CPTSD, shadow people & spirit realm/psychic dimension (including artwork)
coping with & healing from trauma-based hallucinations & delusions, & stress-induced psychosis
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coping with & healing from trauma-based hallucinations & delusions, & stress-induced psychosis
psychosis: a psychological self-care system
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psychosis: a psychological self-care system
stress-induced psychosis & treatment: hallucinations, delusions, paranoia in trauma, PTSD, CPTSD
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stress-induced psychosis & treatment: hallucinations, delusions, paranoia in trauma, PTSD, CPTSD
depersonalization & derealization: how to recover in therapy for dissociative disorders & CPTSD
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depersonalization & derealization: how to recover in therapy for dissociative disorders & CPTSD
(B&W version) about dissociation: CPTSD, borderline, depersonalization & derealization, OSDD, DID
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(B&W version) about dissociation: CPTSD, borderline, depersonalization & derealization, OSDD, DID
Story of my life. Have you found anything that improved you?
Do u believe in god jesus devil angels etc?
Keep going please
Ty for ur videos. I'm wondering though is this series taken from a certain book ? And can I use IFS to deal with my fragmented psyche on my own without a therapist ?
Damn it. If that's how it looks like I am actually constantly in that state while I managed it to appear normal in that state to other beings. But my eyes keep the blank expression in the background while I can put a layer above it that appears to reflect a true gaze. Thank you for sharing this. You are pretty by the way, I just noticed, but this natural way, mmh, pretty is the wrong word. Innocent is the right one. Being innocent gives people a special something that can be perceived, but it's difficult to put into words, I think it has to do something with beauty, but more like the beauty when seeing beautiful nature, not related to humans. Weird. I rarely experience such people. Well, I digress. Thank you for the video. Very helpful.
So in the beginning of the year I got diagnosed with unspecified psychosis. I am not. I’m a recovering meth/heroin/fentanyl addict and I was withdrawing without symptoms. But a demon must have posessed me because I was out of my mind and I looked different and felt different. About 5 months later -up until recently I started seeing the face of a devil with eyes and a scrunchy face and horns. I also saw multiple black shadows , sometimes it had a hat on. I have prayed and it won’t go away. I also hear voices and they don’t tell me what to do but more so make a commentary on my life and everything I do. I told the voices to call me private if they were real and gave them my number but they won’t call instead they are childish and annoying and continue to shush one another and watch and listen in on my life. I believe the government pays certain people to stalk people on drugs or with mental disorders to keep them unstable and seeing things. Try to ignore it, pray about it or physically fight the shadows and demons and talk back to them. So far I still hear them.. will update if they go away !!!
Thank you for sharing. This has helped me.
Brilliant video thanks for the lovely food for thought, very helpful, keep up the great work 👌👌👌
I feel the anxious energy projecting from her! Does anyone else?
No, it’s because you have empathy as a good person and she’s explaining very serious and disturbing psychotic mental health problems, and if you’re very empathetic then your mind is imagining her symptoms and it’s causing subconscious anxiety and fear in you. It’s a compassionate character trait to be very empathetic, it means you often think about others and aren’t selfish.
I have a beagle who can recognise when I go through this. He barks to help me “come back”. Never trained him or anything but it’s been a couple of times he’s helped me this way.
That's awesome! I had an old beagle mix who would do the same. It's cool how intuitive dogs can be and lovely when they help as service dogs even when untrained.
This testimony can help millions. I have a friend dealing with this. She isolated herself from loved ones again.
Amazing, thank you!
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Classic 😆
THANK YOU for showing this.
This is EXACTLY what happens to me; multiple times a day, and it can last for hours where I “zoom in and out”. I just wait until I can get grounded. Thank you sooo much for sharing. It is sooo hard to describe these episodes to people who dont understand
I just want to thank you so much for this video my soon to be wife suffers from psychosis from time to time and ed since we have met she has gotten so much better with both but recently she suffered some non-epilepsy seizures at work and was taken to the ER in an ambulance and one small one that I witnessed previously I knew it was a seizure but she had never had one before so it was surprising and scary this was very educational for me
Thank you so much for your comment. I'm so glad my experience/vid could help, thank you for letting me know. Best of luck to you and your soon to be wife. It's wonderful that you're learning and supporting her.
You also out of the matrix. Meaning there are 2 world . The earth and the spiritual realm. You are in the spiritual you see things that no one can see. They Said for those that can see 👀 let them see. For those that can hear let them here. Meaing we see the real. The truth. And the agenda. Around you. You got the eyes that see. Is like the movie. they live . Also truman show. . You should go to you tube. Get type trageted individuals and gangstalking you not going crazy. Is happening to people that a woke.
In my case the trauma-based hallucinations and delusions remitted with therapy, so it was due to trauma. I do consider myself connected to the spirit realm in terms of the collective unconscious. And some of my delusions were based on things that do happen, as you said, which made the untangling difficult. Thank you so much for your comments.
Google targeted individuals and gangstalking. Also your are awoken to the spiritual realm. There a book call active imagination. .
I'll read that book. "Active imagination"? Who is the author? Thanks! Another really good book is "The Inner World of Trauma" by Donald Kalsched.
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I find this fascinating ❤be safe
Hello, I have just discovered the work you posted 3 years ago on various topics. I am very admirative both of how much you have clarity on your functioning and how well you share about it. Your video here and also on grounding techniques are clear and helpful, nurturing. You seem to be a very bright person too and being high functioning is amazing to heal in the sense where the person is always driven to try and understand the situation, find out and implement healing/nurturing strategies (y) I hope you are getting improvements on your challenges and get to just appreciate all the nurturing you give to yourself and natural smartness that is yours :) I am a person with autism, ADHD, high functioning. I have started my road to increase nurturing a few years ago. Back then I didn't have my diagnosis yet and also I didn't know all the anxiety and other symptoms I felt were those of cptsd which I had eventually developed after repetitive exposure to environments that were sensorially overwhelming at the most vulnerable age (baby) and also all the misunderstandings and repetitive errors in how to care for the baby (logically), the child and young teen I was. I'm now an adult and able through awareness and nurturing to repair bit by bit and also protect from further wounds. I wish any wounded person to have the possibility to just get better :) It is a discipline, a step by step dynamic and so worth it!
Thank you so much for your kind words! I'm so glad to hear you're also striving to understand your situation and approaching healing with nurturing and self-compassion. Thank you very much for reaching out <3
Hello, amazing tips, thank you :) It matters a lot to share them as much as possible. For various reasons a lot of persons need grounding (anxiety, peaks of stress due to their worklife, ptsd, cptsd, etc.). I have high functioning autism and ADHD and also some cptsd (related to overexposure to environments that were not sensorially adapted for decades due to ignoring I had autism) that I am soothing step by step with awareness (understanding cptsd on a scientific basis) and grounding techniques. In my case I use many of these tips you share (that I appreciate to see explained so clearly and calmly) and in addition EMDR, some EFT, also some neurofeedback. I have also read how grounding oneself is simply a discipline, it's about taking small steps regularly :)
Thank you for sharing please stay strong!
Thank you! <3
I just went to php and am in iop.
I'm proud of you for seeking help! All the best for treatment and your future.
Thank you
i had a experience kind of like this. i suffer from depersonalization. ive been aware for some time that there is a young part in me. i feel her feelings leak through when something specific and stressful or sexual is happening but other than that she hides. i read from somewhere that you can try to make a place for a part to feel safe and comfortable. so i drew a place to play and sleep in. it was interesting because it was like i was getting things through feelings and i would know what kind of things to add to the picture. after i finished it, i soon got my first ever flashbacks from childhood. i didnt know before that what a flashback really is so i was surprised that it actually is a series of flashes in your mind! i had no idea i had these kind of memories anywhere saved. im at a wierd point because i dont want to dig further. i dont remember most of my childhood and i see from pictures that i had a normal childhood, but at the same time im worrying whats the reason i dont feel one. anyway, i felt the same as you that i feel good that i can be my own protector now and i can comfort myself in the past
Well said at the end. Our four pillars: Kindness, Love, Patience and Forgiveness - Good stuff - thank you - g (seans)
We wonder how you(s) are doing these days - all the best - g (seans)
Hi, g (seans) thanks! I'm doing okay. Had some setbacks due to a couple big traumas that impacted me pretty badly, but we're also doing well, getting healthy and growing roots. Thanks so much for thinking of us :) We have lots of video ideas brewing, and perhaps I should record a catch-up soon, too! All the best to you, too <3
Thanks for taking the time to reply.(we've neglected to find your name before I started typing but you likely know how hard it is to re-start/get back to something so I'm going to catch up on the name part with apologies. Good that you are OK - awesome would (will) be great - hope to get there ourselves :O). You seem strong so I imagine the traumas were tougher than you're framing, as it were. Not surprised about the tough part - we know it goes with this situation but we want to highlight yours nonetheless - toughs not easy, it's just 'in the kit'. What other people may not/can not see is that the 'tough' we have and show is often all that separates us from total disintegration - at least it can feel that way. Just that part of DID alone is or can be completely exhausting - I'm done with the dramatic part haha - just wanted to acknowledge that if it is something you(s) experience or experienced as well. So we celebrate you(s) are getting healthy and growing roots! :O) cheers and kind regards, g@@tendingourgarden
"The 'tough' we have and show is often all that separates us from total disintegration - at least it can feel that way. Just that part of DID alone is or can be completely exhausting" You hit the nail on the head. You put it into words. Thank you so much for what you said, it's so nice to know someone else who understands. <3 Doing awesome WILL be great for both of us--we're on our way :)
Hi again. We looked for your name - a name - to call you - didn't find one and that's cool, just want you(s) to know we think about that - cheers We have found - I have found - discovering community - real community - not the 'circus' you can find easily on various platforms - we don't go there or judge that - it's just not what I'm referring to, which I know you get or I/we wouldn't be taking this time to share, as it were. We take the time when we can to make these connections - where we find them as with you(s) - as much for us as to help the persons we are reaching out to. So here's another only those who 'are' know, so to speak: No one could possibly understand (I know we don't but we experience it) No one can truly understand how a form can sit for weeks at the top of the pile - an important one - one that would/could help or relieve some thing if we would just write a few simple facts on a form and send it on it's way. Or it might be a task or a call unmade - anything. Somethings like that can sit and accumulate and remain undone - frustrating those around us or those trying to help. That is something else you(s) might relate to - something that suspends our action and, to the outside 'viewer' seems ludicrous and so easy to rectify. Maybe that resonates with you(s) - the point is there are many things that can only be understood by those with the disorder that are so difficult or impossible to articulate, and seem unnecessarily self destructive yet are a part of the struggle, as it were. Anyway that was long winded - I hope it gives you a further sense of community - take good care of each other and here's to your continued understanding, healing and a safe joyous future - kind regards, g (++)@@tendingourgarden
I relate to that very, very much--maddeningly so. It's true, that sort of thing really impedes my life and frustrates those who care about me, and tends to bring a great amount of shame. It's a big relief, as I'm sure you understand, to know that you understand this too; as a weight shared is halved--and it's good to be reminded that is part of living with these disorders/coping mechanisms, because even just hearing that helps me a lot to feel less ashamed and more self-compassionate. Community and shared perspective and support really is so important... That's the biggest reason I chose to make this channel, and I really value this space we have. Thank you again for reaching out, I appreciate you. Be well, and may you feel the peace, love, and joy that life has to offer <3
What do you feel when in a dissociative state? What do you think when it that state?
It varies. Sometimes I am very aware of it, and it feels like a switch is flipped, and I will notice my vision change, like I'm being pulled back into a tunnel or looking through a fog. Sometimes I'm semi-aware, and will notice that sounds are muffled like I'm underwater, or I will start hearing conversations going on between parts inside (due to DID) but this feels like standing on the outside of a circle of people talking when they don't make space for you, so you pick-up on the conversation midway and don't know what they're talking about. Sometimes I'm not aware until I have a sensation of "waking up," where I suddenly feel alert and aware, and only then realize that I was not before due to the contrast. It sometimes makes my body feel invisible, or too big, or too small. It often feels disorienting, like I can't properly place my body in space. I've had times where it's made me bang into walls or doorframes, or forget how to recognize and get from one place to another. Sometimes it makes it so I can't understand language--I can hear the sounds spoken by others around me but it doesn't have any meaning. If I try to read, I just see random symbols but can't decipher them into words. Often it's quite peaceful. It turns the dial down on outside stimuli and serves as a reprieve against overwhelm (It's definitely a coping mechanism). But sometimes it's just disorienting and overwhelming. It can even feel like I'm being pulled inward and collapsing, like imploding, and sometimes it makes my head or body physically do this. I used to feel scared and think, "What is happening?" "Am I crazy?" "Am I a ghost/did I die?" "Will I be stuck like this forever?" Things of that nature, when I had less awareness of what dissociation was and how to get grounded. Now I tend to feel a bit annoyed or surprised, or just curious, and think, "Oh, I just got really dissociated, I wonder what caused that?" and then I'll try to check in with my thoughts and feelings, think about what was happening previously, to figure out what I am needing in that moment, and what is making my psyche feel the need to defend in this way. (All that being said, it happens to me far less drastically now than in the past, thanks to learning how to stay grounded and regulate my nervous system, so yay for that! Recovery is possible.) Thank you for your thoughtful and interesting questions :)
Amen sister.
All of what she said it true and different person to person.
The things I know and the things that the brain does is unreal. It makes people not want to believe it is real. When you are physically mentally, sexually abused as a child,it shapes your mental health. I think it’s called trauma regression it happens and it real.
Thank you. This is how my experience is.
Thank you for commenting. It's always nice to hear from others who relate. <3
That .... fear of the spirit world though
Thank you...🔥💛
This is a spot on video. It’s so difficult to “show” someone what dissociating looks like, thank you for making this!!!
Thank you! It was vulnerable to put out there, and it is really hard to "show"--I appreciate your comment! <3
i had this happen recently in a video i recorded for tiktok. i've never seen it from the other side, didn't bother to pay attention to it until then and it was really unsettling when i saw it. finally getting help and won't know if it's osdd, did or something else until later.
Beautiful song too. Ty. I'm sorry Ur suffering. I have bpd
Thank you! And I appreciate that. I've recently come to terms with a diagnosis of BPD, too. BPD is really hard, sorry you're suffering, too--just the fact that you're here means you're strong. Thanks again <3
I just realized last night that this is what I’ve been experiencing and going through since childhood. I have more profound experiences lately and I find it’s worse with high levels of stress and emotions. But just brainstorming and going through memories from when I was alone as a child. I recall always having bizarre experiences and talking with or seeing strange things I couldn’t put into words. I shut down and question of this out of rationalizing it and saying everybody also must secretly behave or go through such things as a child too. Although the other part of me somewhat just didn’t want to believe that was a part of my reality and just acted like none of it was happening. The second somebody else is around it used to be easy to snap back into (their reality) but really it just feels like extremely high masking (as young as 5(but already dealing with trauma), when I was finally placed into a foster home) living with this in private the entire time only to go through more trauma in that household for 13 years. Now as an adult at 20. On the outside I’m a hard worker, highly empathetic just want to do good and be a soft individual, yet in MY real reality I’m paranoid. Hearing people speak with me “telepathically” seeing odd visions of memories that happened when I was tiny yet it doesn’t quite make sense for a while till I show curiosity or engage with whatever my brains trying to teach or show me. Again just realized I’ve been going through psychosis for a very long time. My diagnosis by psychiatrist is CPTSD/ quiet bpd, general anxiety, dissociative disorder. Panic attacks. But yes if anybody sees this and has any tips or suggestions pls let me know.
I think an early sign for me was being 3 and feeling highly alienated or like I was living my life through dissociation. already aware of things and understanding very confusing situations even for adults but I understood and knew how to behave and react etc. now though.. it feels like I’m going through a cognitive decline. And the more I try to heal myself the more profound and “spiritual” my experiences have felt.
Finally to add. Sometimes these psychosis symptoms can be extreme and influenced me to “ prep for end of world times in the means of an hour” BUT I’ve had more experiences where I have been told something by a figure (shadow or light) or shown something and then it happens or it’s true.. so is it all delusion ?
I'm sorry to hear you relate, but glad to connect with others who experience similar. To share more relevant info: an important distinction is the difference between trauma-based hallucinations and delusions, and psychosis. In the former, reality-testing is intact--for example, you are aware that a hallucination is a hallucination. In psychosis, reality-testing is not intact, there is thought-disorder, etc. I have and describe primarily trauma-based hallucinations and delusions from CPTSD, etc. I have experienced episodes of stress-induced psychosis, but primarily deal with the trauma-based kind of hallucinations and delusions, with reality-testing intact. Trauma-based hallucinations and delusions improve and remit with therapy and do not respond to antipsychotic meds--I'm not a doctor, but based on research and my experience. I've been meaning to make a new video clarifying further, but want to share as you relate. All the best to you.
So true, as I feel safer I’m remembering more of my childhood life, almost as if real time. Instead of feeling fragmented in a distant way, I’m right there seeing it and feeling it again. Last weekend was rough for me, I was crying off and on for hours, but it was good to grieve what should’ve, could’ve been better.
Thank you for sharing your experiences
How are you doing now?
That's so thoughtful of you to ask <3 I'm doing much better. My depersonalization/derealization is way better thanks to grounding, regulating my nervous system, integrating trauma, etc. It still happens occasionally, but rarely, and I'm no longer stuck in DP/DR as a chronic state. Unfortunately I went through some present-day trauma that exacerbated my CPTSD & DID a bit, but I'm coping and on the road to recovery. Thank you <3 I hope you are well, all the best to you.
@@tendingourgarden im glad to hear the first part, im sorry that you experienced more trauma since then. Your journey has been really helpful to me. Thank you for all your videos. I hope everything works out well for you
How about the other cluster B disorders?
I'm not 100% sure, but I think other cluster b personality disorders don't relate to structural dissociation the way bpd can..if that makes sense 😅
Great question! My research for this video on structural dissociation only described BPD out of the cluster B disorders. However, all cluster B disorders are described as 'defensive reactions to trauma' so all would fall under the similar spectrum of trauma disorders as BPD, PTSD, CPTSD, OSDD, & DID. Additionally, I've come across descriptions of the other cluster B disorders as structural dissociation--for example, many involve disconnect and dissociation of the vulnerable inner child, and the presence of a protective part. However, there is not as much research done into the other cluster B disorders as types of structural dissociation as there is for BPD. Also, BPD specifically involves instability in sense of self and disorganized attachment, so more closely resembles the structural dissociation seen in CPTSD, OSDD, DID, etc. Overall, I think you're onto something and I am interested to see more research done into this.
i do this so much. its so hard for me to stay grounded and do basic things. one thing i do is called seeing red and i saw this online. what you do is kill everyone in sight. (jk lmao) what it ACTUALLY is is finding objects around you that are red. you say their name. "red ball" and you take a deep breath. inhale thru the nose, exhale through the mouth. and repeat it. it work sometimes, other times it doesnt. sometimes i cant connect to even think to do that. but it may work for you!
Thanks so much for sharing, this is great advice!
Thanks for sharing your story!!
14:00 im sorry to hear that Winter caused you self harm. Thank you for sharing your story, you explain my experiences
Thank you! It's nice to know others who relate <3
Some of your "delusions" sound like reality to me, and that is scaring me
It's tricky when delusions are informed by real life, or resemble real life, which is definitely true for some of mine. It makes the untangling even more difficult!
Thank you for sharing
Wow your videos are really helpful!!
I'm so glad! Thanks so much for your comment <3
Hello, I hope you are doing well. You were brought to me by the almighty youtube algorithm.
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thank you