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One of my favorite qoutes from a song goes "if you rid of all your baggage then youll likely float away But you can't know bueaty, if you dont know pain" the song is Complicated Creation - cloud cult th-cam.com/video/Os7kvLzYKgY/w-d-xo.htmlsi=59qdGbIWiRKHvyVS ( i dont think it fits into your general genre of music, but it does speak on lifes ups and downs)

Are you a water elemental? Because you have that healing feel.

find a higher power become a truth seeker

hey, i also suffered with depression and self harm, bullying, even child abuse because of my dad most times...used to actually plan to kill myself that same day so i waited and it got better, um it might not help you but sometimes i get a stuffed animal or something to help, like i have my ducky...but i hope you get better soon...and i really like your room its cute… :)

I'm 26 now, and I also don't really have a plan laid out. 8 years ago, when I was your age, everyone around me were making plans about their life, but if I’ve learned anything at all, during the last 8 years, it's that rarely anything ever turns out the way you've imagined it. What I'm trying to say is... just try to take life 1 step at a time and if you always try to find the best short-term results, then short-term will eventually become long-term (if you could go back in time). It's really not an issue that you don't have a plan. As kids, we are naive to think that our parents had a plan. I know for sure my mum didn't :D It's always easier said than done, I totally understand that, but... just try to focus on the good things and find things that improve your life. Don't have to be people. Can be anything (legal ofc). Getting away from a "depressive" mindset is not a quick process. It's a long and slow one where you don't actively realize it's even happening. I wish you all the best.

You don't need to stare at face for three minutes to find out if it's beautiful or not. If you stare at anything long enough it looks weird.

Cause you are pretty and cute. And pretty cute.

1:23 never thought of them as noodle-stopers. Now I need one.

Are you able to get a neuro-psych eval? A lot of undiagnosed people on the autism spectrum have a very similar experience of depression and thoughts of ending things, because they can't understand why they feel so different and feel like life forgot about them or discarded them. I'm one of those people. I always felt like i was different and couldn't relate to most people and their goals in life. I got an evaluation at 37 years old and it turns out I have both autism snd adhd, along with depression and anxiety.

I'm going through the same things and I'm 21, at least being caught in the past and youth, and simply "existing". But try changing perspective the times I've been depressed and sad, was when I payed to much attention to bad things in life / or me, and this would lead to me being mad at myself, which would make me feel even worse, essentially a negative spiral, likewise I've found the opposite also to be true. Try focusing on the good, and this will eventually make you feel better. Glad you reached out, and didn't deal with this alone. Hope my story, views and advice can help you. Love from Denmark <3

Life is Eternal for all who seek it. Learning to let go and start a new is important. We are constantly evolving and changing, and I can assure you that there is so much greatness ahead, even if you do not see it now. Tomorrow will make itself known. Focus on living today, one foot in front of the other, at your pace. Life really is infinite, and I've come to know life and creation as God, the embodiment of creation. Focusing on him gave me a way out. Set your sights on higher things my dear. I almost put a bullet in my head long ago. God saved me. God is creation and life. I set my sights on creation, I set my sights on something greater. You are distined for greatness. So chase that down, you are not done yet or ever. There is much more to be had. Knowing greatness awaits, the thought of that is enough to keep me going, knowing that our trials will bear rewards. You have many rewards waiting for you, and that is why it is so difficult. The enemy doesn't want you to succeed. You will succeed anyways. Keep going strong, greatness awaits. God Bless You ❤ 🙏 ~

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was that a razor or a toothbrush?

I can relate so much to this, I'm getting better and I'm working on my mental health. Thanks for making this video, really helped out ❤

I feel you, I've been pretending that I'm ok in front of my friends/family for quite a long time now. Cheering for you ^^

take care of yourself!! :)

When I was a teenager, I thought I'd kill myself before I turned 20. I thought it was inevitable. Turns out I was wrong... And I'm sure you will be too.

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u remember my sis, :(

Hi.... I'm 21 and I thought that, when I turned 20 something collapsed in my mind and then I just got here, I'm not telling you that it's easy what happens to you or what you feel but an introspection It serves to postpone that moment that you feel is not ready to arrive, I do it, I have my reasons as friends and family, but there are things that I can only say anonymously, it is your decision And only you know how to overcome everything that is in your head. (In case you read this... Hello)

Try: * practicing gratitude * learn about philosophy, gain perspective even if by willfully witnessing traumatic content * learn to give up, forget about competition and material wants (i didn't phrase this well) * stop self-whipping and make up a goal - it can be anything but make it realistic. Stick to routines. Force to speak to people and stuff.

gosh i always feel the same way but you seem very deep person to talk to you and Im just suprised you feel lonely despite being so beautiful I would think you have many friends. Friends eventually move on and you only get so much time but Ive honestly just wish for some girl to come into my life and change it because I want that kind of love in my life. I know friends come and go and they move on with their life esp starting a family or so on. I would love to talk to you and game with you to be honest wish I had someone like you

Another thing that helps is practicing gratitude. Seriously, think about all the things you have that so many dont. Food, cloths, housing, safety. Im sure if you look you can find all kinds of blessings to feel greatful for. Just look in the mirror. You're beautiful. Young. In a first world country. Probably not having to stress about bills or struggling for money. Your parents love you. You're needed.

So creepy

The hole inside can only be filled by Jesus Christ. Truth.

Most important thing in life is your relationship with God. You should pick up the Bible and read though genesis, Mathew, and one you chose yourself. Work on doing the inner work Jesus Christ taught. Start with forgiveness. Practice meaning forgiveness inside. Its actually not so simple. Try meaning absolute forgiveness for your parents. It sounds weird, but its a really good exercise. You might learn somethings. Just try, meaning it inside. Trust me, it works. Pray about it. Break down before Jesus Christ and ask for forgiveness. The Bible is truth. Jesus Christ is the way truth and life.

I'm glad to hear that you realized that you didn't need to do that. I understand how it is being at this point in life and how uncertain it can feel. I'm 22 now myself and I had a similar thought when I was in high school. I thank God that he freed me from the depression and suicidal thoughts I used to have. I'll just say, don't be afraid to reach out to the people you love and trust. I'll be praying for you.

i can fix her...

I got my date set already, if nothing changes in my life for the better (money), I delete. But I'm 38 yrs old, you are much younger so you should see a little bit more of the world.

I understand how you feel I've always had a similar feeling except for me it's 30 I'm 29 now I've been doing better but I understand how loved ones to understand it's so painful

make sure you get a big hug today okay. I'm sorry that things are piling up on you. Ito. I think you are doing your best. You are in a new place. New friends. New opportunities. And a new mindset. You are smart enough to detect the negative patterns and make chances where you can. I also want you to consider this : It's okay to feel sad sometimes. It's okay to not have a lot of hope in yourself or your future. To be honest, hope and illusion and delusion, dreams are sort of all the same thing. The only difference is how we feel about them, how they make us feel, and if it's something that holds us down, or holds together, or holds us up. If what you feel in your heart can suppress you, then there can also be something there which can encourage you, and fill you with joy. Something to look forward to. I believe life is a game where we try to drag the things we dream of, out of our heads and into reality. It isnt always easy or always fun, but since we are here, why don't we try to become better at it? :3 It's easy to say, but not easy to do. For me, life is trying to push through a crowd of negative thoughts all wanting me to go the other direction. Back into myself. Back into despair. But i've been that way enough times to know there is nothing but darkness and sadness there. I dont want to go back there. I hope you find a better way and place to be, in your heart and in your life. *big hug*

I was gonna kill myself one time but I wanted to see how Naruto ended

Why kys You look beautiful No one wants to see such a pretty girl end herself

keep the spirit, don't give up. Maybe we think that we are not valuable to other people, but we may be considered valuable by other people, people we have only met briefly. keep doing good deeds, because one day these good deeds can help us someday. Every human being must have problems, but if there is a problem there will definitely be a solution! sorry for my poor language >.<

I felt the same way too. I never envisioned that I would even make it this far - but the fact that I did makes it feel like I defied everything against me. You learn a lot about yourself when you get older. And when you do, you realize that those thoughts are but the thoughts of worthless spews meant to do nothing but hold you back. So living on is the greatest form of defiance because then you will always have the last laugh. Keep living on! Giving up is a gateway to defeat, and doing so will prove those worthless answers correct when they mean nothing and will only result in a waste of your potential! Let yourself blossom or you will never get to see those colors.

Please do not end yourself. it's one thing if you are meant to be taken, but to end yourself is throwing away the precious gift of life that was given to you, and you have made so much progress, and have so much more to do, see, and experience. It okay being prepared for de@th, i myself am also due to something similar (long story short was given info by cosmos when young about when id die; ive got two years til that time) Moving on, there is absolutely no reason you need to apologize for crying, especially for a pawpaw (make sure next time ya see him ya give em extra love, okay? I missed out on giving my pops a hug before he passed, a mistake i dont wish anyone else to have to experience first hand) one of the things that sticks out to me about your channel js how honest your are, and you honestly expressing your sorrow is a part of that. You said that this channel functions as a way to get things off your chest, so anyone still here should expect to see rawness like this, and that okay, however if i see someone shunning you for your honest display of emotion ill have words for certain. Finally, you are doing great! I am proud of you for taking care of yourself, and moving forward even if though road is difficult, you have a good mentality about pushing through, keep that same energy avout making it to your 21st birthday ( i aint asking ya to cheat death if it comes, just to keep trying to envision the bright future you want, let that be a guiding star, yaknow? You really are doing great though, i will liekly comment on many videos as you check in here, i can definitely get if you skip em cause their longwinded and aint no body got time for that, but if you do read it, i hope the biggest take away is im rooting for you, and that if nothing else you do have one persons ear, but to be fair you have so so many around you that care about you. You most certainly arent alone anymore, though i forsee you meeting more people in the future that also become your friends, who knows maybe itll be after your 20th :p (see what i mean, im obstinate when it comes to life lol) as i always do, May you have providence to helpnwith your schoolwork, a shoulder when you need to cry, and many many more years of a good, no, Great life ahead of you. (If it be the will of the cosmos of course) til next time(^-^)/

Mind you i just discovered you today, and have only watched a handful of your videos, but you have markedly improved your mental state, the sorrow in your voice in the first video i watch made my heart ache, but hearing you laugh, and seeing you smile even if briefly in more recent videos made it joyful Whatifs Are terrible for mental health, because almost nothing can compare to what the mind can conjour up on its own. The method i mentioned about listening to your heart can also help with those, the same general practice was used by the vedas of India to silence the inner thoughts so they could reach Atman (The Highest Self), and realize Brahmah (Ultimate Truth/Reality) but long story short by practicign it the inner monlogue of thoughts that pop up randomly dwindle to the point of silence, this has the strange and fascinating side effect of removing all the negative chatter a lot of us have. There is nothing wrong with liking things that bring you joy, if you look at the happiest people in the world they are the ones who unashamedly enjoy their life to the fullest, if you wanna collect plushies and that makes your heart happy, then darn gonnit younshould collect plushies, and bite your thumb at anyone who trys to shun you for it. Life is a precious gift we are given so its a shame when we let everyone aside from ourselves dicatate what we can and cant enjoy. I still believe you may wanna look into checking if youre neurodivergent, a lot of the things you bring up are very familar to me, the feeling of not being your age, the difficulty taking care of yourself, the hyperfixation on completeing the stop motion animation (causing you to miss out on sleep,) your difficulty with socialization, your desire for quiet, ofcourse i am again fairly new to your videos so im goingn off on a handful of things said in a few videos, if younare neurodivergent it would explain a lot of the toubles you have faced, and though there is no cure for any neurodivergence, there are tolls that you can be taught to help mitigate some of the difficulty. I will probably reply on one more of your videos for now as i watch your latest, but again, you are not alone, and you are heard. May you find the rest you seek so that you may be in Great Health. Body, Mind, and Soul, and May you be lead to where you need to be, and shown what it is you need to see to have peace of mind. Til next time (^-^)/

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Hugs 🫂 I felt the same way year ago 🔮

Hugs 🫂

I'm sorry you are having such a rough time with this. Honestly, you don't need a plan. Just see what tomorrow brings. I've never made a plan but I've been lucky enough to get where I am by surrounding myself with good people. Keep asking yourself what you want and answering one question at a time.

i’m 16 and feel the same way but instead of doing it myself i feel like it’ll just happen somehow and i’ve felt that way since i was like 8 that something will happen. it’s scary and i just wish i knew why i feel that way so something can convince me it’s not true.

I'm glad you're still here with us. Life will get better. You have many years ahead of you. Don't give up. You were made for something special and if you give it a chance you will figure things out. You have a beautiful and humble spirit. I believe great things will be in your future. You definitely have a purpose you just haven't found it yet but you will. Please keep holding on. You're definitely not alone in your thinking or experiences. I can definitely relate to much of the struggles you've described. The future isn't written. You are not fated to fail. You have the ability to succeed and thrive but it all starts with belief. Believe that you can succeed and recognise that the future isn't set out for you.

You need two lists to figure out what you think. 1 list of what you know How do you know.? 2 list of what you believe Why do you believe.? What you know and what you believe are not the same. Invest by Paying attention to the present The interest payoff will feel exciting. Be still and Know yourself

Everyone feels this way, I don't have friends and I understand your loneliness. Don't think too much, just live in the moment and put yourself first, you'll be fine <3 You may not know it but you are much stronger and more capable than you can imagine.

Monster Hunter World kept me alive, lol

well lets start with what is your goal in life, have you sat down and asked yourself what do I wont in life. It scares people to ask that question but its the first step in planning your futcher. second is you have a tallent for sining did you ever think you could make so many others happy with your music, anyway if you find this helpfull ask me more and i will tell you about how i found my calling in life.

I'm glad you sharing your thoughts and art. I liked your book. It takes a lot of courage sharing art. Just keep going...

Well, I am glad you're still here. Despite the odds, despite the doubt, you're still here. Screw whomever caused all this pain suffering and terrible thoughts. However. Do let this harden your resolve. You're a good person. I hope things continue looking up for you.

I also think too much about everything. About how pointless it is, how I'm not enough in all sorts of ways. How the people around me are so content with less, or they seem to have things mapped out for them even if they don't know about it. I feel like a real life npc. When things go wrong, I just focus on getting good sleep and putting it off for another night. Letting rest reset my very very low tolerance for life. Starting my day fresh doing the things I care about